Assalamualaykum Alhamdulillah

So ,i was just reading this news about a man sued his wife because she gave birth an ugly daughter. WHAT!! And that judge actually sympathized that man! Are the world is still spinning? Astagfirullah

This is the news.
http://satendarrana.mobilelikez.com/world-news/man-sues-his-wife-for-giving-birth-to-ugly-babies/?uid=satendarrana

Firstly, it is that man's fault because he never made a careful check on his wife's background. They said he married that woman because of her beauty. Oh, such a typical guy!

Then he sued his wife for money and wanted to divorce her. He also stated that he can't even look at HIS OWN DAUGHTER. Typical handsome guy who is rich but never get enough about his money. I mean, seriously... Don't he get suspended to see his wife's family faces or anything?

He is blaming himself for his careless. That woman was pregnant his daughter for 9 months and his next 2 sons but he ... such an animal! I see animals are far kinder!

From the picture, i am guessing the daughter is their second child but why after the third child he wanna sue her. They had a next child after that daughter. Is it because they wanna wait until that daughter is older?

I just don't understand. Am i the one who thinks he is pathetic? *sign*

I just wanna say, appreciate everyone who sacrifice for you. And when you decided to get serious with someone, please, check their backgrounds. See old photos. Ask the family members.

Assalamualaykum Alhamdulillah

So, i was washing the dishes then i got idea about what i wanna tell you guys.

As usual, i was waiting for any text from Z. But i got nothing. So i watched movies. I mean it, a lot of movies. I abandon my homeworks.

I thought about Westerns and Malaysia. What is so different? Well, there are a lots of differences. The weather, culture, and environment.

In tv, westerns usually take their children to sleep at night and always remind they children about how much they love them. Well, in Malaysia, we don't simply say, "mak sayang kamu (mum loves you) " as you walk out for school or whatever, the usual words are, "belajar elok-elok" (learn carefully).

Parenting is different because of backgrounds of the family. Some care, some act like they care and some like to care so much. Which one is great? I don't know. It depends on their skills and rules.

Usually the rich one will control their children, so, the kids either a social person or a mouse. Well, that happens globally, right?

Back to the differences. Culture! We have many religions and racists. In western, it either black and white or asian. While here, we have everything! Black, white, orange or whatever. Name it. And we learn to respect each other, well, that is what the government and schools are teaching since we are kids. I enjoy being surround by many types of people. I really do. But i hate it when some people like to be so racist! I mean, seriously! We are living in the same country with the same rules and regulations.

Being born as black or white or whatever is not our choice but being someone picky and racist is our choice. Which is not a good choice. Everyone demands to be tread equally but actually they want to have their own benefits. I mean, they just want benefits. Selfish.

Ok, back to the topic. Weather, in Malaysia, only sunlight or rain. We don't have summer, spring, snow or the other one. I forgot. Sorry. Maybe that's why tourist loves to visit Malaysia cause it is always hot. I mean not so hot but, still ok.

We don't have volcanos or tornados. Alhamdulillah. But sometime i wish for snow even i know it will be freaking freezing.

I was in England before snow and, honestly, it took me days to actually thinks that the temperature was not too cold. My roommate and I needed an extra heater for our room. How funny was that because it was about a month before snow, still a long way.

Toilet! In Malaysia, we have pipes and not tissues. Sometime we have both. When i was in England, i was freaking out because there was not water! But i managed to survive. I get used to tissues then. But, i still prefer to bring along an empty mineral bottle with me. I know it was embarrassing but i am just speaking the truth. You can imagine how shocked i was back there.

Our houses. The design is different. Maybe because of the weather. Because we only used heater for heating the water for shower not for the entire house. We don't experience snow and we don't have much earthquake. We seldom have it. So it is design simple. But base on culture, we have lots of design. For me, beside Malaysia, we can you find a 'kampung' house?

Well, i thinks, that is that. Yeah, maybe i will be posting about The Fault in Our Stars soon because i have watched it. :) See you guys soon.

Assalamualaikum Alhamdulillah

Here is special for Zach. Precious Z.

You guys can see that my tweet handle is Precious Z. It is because i care about someone i called as Z. So much. Maybe too much. LOL

After what happen between me and Nico last time, i never believe that in this young age i will totally like someone as much as i did. This time, no that much but a level of it. You know what i mean.

I am heartless sometime about it. Sometime i take it seriously and emotionally. Sometime, i just let it slip away. Sometime, i just wanna be in a serious relationship. Wow! I just said it. But, i don't. It was just my lunatic mind thinking about that crazy stuff.

I don't know why but every time a long holiday, i will tend to get so jealous towards Z and Miss D. Seriously.

Want me to be honest? Here we go.

She do not bring her phone to school so Z and me at school usually are close. We text and call. At home, not much.

