Yesterday was the most quiet happy day because of something happen. But at the same time 'the something' is the first thing happen in my life. I mean this something is so heavy. I mean the responsible is heavy for me. But at the same time I was mad. At someone.
Today the 'one' is having a big day and he lock himself in his or something that make me worry like hell. I asked his friend about him but, didn't get what I want. Maybe I should give him sometime..

First time a boy call me and make me feel like, ARH!!!!!! I mean he has the mature voice make me so in to him. I never feel this glad before. Maybe the glad is not the first time. This thing become serious as I said about comic. I said I have many comic and I asked him if he like comic too. And he like on of my favorite comic. I mean I just bought it. A month ago.
He willing to come from his house to my house. I mean he is from bercham and i live at epoh. Quiet far. And the words that I cannot ever forget are:
HE: So where is the way to your house?
ME:Erm,,,,maybe you could use the highway. But maybe that maybe so far away.
HE: I DON'T CARE HOW FAR..

Wow!!!IS that for real or just because just to rent my comic. I'm still guessing it. But,,,,I don't really convenient with my feelings.I hope he will not destroy my heart...

for you information, today i saw one show. that show is so interesting because they make a list about what they want to do before they die. i mean they make a list with full of like impossible things to do. like join the play boy party. or make a speech at a stranger's wedding. they also help people along their ways.
that make me realize that we have only one life. real life is not a game. so maybe i should make list too. so think about it.

I have been obsess with it lately. I mean I like the twins in harry pother. George and Fred or real name as James and Oliver Plelps. But I don't know who I want to get to read.

I mean now is holiday. huhu

I hope can fine more light at my new school next year. 'light' means friend. I really like to have many friends. For me, friend is one of the most important thing in my life.

Most important
*Allah
*Proper Muhammad
*My family
*Studies
*My foster bros
*Friends (all)
*Many more

I hope can fine more light at my new school next year. 'light' means friend. I really like to have many friends. For me, friend is one of the most important thing in my life.

Most important
*Allah
*Proper Muhammad
*My family
*Studies
*My foster bros
*Friends (all)
*Many more

I have lost some friends that I hope to be together again . But things never change. I ask for forgiveness she throw it away like a rubbish into the dustbin. I feel hurt because at the time we are not together make me feel weird and strange. The first year I know you is the year I'm not your friend.
If you don't even want to be friend with me is fine cause next year we will never meet again. For me it is not fine cause as long as you do not forgive me, I will try to make you. But now you still hate me so, fine. Search for your new friend and never remember me Never say a thing at me again cause I don't care anymore. I already ask forgiveness for many time but you ignore it. So, fine I will live you alone.

You know since last year my sister obsess with that show on YouTube and now he already have website on his own. I mean he is a kind boy cause he donate the money he get from the show to the charity. He also use to show many interesting shows and funny.
He is still studying in one of the collage I guess so. He also a cute guy and quite good looking too. For me, watch his show in YouTube cause by watching also can be donate to charity.

it is really damn bored. I do not know what I feel cause now maybe I feel empty cause my friend that I hope was on was not. Arh!
Can someone tell me what to do cause I feel like wanna kill someone. No lah, just kidding. Now I think I will be fever cause I already caught in flu and some batuk. Make me feel terrible but I do not want to be sick so pray me to be well. Amin.

Today I got upsr result and I really grateful to allah because giving me a good result. I got full A's and I cry of happiness as I know I got full A's. And also I congrats to my friends that got the same result.
And thank to people that congrats me!!!!!!!!

Now everyone have facebook and make it as number one chant web. I also have facebook account.

Sometime facebook make people addicted with it. My dad always make me angry about it.

Don't be too obsess with facebook.

He is one of the people that I admire of. I mean his voice is so,,, damn nice. He sing the religion songs. Of course about islam. If you listen to his songs, you sure will like it.
I hope i can get his autograph and meet him. Now I am the biggest fan of him. I just mean, a fan of him.

Why when I am joking, they take to serious and reply with something way out of the line. I will be patient but I need to it let go because I cannot just keep quiet. You think I do not have any feeling. If you are really mad at me, fine. Maybe I am too rough.
All the thing that I do not take so seriously, that mean I am just joking. If my joke make you mad, tell me. Maybe I will understand because sometime I may cross the line. This stuff is not cool because I do not want people to hate me and look at me like I am the bad person.

