Assalamualaykum, Alhamdulillah

So,



It is not something fun. Honestly it is a damn big thing in my life. Love life. Whenever it comes to love, it's never easy. You get me, right?



Well, i had been thinking. A lot of thinking since we made it official.



I want to be happy. I do. And i want you to be happy too.

It's never fun to be broken.

So hear what i had decided.

Dear, TYFF

For the pass days i had been unhappy with us. I was mad and sad. And you seems to make it worst. It's never fun to be upset while being with you. I became so confused.

I watched my favorite show. HOW I MET YOUR MOTHER. Because i missed them so much. Just like how much i missed our happiness. It had 9 seasons. I literally grew up with that show. I had watched it since I was a kid.

Well, its about Ted telling his children how he met his wife. It's a very damn long story. He met Robin. That was the first episode in the first season. Then there are a lot of conflicts and whatever. In the end, the last episode of the last episode, he decided to marry Robin. It got me thinking.

Once you met someone that means the world to you, no matter how many wrong people you meet, you were about to marry, you felt for, but in the end you will still end up with that particular first person that means the world to you. Even if it took years for you to actually end up with that first person.

So, hear me out.

I am not going anywhere. I will not waste my time to find someone else. I am just here. Standing and waiting for you. I might be the first person you met. I might be like Robin.

What I am asking right now, can you wait?

I love all of our time. Being with you is a bless but right now its just not right. I do love you but there is a bigger love that i have to achieve before loving you for real. I have to get myself ready to be a good and great girl for you. Improve myself.

When I met you, i was in the phase of being better. When you came along, I stopped. I was scared that people said I am being hypocrite. As i looked back, meeting you is not a mistake as all. If it is something wrong and you are not meant to be in my life, you had left me because I am the kinda person that never push anyone aside but people walked away from my life because they want to. So, meeting you is something special. You are meant to be with me but you have to wait.

You may hang out with the wrong chick but eventually you will end up with me. If you want to.

You know how to find me.



I just love this quote.



I have a path that I have to walk through. But I have to walk it alone. I can't always hang out with you. I can't always remind you of our love. But what I can do, be with you forever when you marry me.

As we married, we can do everything and anything what we will be missing now. Nothing is forbidden. You can have my everything. Anything.

All I asking is, wait. Can you?

I am not ending anything but I am slowing down it. It's like a pause button. We can still continue later.

But you are free to walk away from my life. I will never force you to stay.

Once you enter someone else's life, please, never enter mine again. That's all.

Well, HELLO EVERYONE MY NAME IS TYLER OAKLEY!

Guess what, today I am going to talk about him! He is not famous in my country but still, I KNOW HIM. LOVE HIM TOO!! He is so inspiring. Seriously!

I am not here to support LGBT or what so ever I am here to support someone who live their DREAMS!

He is the very damn popular YOUTUBER! And... I JUST LOVE HIM.

Here is his history of life. You can check him in youtube. Just click, Tyler oakley in the search engine and the rest, is HIM!

https://youtu.be/IsQ75Qdq5fU

Why do you have to love him? Why do you need to support him?

Let me tell you, i found out about him from TeensReact (Fine Brothers Entertainment). He is one of the YouTuber who do the react stuffs. I waqs so curious about him because he seems fun! Soooooo energetic! Like, seriously!

He always post fun videos of him doing fun stuffs. It good for people who need to laugh and smile. Seriously, you will fall for him.

He is super nice! He do charities and he appreciates his fans! He made the slumber parties to spend time with his fans!



Honestly, you can just Googled his name if you want to know EVERYTHING about him. He is literally everywhere except Asian.

I was hoping to find his BINGE soon but unfortunately, he is not known in MALAYSIA! WHY!!!!!! Well, that is what Internet is about, shop it online.

Once you watched his channel, you would crave for more! Trust me~

I know some people in my own country hate gay people because they say gay people is wrong and they should be ashamed of themselves. Even in my religion, we don't prefer gay or LGBT stuff but, haaa there is a but. But that does not mean you must oppress them. They are still human but they are slightly not in the same road as us.

