Huargh!! School is opening! I have so much to do. Packing and ironing. But right now i still relax and online for awhile. Updating my blog for the last time for this year. I just can't believe how time go so fast!





I still remember when I was form1 dreaming of being form3 because lots of burden had been lifted. Now, i am free from my 'asrama' chows but i will have tons of hand outs! I am also a PMR candidate! The last thing i remember was being UPSR candidate.

I must get good results! Because of ALLAH and my family and myself.

2012 keeps so much sweet and sour memories which i kept in my mind as lessons. its actually hard to let it go but 2013 awaits! I can't let it wait forever. Its time to roll our sleeves and pull our socks!

I will make many transformation in 2013. I want to be more mature and more closer to Allah! I know its hard to change ourselves but in order to change the society we must start with ourselves! Be a great role model!

The older you get the more junior will come. They will observe us and try to follow our steps. So, in order to get great junior we must show great examples! And i will try my best to be one.

So, i hope everyone pray for my success and my changes! Its time to break a leg!! Fight!

I can't lie that when i care someone, i will always checking their condition. I will try to know what is going on in their life and what so ever. I cannot stop! I will keep on stalking. Sorry for that but that is me. >blink,blink< So, as you ever that had read about what is going on with me lately, yeah, i start to change. You know when someone is so damn upset he or she will start to find entertainment to cheer up themselves. I pray and watched 2 broke girls again to cheer me up. My parents will never understand me about this stuff. My best friends is busy but i don't blame them. The school is about to open and they all must be ready for that. I try to share with someone that might understand me but most of them give the same advised. Be patient, Allah is testing you, be strong and so many inspirational words. I am so happy that they care about me but actually nothing change. I still feel sad and sorrow. What make me stronger? I remind myself about Allah because i know everything happen for reason. The more He test me, that shows the more He loves me. I also think back, nothing is going to change and the time wouldn't stop, its ticking.

I keep on apologizing to Allah because i am sad with this test. As human i have emotional that i cannot deny. But i also pray so that Allah will give me strength to overcome this test.



When i am sad, i will listen to sad songs and at last i will cry. After crying, a relief came out because my sadness already flow out from me. I do think to cheer me up.





I was conscious if he is sad too. So i stalk him a bit. He seems fine. He already get over it. He always have someone by his side. Not to blame but that shows he is lucky. Kinda jealous of that. What really make me super jealous, he really appreciate his bff so much as he is single. I...i pray for his happiness and i pray for Allah to throw away my jealousy. He deserve better. I am just someone that give him so much burden.





To make myself clear that i am nothing to him, i read his post about me. There are so much hate and truth about me. So, whenever i felt like missing him like so much. I will read that post so that i realize that he don't need me anymore.





Now, i have to go on with my life. Do the best! Time to move on. Buckle up! I'm starting the engine to move on!

Assalamualaikum!

So u asked me to think then talk. so i did it! it took a whole day to think about it.so i end up writing everything on papers. its kinda long but that is what that pop into my mind and what i think is suitable for me to say.so this is what i wrote:

i already think about what you said and what is going on. i try to remember everything and yet, i don't get it. i don't understand about what is going on because it happen so sudden. did i do anything wrong? are you mad at me? am i worsting the situation?

i flash back from the first time i met you. i think about everything that you ever said to me. i try to think hard about our conversation yesterday. what i remember, this is the second time you act strictly to me. yesterday you were so happy and laugh a lot.then i get angry but for me its not serious. you apologize but i tease you. then you want to back off. i just reply what i had kept for a long time. realize is a song. i don't know if you get it.

when you said that you want me to have a better life, i was so shock! are you saying that you are making my life miserable? if you thought that, you are wrong! think back, i never said that you are a burden to me. if you are a burden, i wouldn't be nice to you. nobody asked me to be your friend, me, myself is eager to know you.

it took half day for me to think what to say. i decided to apologize if i hurt you. we are just friend (kawan). i already mess everything before. i try my best to do things right.maybe i'm not good enough. remember you said, aku x layak jadi bestie kau. actually, aku(me) yang x layak jadi bestie kau. i'm the one always cause so much problem. when i'm with you, i'm not really myself. me? i am a crazy person that always causes so much trouble.

at school,i always makes jokes and always keep my friends happy and they always make me happy.for me, friends always have fun and makes us happy. we share many things together because we need each other.

i am happy being your buddy. i always try to make you happy but sometime i am not sporting enough. i am a shy girl. i act crazy but deep inside, i am kinda sensitive. for me knowing you is great because you are interesting and i never met someone like you. but i don't know what you think of me.

i have this bad habit. i like to judge people and make conclusion about them. once i judge you which piss you off. i'm sorry but most people always as i judge. i am different but that makes me feel awesome and cool.

sorry for not being a great friend. i never show you who i really am. i always act crazy and cause lots of trouble. i am not someone you want to be friend with. you don't need me anymore. you got tons of other friends that always care about you.

you had been a great friend. thanks for everything and for being there for me. good luck in your life. i bet you gut a bright future. this is the last song for you.