Went I am mad, I feel like want to destroy everything that are around me. It drive me crazy and really not patient anymore. Sometime I can still control myself but sometime I am out of control and be like someone so lunatic. Not that bad.
But went my friends or someone are mad, they will sulk. Duh, waiting for someone to say sorry, right? Sometime I am like that. Not every time. But some will eat a load as they are mad just like they are tension. For me all of it is normal. Maybe a part of hormone.
But if you are mad badly just try to relax and let it go slowly maybe it will make you feel better. Don't be so tension because everything is part of life so face it. And always be cool.

Things change from time to time. I mean the trend,clothes,attitude,topic of textbooks even the language for mathematic and science. Some changes make us happy but some make us boring. But we have to face it because things change.
I give one example, the changes of my age from 12 to 13 (just example), that means I have to go to the secondary school and leave the memories at primary as history. Do you think I am happy, maybe a little but I will fell so damn bad to leave my friends,teaches and my bus that full of friends that alway have time to listen to my problems. I mean only someone that go though it can fell what I fell. That thing change and every primary students will fell lost without any laugh until we meet a new best friend. That thing we must face it will the words, things will change no matter what happen and grab it with your heart even you hate it.
Some changes of attitude make people like us but some make people hate us. From nice to naughty and from naughty turn to nice. People change because of hormone, surrounding and friends. People can change if they want to change and have the spirit to change.

SO, PREPARE OS ANY CHANGES IN YOUR LIFE BECAUSE WE WILL FACE IT EVEN YOU HATE IT OR LIKE IT.

Do you think being the youngest is the best. Sometime we will get the advantages and disadvantages. I mean, we will be ignore just because we are young. We also will get all the attitude no matter good or bad, from our WHOLE family. It's like we are the mix of brothers,sisters and parent. Sometime we are weird because of their attitude mixing.
Sometime I wonder who did the thing that is weird. Like, I like baking and cooking but my siblings hate cooking but my dad is good at it and my mum does not REALLY like cooking. Maybe it is from my great great grandparents. Maybe.
But sometime it's kind of fun because we can get what we want for some youngest, right? I don't. But I like being the youngest because os many reason and one of it is, it's cool.

Many thing happen so quickly. ANd strangely. Maybe I were the only one who surprise. I mean, I meet and talk to the people that I also didn't expect. its like miracle. and sometime maybe i shouldn't be too emo...

Tell me why are you guys were so mad at me at that time. I mean, I give you the letter and you make that poker face. Just be honest.
That statement I want to say to two of my friends. I felt so weird at that time. Weird plus angry because of their attitude.. Such a bad person. I did not make any mistake at them.
Whatever because it is not my mistake. Whatever that they said about me at that day, for me they didn't mention anything. Boy are so damn weird...

My foster bro make me so down he said that he don't want to couple but he break that promise. But it's fine because he already admire the thing. And that's not a big deal.

About boyfriend, erm.... no comment because I'm still single. Maybe after exam. Just maybe not really but if fate its fine.

Everyone have their special ones like boyfriend,girlfriend or any other people but who is the most special without including family members. For me my best friend and maybe Mr. Secret. I mean I really like and love them because they tread me well.

My friend always support me of course but the only person that always2 be with me Miss SS. She had been with me since I was seven. Can you count how long it takes to built a strong relationship. And other is just friend like regular friend. I mean they don't really understand me.

But the other I did mean to hurt your feelings.

This blog is all that I feel I let it go. I tell people that i cannot see so they don't know who am I. I always feel lonely when at home alone and if I can on I will let go all my feeling at this blog.

