Assalamualykum Alhamdulillah

i am hereby to say how much i sorry for all my wrong beings!

Being annoying

Being irritating

Being rude

Being hate

Whatever bad

We never know when we will die eventually. So, i am preparing about it.

I am forgiving everyone no matter how

Annoying

Irritating

Rude

Bad

Or whatever it is.

Everyone deserve to be forgiven. Even our Prophet always forgives. Allah also always forgives but if the mistake is because we made other people sad, we have to ask for their forgiveness then Allah will forgive us.

I don't expect each and everyone can forgive me that easy if i had made them hurt so badly, but at least i tried to asked for their forgiveness.

I know that maybe i had hurt some innocent souls, but you need to understand that people made mistakes. And maybe hurting you was one of my mistakes. So sorry.

Maybe some readers don't even know me. Never mind, i am sorry for my boring posts or grammatical errors and typo's and whatever.

Just wanna say, SORRY.

I don't expect everyone that read this to understand why we must always say sorry but i do expect that at least they read it. And try to understand my messages.

My mum used to say to me that, giving up a fight is not a thing that you will regret. If you are the one being quiet about it, it is fine. Because if fire fight with fire, everything burns down! Sometime when we are made, we said things that we never mean and then we regret.

Thats why our Prophet said, be silent if you are angry.

Silent does not mean you are weak but it means you are brave. Because you never want things to be worst.

They can say what they want because we cannot tell someone that they don't deserve to talk. It is their rights. But we have the choice to stay silent. Maybe they will counter attack us, saying being silent means being rude. Well, we cannot change people's perception.

I believe that, everyone has things that they wanna fight for and some people have to involve in conflicts in order to fight for it. Fight in a proper way. Talk and discuss about it nicely. It is better than cursing and talk rubbish.

Thats all for today.

Hye awak.

yeah you.

I am speechless for what had happen. FYI only the past keep me going, and do you know how much it hurts? You never care. When you care? When you wanted me gone.

Remember when i was about to left?
You made me feel guilty about it. So i stayed.

Remember when i was so jealous and wanted to be gone?
The you appear with your explanations. I stayed.

Remember when you were gone?
I always remember you. And missing you.
Do you know that? Thats why i am telling you.

I know that you wanted to settle things down, ok im fine with it but i just need to give you some information that i hope you wonder.

Of course i follow your updates.

Of course i was hoping for, at least, one text saying why it happen. But, nothing.

Then you appear, and act like nothing happen. And you started to act like, we are just minor friend. No special bonding or anything. Ok.

I can't describe what i felt because most of it are empty. Nothing left. Only left memories. Yeah, memories.

TBH i already expect something like this to happen. Cause it is impossible for us to stay forever the same right.

Can you do me a favor? Go back to the past and never ever give me any hope cause now you know that you had broke all the hopes.

I am sorry for caring to much about you. Just sorry for everything.

Dont worry. I'll be gone.

Assalamualykum, Alhamdulillah

I am sorry cause i had been busy lately. I got an important examination coming so soon.

Ok, a little down the road.

This guy is a good man. But he is a strict father. Some of his children like to go against him while some prefer to keep quiet. The thing is, the younger children prefer to go silent rather than the older ones.

One day, something happen. The elders fight with the father. The younger child only stay silent but actually she is screaming her heart out...in...the silent...

Fights occur more often that makes that little girl sad and depressed. She wanted to voice out but ... she know that no one will listen.

What will you do if you are in that little girl's place?

Well, i am that little girl ...

I am not expecting any sympathize or anything but, i just wanted to advice to people who are willing to read this.

I am not an old lady or what ever. You can judge me whatever you want.

Firstly, be grateful that your parents are still alive and still provide you foods, shelter and whatever you want.

Then, always imagine you take your parent's place.

Then, no matter how hurt you felt, always apologize to them in the end because we never know that the harsh words can be your last conversation with them.

Lastly, pray to Allah (God) for the best solution.

Having problems and misunderstand among family members are something that used to happen or will happen. What is the best thing to do is, stay in silent. If you wanna voice out, talk nicely... Harsh words are not helping AT ALL. You just need to sit in the same table and talk about it. Discuss.

I know it is complicated when it involved about age and levels or whatever that shows that you are too small to give out anything you wanna say but that does not mean, you don't have the rights.

I know that its hard, but, me, myself are trying to plan to voice out. I just need some support and courage..

Then other thing happen.

To be honest i was hoping for courage but it seems that Allah loves me so much do He give me more challenges.

It looks like, the one i care already careless about me. I am nothing to him. So, now, i am empty about guys.

I know that what happen is for the best. So, i will seek and pray for courage to make the universe agree with me. I wanna make things right.

I dun expect things to be according to what i had planned. But at least it go the right and the best for me.