Realize-Colbie Caillat

this time, for me you are someone that i used to know and the one that got away. (last joke from me)

So i have start exercising about 30 minutes. But today, i jog for about 2.5km. so i don't have appetite for dinner. i feel hungry but i don't have the 'eating' feeling. My dad said that exercise can lose my appetite while i think it is about broken heart. then i laugh when i think back. broken heart? i just felt empty.

so the conclusion, i don't know why. broken heart? school is about to open? exercise?

there are so many reason. i google it. u know what appear? about losing weight. i am not losing weight. i am gaining weight. so, i am reading the scientific reason.

but at last i end up only reading the first word of each paragraphs after reading the second one. there is just so many complicated words. i mean, i just know the simple words not science language. one day i will start to talk like Seldon in Bing Bang Theory.

what i had for my dinner? a glass of milk,half of tempoyak fish and an orange fruit. its great and enough for tonight.

i miss my siblings because this year, most of them are busy with their studies. some are so far from home. i really miss them.

my grandma is sick but she is getting better. Alhamdulilah.

so,i guess that's all for tonight.. thanks for reading.

Assalamualaikum, kalau jawab sayang. kalau x jawab dosa.

So, as usual i will text Nico. Yesterday we exchange songs. He gave me this song name fiddlesticks. I know all the other songs except that song. He dare me to find that song. So, i try to google it and find in youtube. and i fail. as usual he will always annoys me which is normal. i always get angry with him but it never last long because i know what kind of person he is. he is not the 'sorry' person.

but today something happen. he said that he write that song. i was like, WTH? and i said, oh,ok. congratulation. everything. so happy to hear that. thanks. as usual he keeps on annoy me. make me so angry which i just think, 'he always like this. he's the kid. calm down sister. never sold a kid or he will cry.' so he said that he is sorry. i just tease him,'now you know to say sorry i though you just know so say ok'. then he said that he want to make a step back and want me to live better.

i said to myself. i told you so, the boy cry! i'm like (sigh*) what in the world is he thinking? i'm fine and why suddenly he takes it so seriously?

he is like my little brother which is so mature than me. (i'm just a month older) he likes to annoy me which is the duty of a little brother. i already lost him once now i have to lose him again? huh *sigh. i don't know about that. he makes the decision.

i though of saying that its nothing but that just shows how desperate i am. maybe he is right. maybe it is the best for me and for him. i am always the one so busy body. he needs space. yeah, space.

so i guess it is goodbye then? should i say goodbye bro or goodbye crush? actually all of the songs is about him. -that's a little secret-

i don't know if i could handle it.

What i want to share today have something to do with my past. Most of it. SO, today i went for my tuition class as usual. I always come early so i sit down and read my novel before i enter the class.

Suddenly a boy aka my classmate arrived. He looks handsome and smart more then usual. Whatever. Then he sits kinda far, i mean, the other side of the room. The some boys from other class start to come out. They begin to talk wit my classmate. And one of the boy is Iman. He is the first guy that i know had a crush on me. In the same time, i also had a crush on him. we like each other but both of us don't know that.

It had been 3 years since the crush. I met him again the last 2 years at a camp. We were in the same group but, we don't have time to talk. We did talk but not much. After that camp, i sent him some letters but he response negatively. Which make me so sad. So i forget about him for a year then i move on. But he appear in my friend's fb acc. His photos!

Damn it! This time i cried because of everything about him. I wish i never know him!

Today, i watched him. I even rub my eyes. He saw me but i look away because i don't want him to recognize me. I'm not sure if he realize that its me. I hope he wouldn't because i want to move on. I don't want to like him or even what ever about him. Its enough! I am sick of everything! i just want to move on. some of his friends remind me of my friend which i haven't meet for so long. They remind me of so much pain. The bitter is more powerful than sweetness.

Things change. I change. He change. All of us are grow up! We must move on and left the past. the future awaits. Let's catch them together.

The past is great and taught me so much about life. I'm sorry but i have to move on. I am so sick waiting for something that never come. You think i forgot about you? I never did. So, I am so over it!

Hey guys, it had been a long time since i was so busy finishing my homeworks. I still got one more but i need time to rest!

So, Maria already married two days ago! The couple are so sweet! They suit each other. So i have some new stories to share. Hope you guys enjoy reading it.

Yesterday, a girl attack me. not psychically. she sent me a text warning me about her boyfriend. that boy and i are just regular friends. i did have feelings for him long ago but i already straight up. i already told him that we are just friend. but i don't know where she got the information about me and my number, she got it wrongly about me. i just test her once then she called me bitch. congratulation. you are the first girl that called me bitch.

haha. thanks for that. then i called her coward which i spell wrongly. she said, sis,what are you talking about. better spell correctly. i said, i have this problem since a long time ago. she said that she is the brave one because she is the one tolerate to end that conversation and she called me troublemaker.

Did she realize that she is the one making trouble. the first time she contact with me she said that she is a boy that likes me for a long time. but end up we fight and did not become friend. now she contact with me telling to stay away from her boyfriend. i told her, you can take him. i didn't want him. she said that i make her sound desperate. i bet she is! if she's not, she wouldn't attack me.

i told my Mr Nico about her. he asked me to ignore her. i can't help it. its been awhile nobody pick a fight on me. but he keep on telling me to ignore her. then he start being concern about me. kinda weird because he never be that concern about me. i don't like whenever he reply, 'hahaha, ok or ok,ok.' what is so funny? what is so ok? when i fed up with him, i copy him back. hahaha ok.

but last night i had a weird conversation with him. i want to call him because my credits are going to expired soon. but he said that he is going to his cousin's house. i can't call him there. i said, fine. he said, you can call now, im offering. i said, never mind you make me feel desperate. he said, sorry sorry. i said. now you make me sound stupid ( actually i want to say guilty). he said, sorry back. it take awhile for me to reply because i start to feel awkward. i said, nothing. he told me that i lie and its everything. i asked him why bet he never want to answer me. at last i say night. he said night too. usually he will add something like hun or babe. showing that we are close like brother and sister, i think.

am im showing that i had a crush on him? or sound like, i don't know. what i know that he felt something. he want to tell me something which maybe will effect our friendship. maybe that is the reason he shut up. i mean, he did not want to say. maybe im judging to much about him. i am the one who should shut up! maybe there is nothing. yeah, nothing.

before this, i want him to be my fake bf because i want to avoid a boy. i want Nico to be the reason but i am to afraid that he will get that wrongly. i admit that i had a crush on him once but now its gone. i think. i mean, its weird about me and him. he only miss me when we fight and he never miss me even i stop texting him for a week.

boys. so hard to read them

Hey! i just finish register for ask.fm and its kinda weird that i already register it. i mean, i think i would really open that account.