Sure this blog. All the stories are real, I do mean it. But sometime am not sure about what I write. I mean for me is fun to read but for you guys is it fun? I don't care about it as long as I 'm good it's fine. Anyway, if you like or not this blog, please live a comment. It will be meaningful. If it is positive.

yeah I did. But he don't know about it and he is so nice to me. But he already couple with one girl but that girl is nut suitable with him. Not jealous but I do mean it because we were best friend last time but she betrayed me.
She is a nice girl but she turn to a girlish girl. I do mean girlish and she is so-so-so annoying. But what can I do because that couple never even met face-to-face but sms. Get out!!
But I got one problem. I have a crush at his brother and him and it seem to be a huge problem and I always think who to choose? But as long as I was a secret thing so don't be that worry. Hope you all can give some advises. And really need all of it.

p/s;this thing is so unbelievable for cool girl like me.

What will you fell if your best friend betray you. I mean she tell everyone except you. If I, I fell like want to kick her. I mean how could she, I'm her best friend that all I get. Sure 100% I felt like had been betray by my own best friend.

One day my OWN friend tell everyone about one blue book and some secrets but she never tell my anything about that stuff. I felt so down. And they keep on annoying me. ME, can you believe it ME her best friend. The one that willing to hear anything from her and willing to share.

But then as she in trouble. I can't help her much because WHO AM I to HELP HER. But as my heart is a a golden one, I help her with her problems. I mean since that case, I really really have a phobia with anything that have connection with that case.

But my other best friend also do the same. I feel very down like they cut my heart into pieces. This thing is not cool at all. If anyone read this and feel like what I feel, leave a comment. Who am I for them to share.....

I am a student that need a lot of ideas for my studies. I'm sure you guys too need some at least for something meaning. I mean,I always kind of suck in the thinking stuff. Sometime thinking at something happy or unhappy gains me some ideas of course.

But the thing that give me ideas are movie and stories. But sometime weird stuff give me the ideas and imaginations. But what keep me doing all of it is sure my dreams. I mean if we don't have any dream will make it easy. My dream is to get A for the subjects that need ideas like English. I mean to write the essays. I'm not good at that and I always get 7/15. How worst can it be if I don't score my paper1.

So always live with your dreams and never give up. Just keep running but you must never stop. Life is simple and time is running out of time...
Time never stop and never return.....

Idios from cool girl....wish me for my luck in my exams....

I have two foster brother. It just for fun and to have friends. But my friend not all have foster brother. But I don't care.

A foster brother is someone we like to share and I also have two brother. I mean my siblings. If you like to have one just try.

Its been a long time didn't met you guys. I've got a lot to say but lazy to write. But the latest is, my friend and I just have a fight about telephone. The truth is I start it but I was just kind of kidding but maybe she sound serious. But its all just maybe won't last long. I guess so.

And my best friend has just maybe fall in love with a bot that is younger that her. I said maybe, not really. If she know that I write about this I'm sure will be death. Anyway I don't really care about it because is not that imported to me.

In Malaysian is holiday so I got so much stuff to do and my examination is just around the corner. So I guess I have to study mare that regular. To all readers, wish me luck for my examination..

p/s; love you all

It is great to be alive because we cannot be alive again next time. But my life is not like everyone, I mean my freedom or any other things. Everyone have different life.

My father is one of the best man but he always control me. Everything, internet and what other things that I really3 want. He said it depends to your age and bla..bla..bla.. I always keep this word in my head, be patient and don’t get mad yet but you can complain.

Friends, yup I’m glad to have so many friends. But not all my friend always change accept for my friend in my bus. Since I’d my extra classes they started to changed to be more annoying till I get fed up with all their action. They also liked to keep secrets from me but last time we always share secret together. They also started to ignore me just like that hell. WHATEVER!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Get jealous? Maybe I have been jealous with someone. Because of friends ,teachers and maybe boys. Maybe not boys or yes. Went I get jealous I’ll be sulking or any other weird things.

Mad? Of course I did get mad. Almost everyday and sometime to birds because they live their popo at my clothes. Anyway, getting mad is not something that is good because it may make our heart be like stone. People will start to stay away from you and you will be a blacklists.

Fall in love is something that is so special to talk about. Love is something that make our life be better and worst because of its power. I always wonder about the meaning of love. But in dictionary it says that love is a kind of emotional. I guess so. And in what that I observe, love has many meaning. Like, love is blind, love is a great power, love can make you crazy (kill yourself) and more. Just watch love story and read novels. I’m sure you will understand a little bit.

About my love, I did fall and I ‘m just too scare to tell my love to him. And the relationship didn’t work out good.