I don't have smartphone so, i don't have all the ws, ig or whatever. No because i don't wanna have one but because my parents know it will distract me so they don't allow me to have one. While Miss D has it all, so, as long as they have Internet, the connection is just fine.

Ok fine i can accept that. Less jealous.

Then, i am a stalker. So, i know that they communicate each other so often. And i hate to admit it but i can see how much in love Miss D towards Z. Of coarse she will never admit it but she had admitted it once last time. Ya Allah, why is it too hard to get over wit it.

I don't know why but i think Z is feeling the same way but, with me he never admit.

I am being honest here.

I wanna let him go but he just never understand why i wanna do so. Its not because of me. Its because of him. For the sake of Miss D.

I just know him, about a year and something while Miss D know him since they were small. Their parents know each other.

And about the 'fake' relay. Well, im not blind. Such a good actors guys.

I have no rights to tell him about who he can be friends with or not because i am nobody to him. I mean, seriously, i just don't have the rights.

I wanna tell him how much i am jealous but, i think he know about my jealousy but, i don't know if he realize that I AM JEALOUS NOW!

When i have the urge to say it, then i think back, does this shows how desperate i am? Shows how control i am? If he accept all my advise, i will be the reason for him being away from his childhood friend. I don't want any of that.

I don't know if im worth it. Because im really not that prefect. Yuna I Want You Back //

Dear Z, I want you to be my special someone but i just can't because i know someone that likes you is close with you. I don't know if i misread. Or if i think too much. But, its kinda obvious. I don't want to lose you but in the same time i don't have the courage to take you in the first place.

I don't know what means by 'love' and i think i am too young to think about something so big.

Maybe what you have with me is actually nothing compare to what you have with Miss D. I don't wanna spoil it. And i don't wanna be a part of it.

You guys seems close and suitable together.

I am not asking you to choose sides because, i just don't want.

I learn about 'backing off' means.

Assalamualaykum Alhamdulillah

Now is fasting month. I am grateful of it because it prevents me from acting all crazy. Say all the hurtful words. Ignore people's feelings. Stop me from being too negative and start to be more positive.

During fasting month, Allah, Himself is giving us all the rezeki. Allah opens the heaven's door. Allah close and lock away all the demons in the hell. Allah give so much rewards to us for any deed. Everything Allah double, triple it.

Yet. People still forgot to be thankful.

Rasulullah once said, fasting people will be happy when iftar and if she/he gets Quran.

Despite all the mess i've been, i prefer to Quran for calmness. Take away all the hate feelings. Remind myself how humble we should be towards Allah's fate. Allah already planned the best for us. No one can change its fate accept if they work hard to do so. Inshaa Allah.

It is great that most people is thankful of what they got. But do they realize that actually its not what Allah granted.

It is difficult to always do the right thing. It is never easy to be a people that never do any sin. But never regret once to try to be one. Try to be a better person.

I felt betrayed more than once yet im still standing on my feet. As long as Allah is right on my side, there is nothing to worry about.

Inshaa Allah.

Assalamualaykum Alhamdulillah

Ramadhan is here! Now is the forth day of fasting! ALhamdulillah I am enjoying the fasting month. Even i have not break fast with my family yet but Inshaa Allah i am looking forward this Friday.

Well, it is better to know the truth rather than being lie all along. Sometime we try to be someone prefect and someone that everyone will look up to. But things just never work out as plan. They see our flaws and talk about it. But you do not know about any of it until one day your friend break it to you.

It is frustrating to receive 2 bad news in a day. You know that you had been betrayed by your own friend and you a 'new name' you got stuck with.

It is a story that you hope never exist in your life chapter. A gloomy day. It took a lot to actually get over it in one day. Some supports and reminder. Reminder of Ramadhan. Reminder about fasting. Then you stand up.

Put on the mask my friend. Just get over it for a day. Take that night to release everything. Never look back. Its hurting your soul. Its hurting your thoughts. All bad thoughts. Just remember, we are human and we made mistakes. No one is prefect. Just just need to try to be better that is enough.

By this time you will realize who is your friend and who is your rival. You care and who act like they care. Well, we don't need an actor in our life. We are the character that need to be the best actor! We need to be alive in own story.

Every morning is a new start in our life. It is a new chapter of life. Life will never stop until the day we die. Even after we die, we still have our afterlife story. Heaven or hell. Life is always about choice. It is up to you to choose. So make a better choice.

Istikharah. Prayers. Inshaa Allah a better future.

In life you will fall no matter how high you jump. It is just about how much time you take to be back on your feet to jump back. Time. Time. Time.

Why do you need to argue what had happen? You can't erase any of your history. It will stay put in you memory box. Forever~ So live with you life happily because it will end sooner than you expected. Life is just too short to stay sad all along.

Now is only teenager years. We just need to learn and learn to be a better person filled with knowledge.

Look back all the error and mistakes that you had done. Than so a correction. Improve your life. Be smart.