Anyway, i read Maria Elena's blog and she tell about her future husband. They met in 2009 and getting marry next year. They got engaged in 2011. it is so sweet between them! i really want that kind of relationship!!

http://peliks.blogspot.com/

Do you guys know who am i? let me give some of my social network account if you are interested.

fb: http://www.facebook.com/ain.jaf?ref=tn_tnmn

tweet: https://twitter.com/blogger_holic

ask.fm: http://ask.fm/achai

and if you guys want to communicate? im an open minded but please dont be a freaking weird guy. you want to be friend in fb? i will consider it. i hate putting my own fb acc in my blog. i mean by the right or left side.

i am not desperate for anything i just think that you guys already read my blog so maybe, you guys have the right to know who am i.

thanks for reading. love you guys!

Assalamualaikum, kalau jawab sayang, kalau x jawab dosa

Assalamualaikum...
Kalau tak jajwab dosa, kalau jawab sayang <3 I love you guys because you guys read my blog! Just hope you guys follow me! Today i am going to talk about teenager now days. I admit that i am a teenager and i cannot deny that i also always make problems. We as teenagers always want to live like a bird. Want to be free from study and problems and wanna hang out with friends until when ever we want, right? That is the meaning of social people! We are addicted to it. Now we have social network, so ..... yeah we kinda never sleep especially when holidays. That is so true! As we grow up, we start to know person who is not our gender. And we start have feelings, You cannot lie that you never have feelings towards anyone! Don't lie to yourself lah! I mean, then we start to be in love and couple and stuff. Actually, i admit that i had went through it twice and that already enough for me. I can't couple with every boy that i like because i know one day they will break my heart. Couple is fun because we know there is someone that always be by our side and love you but are you sure that, that person will continue to love you until you die? Thats the questions mark.

sorry boys! but usually they are the one broke the hearts. i admit girls also did that but in my case, guys did that to me.

How i solve my problem? I wait for 'my future husband'. Go on, tell me i am crazy but actually i am not! Think! Are you going to go one with you fake love or wait patiently on your true love? If the moment fit for me to be in love, that is the moment he appear. He will find me, one day. And by that day, I can marry already not a teenager but as a woman. I already catch my dream and i already have a great life.

I know as a human we can only plan and only God (Allah) will determine our future. But to gain a great future we must work hard and always pray! That is the recipe of life!

We also can see there is so much social problem going on even in Malaysia. Yeah, the teenagers go so wild because their parents don't teach them properly or did not give them enough love or give too much love. For me, we must always think properly before we act. Why must we destroy ourselves when we know that thing is wrong or will make us something bad? I always wonder that. The way my family is, make me be independent. I try to work myself and find the truth myself. Sometime i know what they don't.

We as teenagers must work hard so that we can reach our dreams! Everyone have a dream. Usually more then one dream. We must work for it. That is why we are living right now!

If you are a Muslim so here is the reason we live:

- serve Allah
- be the leader of the world
- never bow to Setans
- always pray and think of Allah!

I may be someone who have weak Iman but i will try to make it more stronger! Allah never be mad if we have dreams as long as we dream because of Him.

We are teenagers that will rule the earth someday so why must we throw ourselves into the black pit? We have big responsible to take so we must be ready. Repair ourselves before we take the responsible. We cannot be prefect but we can be better. Change is hard but we can try. Failing does not mean forever, as long as we get up!

Maybe you guys might say, i talk a lot! yeah, i do talk so much but actually, im talking to myself because i want to be better. I share this because you guys might need some motivation to change too. Together we change!

Ok! Her name is Maria Elena and she is a blogger and a vblogging too. She is having her master right now. her blog is peliks.blogspot.com . you guys can find for all of her information in her blog or her facebook or just google her name! its IT world, man!

anyway, i LOVE her attitude so much! her personality is great! she is so like me. we are the weird species, thought! she is beautiful,funny, intelligent and she is weird! i mean, she is an engineering student. she said, being engineer is serious but we are kinda weird in our own ways. (more less like that)

here! she is a part time Model (like..WHAT!!!) and stuff. I never heard anyone except her, is a Model and an engineer and a master student and not wild (she already go for UMRAH..WHAT!!!)



and she also got the title of the woman of the month! WTH?! shes like, the coolest woman i've ever known!



she have her own website for shopping online. can check in her blog! what amazed me the most...she is getting marry! she already engaged ok! thats like super wow! she is so prefect in my eyes. she takes care of her 'aurat'. she is marrying her boyfriend. she is a MODEL (still amazed) . and she cares about the society! she is like an angle. i mean the cool one. and she can speaks British essences! way cooler! she had been travel the world. not so much but still! her video's in you tube is soooo funny and lessonable ( not the word in dictionary).



she have the most random behaviors! but for me she is magnificent! Allah have show me what i want to see. because once i wonder, can a girl like be someone that is still me but always remember Allah? yeah, Allah answer my question by sending this magical woman! I am so pleased to ALLAH.. Allahuakhbar!

yeah, i just watched today. they rocks so much until it make me speechless! i felt so curious and my heart pound like i had ran for marathon on the last part.

the starting is sweet like hell! i really wish that i could live in that dream! Bella woke up after 3 days of coma and start to ear and see the tiny things. thats amazing! and Renesmee is so cute, like a doll. But Edward look kinda old actually compare in the first twilight,he looks death drop handsome! (sorry for being over)

what make me kinda less satisfied is that the war is just a vision not something true. it can happen but it did not happen. and lastly, Jacob will marry Renesmee. for me, what will their child be?