I see many celebrities who are very proud to announce that they are gay or whatever.

What I am trying to say, we need to look at the good side of the people. Why we have to waste our time making fun of them when actually even we realize that they are better than us. For an example, i bet Tyler Oakley made a lotttt of greens along the way to achieve his fame! He never let words let him down.

Even it was hard for his father to accept his, interest but eventually his father came and support him in his live movie Snevous.

https://youtu.be/uJJP5AfCTX8

He is the MOST SUCCESSFUL YOUTUBER EVER. He is just so legend!

I do support Malaysian's YouTubers like Matlutfi, Tarbiah Sentap, Maria Elena and etc. It is because they wanted to make the society a better place.

In the meantime, tyler show me something else.

A good in a person. I know that most people prefer to see the dark side of everyone. That is the problem.

He inspires me to have fun in life. You only live once to make the most of it.

Tyler graduated with degree. He just think being a full time YouTuber is his passion. Because that is what he loves to do so much.

Yeah, he taught me lo live my dream. Look at him now! He had his own book.



His own movie.



His cute cute friends, especially Troye Sivan!



They look cute as couple. I can't help it! *blushing*

He made the most in his life. We can make it too!

Well, i want to have my own charity. I want to write a book. I want to travel the world too!

Oh yeah, Tyler is just 26! OMG He is soooooo young yet he had achieve so much!

He is not the best student in his school. The most popular guy. He did not made the best of himself in his past but that does not mean he have to drag it to his future, right!

history does not show how someone is suppose to be, it is just a back story. A story that shape someone to create his own future.

Let me give some examples, Katy Perry never graduated her high school. She had been in a lot of trouble before her debut song, I kissed a girl. But she is a legend as she was the second person who had 5 of her songs on top like Micheal Jackson.

Taylor Swift wad not a popular girl back in high school. Her Fearless album was not her first. But she managed to create something new and now we never have enough of Taylor!

I can list more but let us get back to the topic shall we.

In conclusion, let us all show our love to Tyler Oakley!

p/s: maybe i will talk more about Troye Sivan in other post because he is also my favorite!

Assalamualaykum

I had wrote a simple story about how much a child had kept from her father.

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Hey, my name is Sara. I had just finished my high school.

You know, my friends used to say how cool their dad is.

But i barely know my dad. I mean, he is always busy with work. He will be gone in the day and he come back after we had dinner. I barely even see him.

Yeah i have sisters and brothers. We will get there about them soon.

My dad? well.... let us go down the road a little.

My dad sent me to Convert of Majesty for girls only. A BOARDING school. I was 13 by then. I had no friends for about 2 weeks but thank God, my roommates started to talk to me. They understand how timid i was.

They were very good friends because they gave positive influences to me. They encourage me to study and have good grades. Joined the co-curriculum activities. I was the school's long distance runner and a soccer player. The captain actually! Even my couch asked me if i wanted to train the junior team as i graduated while i was not in any university yet. Well, i am considering the offer.

I was in the student counselor.

The juniors respect me. Teachers know me. I am not the most popular girl but I am famous for what i had contributed for school.

I did came back for Summer or any long school vacation like christmas. My mum would be the one who would be as happy as lark to see me. She would cooked my favorite dishes and we would gossip.

Meanwhile, as usual, my dad was always not there.

If he saw me, he would say, "Go study!" or " Finish your homework".

Thats him.

He never fetched me but i understand the distance. But if my other siblings want to come back, he would take a day off and drive for about 4 to 5 hours. Their universities are so far!

My dad never know about how good i perform at school. Sometime i felt like my teachers were proud of me more than my dad. My dad even asked me to quit soccer! By that time we made it to nationals. He said it distract me from my studies.

When i came back, there was no celebration. We even ate dinner separately because he came back late. But it my other siblings were at home, he would came back early and we had dinner at fancy restaurant that they love!

