Assalamualaykum~ Alhamdilillah

All the Chinese are happy celebrating their new year. While i sit in my room and do some brainstorm about debate cases and trying my best to complete my homeworks.

Many people thinks that study is actually a burden. For me, sometime i think in that way. Why? Because my brain cannot digest everything in a minute. I need time to actually understand every bit of information that my teacher is talking about.

I am not a robot that don't need any rest and can do everything so prefect or have no feelings. I am a human being. A living organism.

Allah asked us to 'read'. Means, we must study. Have knowledges. That actually a reminder, a wake up call for me to actually stop mumbling about how hard or stressful is it about study.

My senior once advised me about study. He said, learn for the sake of knowledge not just for examination. Learn because of the curiosity of God's wonder. Think that learning is the best thing you do most. That one i conclude myself.

Sometime we must lie to our own head in order to reprogram our brain to learn about accepting things without complaining!

Rasulullah never complain anything about his life even about the death of his wife and his uncle. Or being torture and being push away by society. He never stop to pray to Allah asked for His guide and strength. How patient Rasulullah while doing his duty as a Prophet. He never give up even once.

As one of his followers, i will try my best to keep my head hell high and never fear to fail.

I am walking in the new path of growing up. I am shock that this new path contain more poisonous plants and dangerous animals that i must always be aware of. They never can touch nor hurt me if i stay in the right way. Sometime the path is kinda narrow and jumpy with holes everywhere. It shows how challenge my life is getting started.

I always about to give up and always mumble about how careless i am and how i always hurt myself for not being focus on the road and bla bla bla. But i keep on walking. Why? Because i see many people is walking ahead of me. As i was about to fall, someone grab me. As i was about to cry in pain, someone throw a medicine to me. As a start to give up, i heard many supportive words from people around me. As i look in from, i see many people who already reach the end of the road is waving at me. Even they are far away but i can see them smiling at me.

As i am tired, someone give me food and water and some massage. I am so thankful. I am so lucky. I am feeling like crying.

Our beloved Prophet never had the chance to live a good life like now. He never know what is shopping? What is Internet. What is fast foods.

Allah and His partner, Muhammad SAW are the people who always grab me and give me everything that i need. All my friends and my family are the person waving and keep on supporting me from far and near.

Yeah, i admit that i am holding many responsibilities. But if Allah and all of the people around me believe that I can do it, i can hold everything, Insha Allah i will try my best to fulfill all of my responsibilities.

I pray and hope my body parts will never betray me. Insha Allah.

I think thats all for tonight. Thanks for the support guys. Special thanks to Allah, Rasullullah for inspiring me. Thanks to my family members. My best friends. And the 2 lucky guy that always patient about me all along.

Wasalam Wallahualam

Assalamualaykum, Alhamdulillah

Now i am having a break for Chinese New Year event i am not celebrating CNY. My school take about 7 days of holidays. Next Wednesday, new form 4 intake will register and become the new member of my batch. To be honest, i don't feel excited or anything because i am just to busy thinking about myself and my problems. This month, i am starting to be selfish.

I am learning to be a senior with great responsibilities! Being a prefect is not easy. People look up at you. They observe each and every one of your step. They judge and talk about all of your actions. Good or bad. They either praise or mock. Its up to you (me) to decide.

I am someone who always do crazy stuff and sometime i do things that gain others attention. Sometime i appear on stage to give out speech. Sometime i appear as an athlete.

Seniors and teacher know me for some reason. Either as an athlete or debater or a minor student. The thing is, they know me.

After 3 years studying in the same school, I know about being independent. I know about handling all the minor messy stuffs. I had been through a lot before this. But, this year is a such a new revolution. A whole new world. A world where people already start to have new impression about you.

And you are introduce with brand new subjects. Physic, Add Math, Mod Math, Chemistry . With brand new format for each subject. For Allah's sake, you got new classmates.

Most of things are just so new and you really need a lot of pushing and spirit to catch up with everything. By the time you are struggling, you feel like 24 hours a day in 7days in 5 weeks for 12 months is actually, a short journey and the hours should be double up. Because you need more time to understand and complete all the extra exercises to improve. But, you are just too tired. Because in all of the moment, you are not actually studying the whole time but you also must join some extra co-curriculum activities too. Side activities like sports and attending clubs.

As you get some extra time, i am sure you prefer to sleep cause that is what i do. Sleep is the best thing i do. Because for awhile, i am not thinking and i have no stress.

Life is actually beautiful. We must take a really good look inside our life. In order to see the beautiful life, we must stop being sad and look at the bright side. Of course having problems and obstacles are stressful and etc but that are actually the reason our life have pattern. We learn from our mistakes. We live to learn.

Everything happen for reason. Allah wants to test us because He loves us. Because He want us to realize our mistakes. He wants us to learn the truth. He wants us to be a better person. He wants to correct our reaction and thinking skills. Once i heard, if Allah loves us, He will give us knowledges. He wants us to be in the right path.

Yeah, we feel down. We feel sad. Think, why Allah create all of that feelings? He wants us to realize what we had forgot. Maybe we forgot Him? Or His Prophet. Or the rules and regulations that we must obey.

Sometime, after being so comfortable receiving orders and knowing that we are not the one must answer all the teacher's questions, we tend to act relax and take things for granted. We never felt guilty nor worry. We so as we please.

But now, Allah puts me in a new place. Being the person who orders. You know what i mean now? Now i am the person who worries a lot because i have to answer and stuff like that.