Half human, Half vampire + Half human, Half wolf = ??

my friend and I make a conclusion. maybe

@ a new species of human
@ an immortal child that will destroy everyone
@ if a girl= vampire or a boy= a wolf

then i start to make new plot about how that child will be or destroy the Volturi. Its kinda funny and i over react (usual thing). When i asked my mum,

Me: why Jacob must be with Renesmee?
Mum: That Alice already see the future lah.
Me: But Jacob will grow old but she wouldn't.
Mum: Yala..
Me: What child will they get?
Mum: The story already end so don't built new plot.
Me: I am just asking.

I am going to be 15 but im acting like im going to be 5. Lol

anyway, at last Jacob said to Edward:

J: so you want me to call you father?
E: no need.

thats kinda funny actually.

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!the wall paper!

Julia is preparing for the convention when suddenly Mark appear from no where and start talking with Julia.

M: Hey! You are joining this convention?
J: Eh, yeah. -weird-
M: You must be weird why I'm talking to you.
J: yeah. why are you talking to me?
M: Im joining the convention too. There is my stuffs. I will present about the space.
J: Well, i just gonna present about the new technology.
M: You know, some man from the university gonna pick some student for full scholarship until they finish study high school and phd. Its a big opportunity. But they will be transfer to other school near the university and daily they can make experiment in the lab. Its cool huh?
J: First, when are you interested in Science. Second, are going to quit soccer? Third, that is a damn good deal! Im going to get it!
M: Good luck!

Then Julia saw Daniel marching towards her. Julia smile when she see Daniel. Daniel grab her wrist and kiss her. Mark just smile but he seems to make fake smile after all.

M: ok guys. i got to go. see you later. (walk away)
J: ok.

D: why is he talking to you?
J: being friendly i guess. I never know that he like science.
D: are you happy?
J: of course! why not?
D: because of him?
J: no jealousy! because of you! you come to see me before the convention start!
D: erm...if i win. i am going back to Korea. cause they will send the chosen one to Korea for the new academic there. 5 person will be chosen. and for your information, syam and nyna are joining.
J: what! they never told me that.
D: they are kinda...hate me that effect you too. im sorry.
J: never mind.lets put that aside and be focus. about that school thing. we talk later, ok? im kinda busy now. i need to focus so do you. lets fight for our future!
D: thanks dear. wish me!

Then Daniel when away while Julia prepare her project. Everything go well. Julia present her project with full of confidence and she can answer what-ever they asked. Daniel sing and dance so great! He amazed the judges. Both of them show up so well.

-breaktime- Julia meet Daniel as they already promise to meet.

J: so how is your competition?
D: great! you?
J: Fine! erm..we kinda need to talk.
D: What?
J: if i got this deal, im going to stay at England. because i will be studying there and maybe work there too. and you are going to korea right? if you get your deal.
D: means, we will be separate.
J: yeah, so what do you say?
D: you mean?
J: our relationship of course.
D: we are not going to break up! i love you. you also know that.
J: i also love you. but, will distance...ensure it?
D: only death can separate us, ok.
J: lets just pray for that.
D: yeah...

both of them keep in silent. until the announcement for the winners...

"sorry to interrupt your break but there is an important announcement i need to make. now i will announce the winners that will be selected to enter the academy in Korea. Daniel!Syam!Maggie!Melisa!Gwen! sorry for the one that are not selected. the second is about the project that stunt today. looks like this couple is going to England for this big deal! Congratulation to Julia and Mark! that is all for today. hope everyone is going to be happy for the results."

both of them cheer like crazy but suddenly they realize one thing. they have to separate...both of them look at each other.

D: Julia..

mark appear and say,

M: Julia, there you are. We need to go. The professor want to see us. sorry Daniel, need to borrow your girl friend for a while.
D: sure...tonight i will call you.

mark when away with julia. julia just follow and she seems like want to cry. actually, mark bring her to one place. a romantic place where no one is there and under a tree that is full with flowers.

J: where im i?
M: relax, im not going to do anything to you.
J: you said the professor want to see us.
M: i lied ok. i just need to talk to you.
J: why here?
M: Julia, i...li..like you since....the second grade...
J: but you were dating Melisa. you never talked to me or anything.
M: yeah i was dating with her but i always look at you.
J: why now? i always look at you, you never look back.
M: you crazy! i only look at you when you busy talking with your friends. i hate eye contacts ok.im sorry for being late.
J: its too late. i love daniel not you.
M: you know me longer than him. i deserve a chance.
J: if you love me, you should tell me earlier, not now.even i know you first but daniel is way more amazing!
M: what! what he have until you like him so much?
J: he is kind and he is braver than you.
M: but he is letting you go. can't you see? he is going to Korea to be away from you. don't you realize that?
J: no! that is a big fat lie! he have a big dream to catch and i also have a dream to catch. he is ok with mine so im ok with his.
M: let me be your protector. i learn Science in detail all because of you! can you see? i let go of football for you. that is a big scarified!
J: that is sweet of you but my heart was taken. i hope you understand. if this is not your dream than don't go for it. leave it!
M: i can't! i already reach this far! you think its easy?
J: then let me go!

julia try to run but mark hold her arm.

