To be frank, I don't feel myself changing. Looking back, i realize certain things about myself that grew.

No one is the same person after ten years ago. You can even be a different person within a month. I guess, i realize 'how much' i changed.

I still love reading and writing but those things are not routine anymore. I love to look at the sky more often than before. I watch wayyy too much netflix. I kinda forgets how it felt to fangirl and fantasize about my favorite characters. 

Those are the silly things. 

They say, your brain fully developed at the age 25. You make better decisions and have better senses at that age. Some part of it is true. At this age, I want to be financially stable and built a new chapter. I feel like I am ready for the next thing.

I try to squeeze my weekend with meaningful things. Trying to create a work-life balance.

I feel a bit excited to be given those new responsibilities and how i was expected to be giving ideas at my work place. I start to answer questions from patients and colleagues. I am calmer in dealing with shitty situations.  I am not nervous about calling patients or calling doctors. A year ago, i really hate dealing with confrontations. Don't get me wrong, i still do. 

That day, I run over a red light and this motorcycle didn't wait for the light to turn green, he just went first. Both of us were speeding and both of us were wrong. I let go of the gas pedal as i saw him. It was dangerous but we didn't hit each other. Just FYI, my car is not tinted at all. He ride next to my car, he looked at me. I saw him looking at the corner of my eye but i ignored him. Why would i throw fuel to his rage? We are both at fault. I didn't want to be late. I just ignored the shit out of him. See, that ends there. 

When you had been through the worst of certain situations, you can handle similar problems better. 

I feel proud of myself. 

That's self love. 

Everyone should be proud of themselves. You deserve a tap on the shoulder. 

If you're one of my actual friend, you'll know that I just got engaged last week! So, here's what no one asked for! How i planned it.

Firstly, make sure your parents know that you want to get engaged. Make sure they know who's your partner.

How much i spent? Maybe a bit over 3k but we split most bills. I personally spent more than 2k because I want things. Engagement can be cheaper if you decided to NOT have a few things.

Oh, if you randomly saw this post, the money is in Ringgit Malaysia. 

I'll list down the prices if i remembers it. Here we go!

Part 1: get the general idea

- buy the ring!

-pick a date, venue and amount of guest you want to invite. 

-decide if you want to do 'hantaran' (gift exchange between partners). This one is a tradition so, my mom said we should do 5/7. 5 for the girl, 7 for boy. Decide among partners on what to give.

-decide on the theme.

I planned everything within 3 months. Well, you can divide and conquer! I mean, i want to do most things because im hosting it. 

Part 2: plan according to the months

3 months ahead:

Booked THE IMPORTANT THINGS such as

- catering ( so i decided to have about 100 people so i booked rm10/head)

- make up artist ( its better to survey first. honestly, i asked 3 mua in my area and the price are the same so its rm450 includes all expenses) you can do your own make up if you want to save

- venue : IF you decided to not do it at your own house

- tent that includes chair and tables

- pelamin. have your own budget and according to your own theme. Mine, rm390. 

- henna, i wanted white henna. rm120

-cameraman (optional)

2 months ahead

- find an outfit. It took me almost half day to find the right outfit. Ill have a special section for my WHOLE outfit because i look snatched! 

- decide on the hantaran. decorating the hantaran. I don't really survey on that. I decorate my own. Just simple. I guess it's better to plan what you want to decorate before buying the things or you will overbuy  the things. I kind of overbuy things. This one, the budget depends on whatever you decide to do tho. I spent about 100+. 

- make sure he also buys his outfit. 

- you can start inviting your friends and family. Book homestay if you need to for the families. (if necessary) 

1 month

- take off day at least a day before the event but i took 2 days before

- i booked the brownies, pavlova, cupcake

- finish up all the hantaran things and decorations

- finalize on everything. set up the date to set up the hantaran, if you're doing at home, make sure to clean the house. things like that.

- buy the kenduri things like tissues, etc. 

MY whole look

- the dress: 289. Bought at shah alam.

- the dress looks a bit dull so i sent to add some manik. it cost 200 include all the sending fees, upah and the manik itself. 

- tudung 40

- veil. a cheap one about 20

- shoes 50+

I guess from there, the rest is how you want things your way, This is just a general idea. You can save up according to what you need, what you (personally) want to have. For now, thats all i remember.

If you want to add more,

- you can add the mirror standee, welcome to the engagement of ~

The challenges. (be calm IF you faced any of this)

- at first i thought i want to do my own make up but after awhile i decided otherwise. the first mua i wanted to hire got booked the same day i wanted to booked her on the same date. what a dayyy

- make sure to finalise the catering. 

- the standee we bought, broke as soon as it arrived in ipoh. shoppe gave an immediate refund (lol)

Well, that's all i have this time. Hopes it helps. Remember, its expensive if you want more things.