Have you ever feel like you walk your journey alone? You just born into this world and started to walk it like anyone else. Nothing special about it. All you need to do is walk until you reach the destination.

Destiny-tion? Which one you should be? Destiny or a merely place called as destination. I guess we never know up till we stop walking because there is no other path. Or you are allow to stop before you reach there? Or you should be following another path that you are blinded with? Life is full of surprise i guess. Probably i experience some shits more than average person. Overall, average.

For people that feel like they achieve almost everything they want, get whatever they desire, have a pretty decent life, you should be thankful with average people like me. We may not be so special and most of the time live among the shadows, we are the reason you have the light above the shadows. Imagine living in a world where everyone never fail anything, everyone get everything, the failure ones seems special. We are the reason you have the stage to be higher than average. Imagine a boss but his/her underlings are just as good as he/she is. See? You NEED us.

We are needed to balance the world. To make sure there is a parameter. 'Higher' or 'Lower' than average.

Im here to say,

Dont feel like you're not good enough.

Your mother give birth to you because she believes that ordinary person like you and me could effect others' life. We may not be like the avengers who save the world but we can change someone's life or make the best of a person. Treat people well. Being honest. Become the basic bitch when a friend needed one. Little we know, we are actually good enough and a whole lot more than we realize. We just need to look in the mirror and trust that person you see.

God gives you a whole body or partially to work with it. He didn't asked you to hate it. He didn't asked you to compare with what he gave others.

Stop comparing your worst with other people's best.

You see,

You dont have the looks but you have brilliant brain. See that good looking guy, he is too arrogant to ask for your help because he dont understand that equation. Who is in loss? Tak salah to be humble. Tak salah to keep your head low. What is wrong? Degrading yourself because you judge yourself too much.

Stop giving in to people who dont even care you exist. Be there to people who ask you to be there. Be there to the one that have always been there for you. It is okay to ask for what you had given. Its okay to let go people who dont invest as much as you do. Its okay to let of someone who is toxic to you. If anyone said you are toxic, take a step back. You deserve explanation. Either you're not listening or you didn't look at the right angle.

As human, always remind yourself that its okay to make mistakes. Its okay if you dont really know how to be in public. To not posses what almost everyone have.

I am giving all these peep talks for free because doing what i really love (writing) here is the only freedom i have left. I wanted to persuade this passion for good but it is not easy. Everyone would just love to slap it in my face about 'the reality'. For an example, are you sure your 'scripts' are good enough? No future. No future. No future. I guess it is easier to hide and sneak out sometime to breath those old dreams.

I do wish that someone in my family circle would encourage me to do what i always wanted to do. To tell me its okay to take the risk. Its okay to fail, ill be here to catch you. Its okay to try. Its okay, its okay, its okay. Deep down, i do know these risks are as much terrifying to them than me. Now, its too late to think about 'okay'. Its time to man up and actually deal with reality.

Im almost 2 years down the road to be a pharmacist. Its almost half way. I do this not because i love and always wanted to be this minor pharmacist but, to satisfied people around me and honestly, im one of the people too now. I do see myself somewhere in this field even not in hospital. If my faith is a pharmacist, it is better in the industry that i want. It is the least offer i can promise myself. The degree is for my mum and dad. The job is for me and my family (my own).

Someday in the future, you would never look at yourself as someone average. Despite ALL the bullshits you had been through, you are a legendary! :)