M: im not letting you go that easy! you must please me first! i know you are still a virgin!
J: ow, you must be joking. you will regret this!!
M: no..i never taste a virgin yet.
J: urght! take this!

julia kick his...*middle..than ran away. she cried for helped and look around. then suddenly daniel from behind her, hug julia.

D: its daniel! relax..you are going to be fine!
J: (crying) where have you been?
D: i was just about to act but you did first. i never though that you are that brave.
J: i learn taekwando ok. (starting to laugh)
D: never do that when we marry ok.
J: (smile) maybe..haha

yeah it was kinda shocked that Mark react like that. love can make you lose control huh? looks like daniel come just on time to comfort julia. but actually, mark will start keeping a revenge towards that happy couple.

what will happen next? is mark will continue his revenge as he is going to England with Julia. how the relationship will be after sometime. it looks like julia's bestfriend is turning against her this time. want to know in more detail. wait!

everything that you said about me is so right! i mean it. the reason why this happen, because im so jealous and i want you to fell that you need me. yesterday i surf about friendship aka sahabat. and i got this 5 tips. and one of it said that we must not be jealous to our best friend because every bestfriend have their own why to tread each other.

yeah, i always think badly about you. thats the way i taught myself about boys since i broke up with my ex. if i always think positively, it just going to end up heart break. but i don't realize that im doing that to you. its my fault. its never yours. im the one who create everything. i already think of not doing it but something told me to do it. even i know that im going to lose you.

you had been a great friend and your secrets safe with me. even i am so selfish but i always keep my promise. i know that starting for today. i am officially not your friend. im sorry for everything that i had done. i hope you to HALAL kan every credits that you spend on me. and i will always pray for your happiness.

like i said, i am so sorry for
@being your worst friend in the world
@for having feelings for you
@judge so early
@have bad thoughts about you
@being so caring
@never try to understand you
@asking you so much
@being such a jerk
@message you so much until your credit finish
@i will always miss you after this
@cannot forget you that easy
@making you fed up
@--what so ever i did wrong--



"The One That Got Away"

Summer after high school when we first met
We make out in your Mustang to Radiohead
And on my 18th Birthday
We got matching tattoos

(we meet in bainun. you are being such a scary classmate because of your eyes.)

Used to steal your parents' liquor
And climb to the roof
Talk about our future
Like we had a clue
Never planned that one day
I'd be losing you
( we contact back after like a year we never talk a word. its fun talking to you. i never thought that i would lose you today)

In another life
I would be your girl
We'd keep all our promises
Be us against the world

In another life
I would make you stay
So I don't have to say
You were the one that got away
The one that got away

I was June and you were my Johnny Cash
Never one without the other we made a pact
Sometimes when I miss you
I put those records on (Whoa)
(we are bestie cause i asked for it. this year i start to have feelings for you and when i miss you i will read your texts that i save. when you called me bestie, when you say gudnite. that time, i know that we will always take care and support other cause we are SAHABAT.)

Someone said you had your tattoo removed
Saw you downtown singing the Blues
It's time to face the music
I'm no longer your muse
(now all of that only left history)

But in another life
I would be your girl
We'd keep all our promises
Be us against the world

In another life
I would make you stay
So I don't have to say
You were the one that got away
The one that got away
The o-o-o-o-o-one [x3]
The one that got away

[Bridge:]
All this money can't buy me a time machine (Nooooo)
Can't replace you with a million rings (Nooooo)
I should've told you what you meant to me (Whoa)
'Cause now I pay the price
(i know its hard to find your replacement. im sorry for not being fully honest.now i get my punishment)

In another life
I would be your girl
We'd keep all our promises
Be us against the world

In another life
I would make you stay
So I don't have to say
You were the one that got away
The one that got away
The o-o-o-o-o-one [x3]

In another life
I would make you stay
So I don't have to say
You were the one that got away
The one that got away

@sorry if this make you uncomfortable.
@i dont deserve to be sorry.

im being a jerk to let go one of the precious friend. -sob,sob- im just being honest. im tired of crying because of you. i know that im not being a great friend and you deserve better. i already go through so many rejection. i know that felt hurt and i can over come it. but loosing someone you care so damn much is like killing yourself.

i can only pray that we become friend back but i know if that happen we will not be that close. -frustration-

but everything will come with price. maybe we will have great future one day. big thing come with big sacrifice, right? maybe i found mine.
i knew you were trouble #np

he said i judge his feelings. i don't deserve a friend like him. he need time to change.

im i being a damn egoist? i mean, he is my bestie. i cannot be in love with him. i don't want our relationship as friend end as ex. never! but you get it wrong. maybe everything is my fault. i judge you before i know the truth. but how can i know the truth if you never want to share. i just said what i know.

sorry..i have no rights to judge you. im being a damn jerk!

this is the character for my new drama. i love korean lately so that really effect the characters.



this is daniel. actually he is in the TVXQ group.

i like watching witch yoo hee. so i take most of the characters.



this is mark.



this is nyna



this is syam.

julia is me. but im not picturing myself, of course. below this play the julia character.