So, I think just until here I tell you all about my life. (I think I better write a novel)

It has been a long time I didn't wrote any article. I don't have any idea right now but I would like say hello to all dear readers. I hope that I can be a great novelist and scientist.
Maybe I'll tell you all about my ambition. I want, I mean I really want to be a novelist and scientist because I love reading and science. I'm a little bit like a weird student, but not too weird. But what I really wish now is I want to try couple. But maybe not know..

Why is it so hard for me to gather with the boy that I like. I mean like, something. It's hard to explain. I like two guys, both of them didn't know who I am. But they were different age.
The first guy I met in my bus, he is now 3 years older than me. The second one, already couple but so cute. It is to hard to fall in love.

Do you know how boring feels? Sure, went you're lazy, you will felt boring. It's not nonsense but true. When I'm boring I use to sleep or do read comic books.
Sometime I use to wrote some article or anything that can be wrote. But, sometime I more prefer to open my myspace,facebook and yahoo. but it's also boring too. So, what can I did?

A life of malay girl is not a worst thing. But to be a western, polite and unpopular girl maybe more harder. Sure, all the movie that I watch about high school in overseas is like a hell if we’re not popular. So, I’m lucky to be birth and study in Malaysia cause popular is not one of the basic need in school. But to be popular can make us easy to enter any competition.
But for the rich family, they take care about their image and standard. I don’t get it because all human are just the same because we are human not alien. Just because of their class they can control who they want? What kind are they.
But if you guys are rich but not really showing much, I give a smile. Life is important to us very mush cause we can live in this beautiful earth just once. There is no second chance if you’re died or make mystic. Everything we do, we must be careful because small thing can turn into a big thing.
Life is a gift so appreciate it. Don’t make it easy. Remember we can’t live forever and time move faster than we expect. ;p

To be muslim was the greatest thing. I hope all the muslims out there pray. My ustazah use to said that everything that we do will be count. If you are a loyal to islam to you maybe will be safe. But you also must always prevent from doing some thing that are not allowed to do.
If you still do the thing many bad thing may be hunt you when you're in your grave or padang masya. In grave maybe you'll be ask with the angels or malaikat. In the padang masya you'll take your pahala dan dosa book. Please, make this thing serious. There are many good things will happen if you are loyal to islam.

More information ask your ustazah or ustaz, search in google or yahoo or any other resources. ;p

I understand how it feel to be alone. I'm the youngest in my family and the different my age and my sister is 10 years. You all maybe feel like how I feel if you are like me or if you are anak tunggal.
But the thing is that always make me happy is went I'm with my friends and sometime with my siblings. Last time I use to be so emo with my family and friends but now I realize that emo won't solve problem but make problem that will cause more lonely.
Having friends that understand me is so meaning for me. Sometime I feel like I want to be emo but I try my best to control. So if you all out there lonely because of any problem, try to contact with your family or friends to share your problem.
If nobody want to friend with you try to make friend that may understand your. Believe me, lonely sometime may cause stress that is no good for your health. ;p

We would grow old

You and me will be lying side by side
Forever, forever
Underneath this adolescent sky
Together, together
And you will hold my heart inside your hand
And You'll be the one, the one to tell me

Oh, we've got a long, long way to go
To get there
We'll get there
But oh, if there's one thing that we know
It's that we will not grow old

I made you swear that our hearts will never die
No never, no never
Cause no one seems to believe that we can fly
Forget them, forget them
Oh, you told me

Oh, we've got a long, long way to go
To get there
We'll get there
But oh, if there's one thing that we know
It's that we will not grow old

Oh, we've got a long, long way to go
To get there
Yeah we'll get there
But oh, if there's one thing that we know
It's that we will not grow old

Oh, how could we know that day?
It came with age
That oh, feeling would fade

Oh, we've got a long, long way to go
To get there
We'll get there
But oh, if there's one thing that we know
It's that we will not grow old

Oh, we've got a long, long way to go
To get there
Yeah we'll get there
But oh, if there's one thing that we know
It's that we will not grow old

We will not grow old
We won’t grow old
No, no, we will not grow old
Oh no, we will not grow old
We will not grow old