I did not realize that until one day, i was at home and it was my birthday... We did not had any party because most of my friends live away and my neighbors had small kids which ......... you get me. I mean, it was my sweet 16! I didn't want to celebrate it with kids! My dad, did not came back early. I blew my candles with my mum and my granny. Nice..

I tried my best to be positive. Every time i'm mad with my dad, i would remember all the nice things he had done even it was not much. His smiles that i barely see. His silly jokes that were not funny but we laughed because it was not funny. He would visits me some weekends. He would gave me some extra pocket money because he never want me to starve. His motivations before all of my examinations.

He is a nice person. But I am just not his favorite....

I made myself a conclusion.

Maybe he was working late because he wanted to make sure he can afford to pay my fees. I had friends that transfer because her parents couldn't afford to support her fee anymore...

I believe he has his own reasons to treat me like this.

Because he is a nice guy.

It is breaking my heart to see my dad argue with my other siblings. They seem to ignore the love my dad is giving. You know, i always show how much i appreciate them. I told them i love them and i say thank you most of the time.

My dad being cold does not mean i have to act cold too.

Once my sister argue with my dad over a boy. It is worth it to break a person who raise you for a person whom you only know for about 2 to 3 years?

They were so blind. They never realize that i am making myself a fake story to consult myself. When you were given gold, you wanted diamonds. When you were given nothing, even the rocks can make you happy.

I know that sometime, my dad do look at me while i was not looking at him. He did smile looking at my grades even he never congratulate me.

i just know. I have to be positive.

I know its hard but its even harder for me...

If you out there, open your eyes and keep on loving your parents.

They are human like us. The are not perfect but their love is beyond our imagination.

There are some people who had lost their parents. Some don't even know them. So, appreciate them while you can. You just have to.

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Thats all for today. Thank you so so so so much for reading until the end. I hope you get my message. Again. Thank you for reading!

Assalamualaykum peeps!

It had been a very long time since any news from me. I was busy with my SPM. Yeah people, i already END MY SENIOR YEARS!

So, here are some stories I want to share.

EX SEMESTIAN

Yupe, i am a semestian. Used to be. Sekolah Menengah Sains Teluk Intan, Perak, MALAYSIA.

It is a boarding school. I had been there for 5 years. 5 legendary years~

I was a prefect. A bitchy one. Haha!

Honestly, I never imagine my 5 years would be quite an adventure. I learned so much from so many people.

Pain. Betrayal. Love. Happiness. Just name it. I had felt it.

I realize that now i have to be independent. Make wiser decisions. Do the best for myself. Life just move on. This is just a small part of my life. There are more adventures awaits me.

TYFF

Well, let's just call him TY. He is one of the top student that i am seeing right now.

We have more differences than common things that we share.

He is my batch mate. Nice. Kind. Weirdo like me. Understanding.

We talked about the future but, we expect separation in spite of the distance. It is because both of us target different courses and university. We understand how busy both of us will be facing and the limitation of time to spend together.

He accepts my flaws. He said, we complete each other with our differences. I get it. I mean, that's what love effect you. You become different.

We never fight. We don't really argue.

Sometime i think, that can be a problem. Yesterday, he said something kinda harsh for me. I got scared. Like, really scared. It is the new part of him that i just knew. It got me thinking.

And....i started to doubt him. Is he really the one? Can i handle him?

Am i ready?

We both already agreed on one thing.. Which is, no high hope for future together.

We are still too young. Anything can happen.

I am too young to be attach to someone.

You know what, i need more thinking to do about him.

DRIVING LICENSE

I just register for it yesterday!!! Overall it cost RM900.

I know its very expensive so i am going to kill it!

Next time i will update about how it go.

Friendship

That is my long distance relationships. RELATIONSHIPS.

Most of my friends are away from me. TY live kinda nearby.

So social networks make it short distance.



In conclusion, life is moving to the next phase. I am going to the next chapter.

Wish me luck~