maybe i will add characters but for now. just this. i hope this drama will make you guys fell excited!



cannot imagine Lisa Surihani become the true scientist..LOL

d: julia, are you alright?
j:not really...
g: are you alright?
j:you...you are the old woman that chase me when i was small right?
g:oh, i told you she still remember me.
d:haha! i never guess that.
j: what do you mean? you know about this all along?
d: kinda. i told grandma about you and i showed her your picture and she told me about that incident.
j: so? its a nightmare actually. no offence
g: i know that honey. but if you know me, i will not be your nightmare anymore.
d: seriously. give her a chance. everyone deserve a second chance.
j: hurm...ok, fine. but grandma, please never scared me....
g: im sorry. actually that time, i was just want to say hello but you ran and you left your candy so i want to give back but you ran away.
j: huh? im...im speechless.
d: its fine. grand's understand. so lets have dinner.
j: dinner? i faint for a long time?
d: kinda...
j: sorry for making you guys trouble.
g: its fine honey.

---while dinner----

j: this food is so damn good!
g: just eat how much you want, honey. you know, im happy to see my daniel this happy. thank you julia.
d: granny..
j: its fine...i should thanked him! i mean, he had been a caring friend even i dont realize that he love me.
g: he likes to keep secret but it wouldn't last long. haha!

----after dinner. chat with daniel alone---

j: so, what do you think of the future?
d: marry you of course
j: -blushing- i mean your ambition.
d: i want to be a singer and a dancer
j: what?! you never told me that. i though you want to be an engineer.we have so many in common.
d: -put his finger at julia's lips- shuhs..i know that. but i like to sing and dance.
j: i never see you singing or dancing.
d: one day you will watch me live on stage! but you know by that time im just looking at you and sing for you.
j:-about to cry- why are you saying this? its like you want to say goodbye.
d: don't say like that. how about you?
j: i want to create a history that all man kind will remember. i want to be a great scientist. i hope you understand.
d:i understand.
j: you don't mind having a working wife don't you?
d: not at all.

then he lean down and kiss julia. teenager love, will it last forever?

--at school--

s: so,how is you guys doing?
d: fine. why?
n: nothing. im just surprised that Julia can pick you that easy as she like Mark for like, since she saw him
d:so? did that matter?
s: not really. she seems not really close with us since she have you.
d: you guys don't agreed with our relationship?
s: to be honest, not really

#suddenly julia appear from no where

j: hye guys! sorry i have been avoiding to see you guys. i had been busy doing my science project for the science day. you guys know how important that project was to me, right?
d: listen, i don't care if you guys cannot accept it but the truth, she also spent less time with me but i never argue. let's go julia.
j: wait! what happen? -daniel pull julia away. nyna and syam only look-

--awhile-

j: are you going to explain now?
d: ok. they said our relationship is making you to...like...being away from them. like im a bad person..-start to sulk-
j: oh, daniel. i know they say something that you really hurt. spill it out...
d: they said you had a crush on mark.
j: i think you know that earlier right? its just a crush. the main is i love you -blush-
d: what? repeat it.
j: i know you heard it. don't make me repeat it.
d:or? -julia grab his t shirt and kiss him-
j: that will happen less.
d: ok. -blush like tomato-
j: hey, look at this notice.
d: -pick up- a singing competition will be held soon. who have the talent can enter the art academic. and it is held the same day as your science day.
j: go for it.
d: really?
j: you give me chance to catch my dream now its your turn.
d: thank you julia. i know you are the one. -hug-

they are so busy with each other's things but they still steal time to meet. their relationship become closer but not everyone is happy about it. syam and nyna are still with their own perception, they simply think daniel and julia are not to be together. looks like this cute couple will have trouble to face in the future.

to find out what will happen:
-is daniel going to win tha competition?
-what will syam and nyna do?
-after this mark will surprised us
-will julia's project will attract the judges?

wait for the next ep

hey guys.

so, i make a dare for myself. it is, no contact with anyone in 5 days. i only told some people about it because i don't want everyone to know about this little dare. i will start tomorrow. maybe i will see you guys soon but before that i got some stories

first:

yesterday i lovely pet ran away because my dad forget to lock his cage. then my mum and dad turn so sorrow about it. i know they are not ready to let that thing go. today they start their day by looking for it. and after they gave up and want to take some rest, by that time i was in the kitchen. suddenly my mum scream, baby! i found the baby!

yeah, they found it in the cupboard. it is still alive and healthy. so they cheer with joy. i just watch and smile. my dad play and gave it a bath. after for hours, my dad do other thing. he is the one that is jumping on the cloud 9.


second:

i told my best friend -syamil- about it. and that time im kinda not in the mood. then he said
s: he ran away?
me: yeah, he cannot tali-port to somewhere else.
s:oh, i should i know...pfft
me: ok

after awhile i felt so guilty. so i text him

me: sorry. im kinda moody just now.

the great thing happen. he did not reply. i felt kinda angry about it but i try think positive for awhile. then i said to myself, he must be busy with his girl friend. i shouldn't bother him.

then i saw he already dis active his facebook account. im like, ok now he is the one getting away from me. Fine!



so, i am so sad about this. he used to be someone that always with me...maybe not now. and i know he never read this.

lalala~ things with me and daniel is kinda interesting as we become closer then before. my family knows his family and my mum keep on telling me how great he is to me and asked me if we have any relationship.