I'm so stress with one of my friend. He like to call me nonsense things. Last time I like him because he is kind and funny but now I know that I am wrong.
Other then that, I use to smile or wave or do both thing to pupil that look at me or my friends. But, one boy use to stare at me, so I smile at him but he just keep staring that make me angry and unsatisfied.
People like that is so whatever that make me fed up with them. Sometime I feel like they are selfish. I wonder if the I do things that they use to me, what are their feelings.
Boys or girls are just the same. But I think girls are more kind then boys. ;p

Do you know what mean by poyo? Ask someone that is malay. I really hate and feel like vomit went a poyo girl act poyo.
For me, they are over acting and send jiwang comments on photos to boy they like. But boy like addib (someone) is like so skema. I don't know what the boys may think but they act blind and just say, thanks.
Sometime I though that maybe both of them are poyo. For first time I write a name on my blog. Poyo is like so over skema. Put you first finger on your tongue because that is how I feel now. ;p

Boy like whatever. I'm not really good in this thing but they are kind of cute. Girls are attract at boys or boys are attract at girls. That is neutral thing.
But, boys even girls that want to be beautiful or handsome must always starts with inside. But if you think your not that cute or anything just ask yours best friend or anyone to make over you.
You know, I never couple before but I know how it feel to be in love. ( jiwang karat tul ah)But if anything happen like your love has been push don't show your sad straightly. Be cool.

If you didn't finish your homework or anything, there is just three way to solve its
;better finish it right away
;be cool
;copy from anyone that has same work like you

And if you has spot check and you do or bring something that against the rules there are someway to prevent it's
;be cool
;hid it
-in toilet
-paste it somewhere
-put in plastic and put in the soil(tanam in malay, I forget in English) it
-put in shoes
;or do any creative way or I mean, your way

The fact is if you always be honest you will earn a gift or anything or if you stay cool maybe they never suspect you at all. So be creative and be honest if you want a girt and pahala is for islam you'll get two in one. ;)

Shy is human thing but shy also for me an enemy. Because shy make me not to get any guys number. No, I'm just kidding.
To be honest, I like a boy and the last time I saw him is just this last Sunday. He stand just beside me but I'm nerves to ask his class and name.Damn, time like that won't come anytime. But it already past, what to do.
The thing is, if you shy you will loses what did you want. I'm coward about boys but if you damn in love with someone you better don't let he/she let go like that. Don't let the chance go like what I did so be brave and live the coward ang shy feelings away.

Welcome New Year!!!!!!!!Welcome 2010!!!!School is now open, so now I'm going to handle many extra classes. Bu!Bu!

For me, everything still the same just the number of year is change and just new school things for all the kids.

Send "We Will Not Grow Old" ringtones to your cell

You and me will be lying side by side
Forever, forever
Underneath this adolescent sky
Together, together
And you will hold my heart inside your hand
And You'll be the one, the one to tell me

Oh, we've got a long, long way to go
To get there
We'll get there
But oh, if there's one thing that we know
It's that we will not grow old

I made you swear that our hearts will never die
No never, no never
Cause no one seems to believe that we can fly
Forget them, forget them
Oh, you told me

Oh, we've got a long, long way to go
To get there
We'll get there
But oh, if there's one thing that we know
It's that we will not grow old

Oh, we've got a long, long way to go
To get there
Yeah we'll get there
But oh, if there's one thing that we know
It's that we will not grow old

Oh, how could we know that day?
It came with age
That oh, feeling would fade

Oh, we've got a long, long way to go
To get there
We'll get there
But oh, if there's one thing that we know
It's that we will not grow old

Oh, we've got a long, long way to go
To get there
Yeah we'll get there
But oh, if there's one thing that we know
It's that we will not grow old

We will not grow old
We won’t grow old
No, no, we will not grow old
Oh no, we will not grow old
We will not grow old

Quiet boys is great. Because they always cute and nice but the thing is, they quiet. Today my friend and I talk about it. It's just for fun. But sometime the quiet boy are more evil then we know. And some are just selfish.

But for me and my friend though, the loud or cool always easy to get their partner. And the other not the same. You all know what I mean. And It's easy them to hear our advise but don't push them too hard.