Can you imagine how shock i am? How i try to go with the flow. To be someone not me. But someone who can show good examples and be a good leader.

I must sacrifice so much this year.

I must be stronger.

I must remind other about life as much as i must remind myself.

I must be a chick who never know the meaning of giving up. Insha Allah.

Life is magnificent but we must look around, in, out, up and down of life in order to actually realize about it.

As long as you have Allah with you, Insha Allah, life will be easier.

Wassalam.

Assalamualaykum Alhamdulillah

I had read some articles about the end of the world. About memorizing the whole Holy Quran. Subhanallah. I am totally amaze of Allah's creation. I can see how duaa can make things better.

As human, Allah's servant, we must always remember that actually as we step out from being a Moslem, (Nauzubillah) we are actually making a huge, gigantic mistake! Allah never need us but we are the one need Allah.

We are the one who need to ask Allah for His forgiveness.

Islam has all the answers to your questions because Islam is complete. Islam is beautiful. My Muallimah said that, as Moslem, the gift that we get, i mean one of it is, Iman.

Why someone said he saw Islam in a country which is not a Moslem country? What that even mean actually? It means, he saw how people outside a Moslem country fight for their rights being a Moslem. Rather than us, we are given a piece and harmony country which we can preform our prayers and recite Al Quran as we please. We can share and da'wah without any worries. But, still, why we always forget to say how thankful we are.

We are born with prefect physical and life a luxury life where we don't have to beg. We can go to school without any worries. We live in so much of Allah's gift, yet we always misuse it. We forget where it actually came from.

Astagfirullah hal azim. Ya Allah, forgive us. We are too naive and too distracted about the world.

Clock is ticking..

Life is actually getting shorter. Our dead line is just ahead of us.

Death is getting near.

Life is actually short.

We must never push information about religious aside... But that is what we used to do.

As i watched some shows about how thankful or new sisters and brothers as they said the shahaddah. How happy they look. How serious they take about Islam. How they actually want to find the Creator. How they wake up from the fake world. How Allah showed them the right path. Subhanallah.

Can you imagine yourself with Islam. Do you want to find the Creator? Will you realize about living a world full of lies. Full of greedy.

Take some time and think.

Do you think that you are worth getting into Allah's Jannah?

Are you qualified to meet Rasulullah?

Are you ready to face your death?

Clock is still ticking...

Wake up! Wake up!

Wake up to me too! Insha Allah we try to live a better life. Change from a good person to a better person. Iatiqa'mah in your duaa and prayers.

Share informations. Aware our brothers and sisters. Insha Allah.

Wasalam. Duaa. Allah. Rasulullah. Death. Akhirat. Jannah. Shaytan. ISLAM!

Assalamualaykum and Alhamdulillah

Praise to Allah for everything.

So, its been awhile since any post because i just came back from school the past 2 days.

Well, school was great for some reason. I am enjoying my senior year but in some point it is exhausting because we got extra subjects and must always be focus in class to catch up with others. The format for examination is so much different from last year. There will be more papers we must sit for.

While i got 3 new members in dorm. The form 1 students. Well, they take us for granted. The first day already sucks because one of them stare at me like she want to eat me. I asked her an easy question but she took a long time to answer it. I asked her nicely. If they get our seniors, mark my words, they will never life in piece for the rest of their orientation week. We, the seniors are so much kinder than the past seniors. But we still do stuff like our seniors did but less extreme.

This year we, the form 4 seniors must handle most of the school things. And I had accepted the offer to be a prefect. FYI, i think in oversea like in england, american and others, there is no prefect in their schools. I just realize about it.

I met one of my senior during the past weekend. He told us about upholding the debate team. He gave us the tips and some useful advises about how he to handle the team. I always admire him as he talked because he looked serious and confident about it. I am someone who had lack of confident. It takes time for me to be comfortable.

Hurm, well, now I and kinda close with this person. He is not really special but in some reason he seems to be kinda like my brother. We always text each other. He is caring and an open minded person. He always makes me laugh with his silliness. He is someone schema but he never admit it. LOL One of great thing about him, he is a guitarist and one more, he speaks in English fluently. Omoo~ He is someone shy but he is so mush different as I get to know in person. Full of surprise.

Enough about him~ About our friendship, is private and confidential. Only some people knew about it.

For now, i am enjoying each of my class. The principal enter the physic class. LOL He is someone who likes to make night classes. And i got physic topical examination next Monday night. OMO..

Yeah! I am in 4IH. Most of my classmates are the top students so the environment in class is study. Most of the time, study. We seldom make any noise and we are still trying to get use of this kinda new environment and the new faces. I knew them since form 1 but i seldom hang out with them. So it will takes time to really click with them. I am lucky one of my best friend is in the same class and she sits beside me. But she is always talks about transferring to other class. HUhuhuhu ....

My other friends .... we are ok.

My last words ...


Being the senior and having this prefect title will totally change me into a new person in a good way. Because i am the role modal and the people around me will always observe most of my moves. I must show good actions.

But i will try my best to keep on being myself even i know it will be harder now. I will try to catch up with my studies in the same time, try to uphold the debate team.

Sometime we must sacrifice in order to be a better person. Going against the rules is fun but following the rule is a must. I know that rules were made to go against it but it was also made to be follow.

I am backing off now. Adios. Wasalam. May Allah ease all of our moves and actions. Pray for the best~