j: mum..we are just friends. not more.
m: i know that but you guys seems to be so close.
j: yeah, we are bestie, what do expect?
m: what ever, but if one day i know that he is your boy friend i will give my bless.
j: MUM!-blushing-

yeah, i hate that conversation. i like talking with my mum except about boys. she like to think over the boundaries. i kinda...not ready for that kind of stuff.

ting!-message-
d: free tonight?
j: not really. whats up?
d: want you to accompany me to town.
j: what time?
d: 8pm
j: for?
d: a surprise!
j: erm..sorry. can't make it..
d: its fine. maybe i can asked Syam.
j: great. i got to go. bye!
d: bye...

damn it! i want to follow but i cannot risk it. i mean, what if he want to fetch his girl friend from where ever he came before moving here. i..dunno. i heard he talk to a woman laughing and they promise to meet today. i know its his girl friend because he seems so excited about it.

the next day. i go to school earlier then usual. i try to escape from daniel no matter where he is. i skip every class that we enter together. when ever i met him, i will run until one day..he manage to grab my hand before i can speed.

d: julia, what is wrong with you?
j: erm...nothing. i got to go. bye!

daniel pull my hand as i want to walk away.

j: ouch! what is wrong with you?
d: me? why are you escaping from me since i text you.
j: you need piece not disturb.
d: meaning?
j: that day..you fetch your girl friend right?
d: what that..(julia cut)
j: shuh...no need to say. i really need to go.
d: (julia walking away) julia....(she ignore) JULIA!...(still keep on walking).. I LOVE YOU!! (she look back)

this is so drama. daniel ran to julia and kiss her. and they smile.

j: i m sorry to..yeah..misunderstand you..
d: its fine. and fyi, i fetch my grandma...hope you can meet her soon.
j: no problem!

one thing nobody knows....i am so scared at old people. because when i was a kid, an old crazy woman pretend to be a witch and she cursed me so many things. even she want me to be a cat so i can be her cat. she chase me around the park. the people just watch and laugh even they saw me crying.

my mum said that she is not crazy but she is just making jokes. for me it is not a joke but a nightmare. i cannot sleep for 5 days because of that crazy woman. i just hope daniel's grandma is not that kinda person.

the day of old woman

daniel called her grandma which is in the kitchen.

d:grandma! i bring our special guest!
g: coming!

then she appear from kitchen.
g: hello young girl.
j: argh!!!!!!

(she faint)

-why she faint? wait for next ep-

A Great Girl

Am i great? huh? nonsense.i am just being friendly not great. i like having so many friends with me. anyway, my name is Julia and i am 14 for another two weeks. i mean my birthday is coming soon. not that im going to die. i think so.

many people think i am great but actually im just being myself. i hate to be fake. but most of the girls think that the way i am now is just to grab attention of the boys especially the soccer and the football(rugby) boys. that is so NOT ME! and i train myself to ignore those jealousy girls.

i use to go to school wearing t-shirt with sweater and black jeans and shoes not sandal. i am kinda tomboy but that is just how i wear. i dont have boyfriend and i like being single.i have 2 bestie. its syam and nyna and both of them are asian. i like being friend with asian as they are open minded.

ok, even i am kinda tomboy i still have feeling towards a boy. his name is mark. he is one of the soccer boy. i prefer soccer boy because they are not so muscular and have cute face. i like cute and smart. he also have blood connection of korean. so he is mixed with american and korean so he look so damn cute. he have black short hair and blue eyes. he have white teeth as he like to smile so much. he is a friendly guy but i never talk to him. hello, he is one of the hottest boy in school. no matter how great i am i dont have the guts to talk to him. i like to look at him from far away and he never realize that. but everything kinda change since this year because he got a new locker which is beside mine and......we go to the same classes. i mean, 2 subject, english and mathermatic. both of that subject i like but i used to see him sleeping during those classes so maybe he never knew my existed.

syam already have a fantastic girl friend which is my other best friend, nyna. both of them deserve each other. kinda like movies because they start to become best friend with me and they get to know each other. and on last valentine, syam told nyna he love her and want to be her only special one. and nyna agreed and they couple until now. i already warn they that no couple conversation in front of me. and that is our deal. i am happy for they but also jealous because since they get together, i kinda have feeling to find a boy friend but the only person who get my attetion was mark and i like i said, it is impossible to have him as my boyfriend. hate love story!

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s: what are you thinking
j:not much actually.
n: syam, she is staring at mark.dont disturb her.
j: hey! am not! i just think of having a boyfriend. i also want someone special.
s:oh, you want me to help?
n:hey, how about dennis. he likes you.
j: no thinks syam. i dont want a nerd boy friend. nyna, he is that super weird guy. he likes everyone. see, he is following jessica. after this he will hunt myra. he likes every single girl.
s: so you are saying im nerd?
j:kinda but you still have nyna so you are not that nerd.
n: yeah i can see that.

suddenly a guy walk towards us with his tray.

d: hey, can i join? everywhere already full.
J: sure. you are the new guy right?
d: yeah!
n: you are the asian kid right? i saw you joining that club. i mean our club.
d: u-huh. i am from south-korea. my dad was a britain man but he married my mum the korean girl. but at last we move american because my dad work here. he got promoted.
j: great! you can be our friends if you want too. we are not the popular guys. we always stay lay-low.
d: sure. after this i got maths class. can you show me?
j: no problem. follow me cause we are in the same class.
d: great!
d:im daniel
j: julia

we talk and for some unknown reason, nyna and syam is smiling at me.

he is an active boy because he answer most of the questions.he sit beside me and the girls are staring at him. but i am so busy staring at mark. mark and daniel are like twins because they look more alike.

