Assalamualaykum

It has been awhile since any like, personal stories from me.

Well to be totally honest, nothing much about life.

I know its very surprising on how less dramas are right now. I guess maybe i dont have much people to think of. I dont have a person who i want to dream of. I dont have a person that distract me.

at first i feel fine. As months passed by, i feel lonely. I know i do have friends but the kinda lonely feelings that only certain people would understand.

I do consider about having someone back or take someone as distraction but i dont find that 'someone'. currently i am indeed staying at home and i dont meet people as much as i used to. Mostly my family, customer (helping my sister's business from home) and the postman.

I dont flirt in the internet. I dont meet my old friends.

Talking to any guy even on the phone are pretty awkward and gives me the nerve.

Being around with any boy (stranger or friends) become more uneasy and scary for me.

I had changed since i broke up. I dont speak to guys as freely as i used to be. I dont have much friend as a guy who are not my classmates. Mostly because my friends are with them.

Even i got a person to misunderstand me as quite because as i dont spoke much when we were eating together. I mean, yeah its not easy to let someone you barely know to actually see who you are.

Some people will not understand how weird i could be actually. I mean, some people do have the side where only a certain people they let to witness it.

I used to be very free but now i am letting my guard up. I am still who i used to be but just to some people. After i broke up, i was so broken i literally gave up on relationship. Almost all the boys that i had a crush on were jerks.

Luckily i still believe on the true partner is man. Still straight. I just stumble upon all the wrong guys to meet the right one. I guess. I donno.

Watching some of my friends who are madly in love or caught up in love issues or just stumble upon what you called as relationship, make me feel a bit left out.

Right now, like currently, I am indeed in the midst of confusion.

I am not even sure of what i want. Do i want a relationship? It is just me feeling like he is trying. I take all of his signs as jokes because i dont want to expect anything. I mean, we barely know each other. We are far from each other. We have different standard.

Well, what sucks still sucks!

One thing guy, please dont be an asshole and a total jerk even if someone is trying to be your friend. Not every stranger that greets you, LOVE YOU. Just jangan nak perasan sangat then make lots of assumptions. Kalau rasa dia lebih lebih, cakap. Just be damn honest instead of being A FUCKING JERK.

Assalamualaykum~

Hi! I had my interview like months ago,

Most of my friends that applied for maths, physics, chemistry, computer stuff were chosen for interview via video. They must submit video of them talking in front of the camera to youtube.

For someone like me, i got for optometry. I applied that as my first choice.

Well, the day before the interview, i went to kl. Yeah, im from ipoh. I never been to any ukm campus so as i arrived, i waze to the fakulti sains kesihatan ukm in chow kit.

I checked in nearby hotel, trust me, loads of hotel nearby.

The day of the interview, my friends told me to go really early or not we must line up soo long. I went there about an hour early.

I took number from the counter 'optometry' .

Filled in some paper and wait for my turn. I was 20+.

As i was called, i found out it was a group interview.

TBH all of the questions are as expected.

There was three lecturers that interviewed me. They asked why we must be chosen, what are our specility and one random question.

YOu may answer in Malay if they asked in Malay but I do courage you guys to speak english because it could make you look more ready.

Some questions that you guys need to prepare and tbh if you the kinda nerves freak like me, do practise talking.

Questions like,

about you. The course. Any random fact about the course. Anything about the university.

Lastly, they will ask you if you have any question, usually people would say no, try to say YES. Ask a random question back. Anything that make sense. HOw long have they taught or job opportunity. Anything because you are actually impressing them. You are being different.

I guess thats all I have