after school, i walk back home. my house is just a stone's throw from school. so i usually will walk or ride my bike.

i plug on my ear phone and start singing. then i feel someone grab my shoulder. i cant believe my eye that it is mark.

m: hey!
J: yeah...can i help you?
m: nothing. i think this is yours? ( a notebook)
j: this is my diary! where did you found it?
m: relax. you just drop it. im just walking behind you.i didn't read even the cover. i pick it up.
j:oh, thanks. (relieve)
m: no problem. (he walk away)

seriously, i stare at him until he is really far away. suddenly i hit someone in front. my eyes is looking someone else so i dont realize people in front of me.

j:ops, sorry.(look up) daniel?
d: next time, look in front not behind my dear.
j: sorry man.
d: its fine. so where did you leave?
j: another two blocks and on 3rd floor. you?
d: i think opposite you house. looks like we are neighbor huh?
j: yeah. excellent!

so we walk and talk. we get to know each other and i find daniel is kinda interesting boy. he play guitar, enjoy reading and writing, likes basketball, like purple color and believe in fate and god. he also have so any common things with me.haha! he gave me his phone number. i mean we exchange phone number.

the next day.

i when to school as usual but this time i go with daniel. he wait for me. i didn't asked and he said that he want someone to accompany him. i just say, ok and no problem.

yeah, everyone look as us like we are a couple. this time the girls look at me like im the wrong man. hello! he is my neighbor. what do expect huh?

j: i think you better walk on your own. people seems to hate me when i walk with you.
d: huh? ignore them. your are my friend so is it wrong?
j: fine..
d: julia, its fine ok. we are friend not criminal that ran away from prison. no one is guilty.
j: gee...thanks. kinda make me better.

you know. the way he comfort me like im his girl friend. oh no! here come the love syndrome...no, i like mark not daniel.

now im fighting with my own thoughts. great!

to be honest....i am having a problem. maybe more than one.

i want to solve it but things just getting worse. im being patient about it but negative thoughts keep on pop in my mind. so...it is just the same thing. any idea how to solve it?

i am being a nice person. but they take advantage on that or they will only look at my dark side. hey like you don't have any dark side. yes, i am trying to be nice but the bad attitude of mine , you cannot argue or complain as that is the part of me.

im trying to be a friend but you take me like a stranger. fine! like i really want to be your friend. i can find other person lah! i just want to say that im sorry why is it so hard for you to accept it? just say, its fine. so i will feel piece.

why people that we care just cannot get it?

Today is raya haji and i just realize aka met a f3 boy which is officially my cousin. haha!

i was stuck at school for less then 3 weeks and so many things had happen.

1st
one of my secret already explode! and people start making fun of me. nice!

2nd
next year i will be 15 but that 'nice' big people took away our freedom. i always think, they never been nice to us why we should be nice to they. no matter how much deed we make they only look at our mistakes. i just want to say, look at the mirror lah dulu kawan!

3rd
my aunt said that i look older than my age. is that a compliment or not? did i look old?

4rd
connect with 2nd. got new 'great' rules before going back. things just get 'better'.

5th
i wanted to trust one guy but...he just betray my trust. and i want to apologize to a guy but he just cannot get it. why boys are like.....no comment...

haha! complicated life. trying to solve it like solving maths problem but i just dont get the formula.

my advised: better solve something before it get worse. be brave with your life.

As i told u guys yesterday about a boy. today i stalk his facebook. and i saw his pictures...the picture he upload on my birthday this year and he wore the same cloth as we first met. take a look but don't take him.




yeah that is him, covering his face. he is a cute guy and also a friendly boy. he is also a sbp student.as we all know that basket and debate will clash on hksbp but this guy and me still enter both but on the competition, we must choose. i will choose debate then basketball because in debate team we have limited of members.

the first time i talk with him is kinda simple.we talk after i asked him about the basket thing. we talk about results, debate and stuff going around. but i don't have the chance to say goodbye to him before i leaf. so, it kinda make me cannot forget about him until now.

he is an intelligent boy with cute face and kinda tall and he is also a prefect.

hurm...u think can someone like him or hiimself will like someone like me. being friendly is....actually hurting because it is like yo are giving hope which actually you just to be friend...so, u get what i mean..

#wondering~

i hate when i have to make a so damn tough decision on my own..handle my problem alone...no one will understand me...no one want too..things are difficult for me. i mean, Allah is testing me. i just need some strength to handle this stress but no one want to lean their hand. things are just so damn negative to me. nothing seem to be easy. everything is like so damn hard. i just want things to be simple but the more simple i want the harder it be.

how can i trust someone that never want to say that they don't do it. i kinda on crush on you but you just keep on letting me down. i know that we just know each other but...i just want you to be honest. is that so damn hard? i don't want you to be my boyfriend but i just need you to be honest. if it is true, i'm just going to be sad but im not going to be angry........why are you doing this to me?

basket or debate? both i enjoy but...........i must choose only one. basketball, yeah, i love sport like so much.but the seniors..i just did one mistake but until now they just seem to never let it go. then you make me like this...many hurting words you tell the others about me. hating me, making the eyes...never want to be friendly..i want to apologize but.the way you looking at me is like 'no matter how much you say sorry, we are never going to accept it...'yeah, thanks for that. serious, i mean it.

debate,,,because of debate i met this guy. i mean a cute guy. he is a basketball player, have great result, weak i math like me, friendly and just great for me. he is enough. if i can see how complete he is, other girls in his school can also see that so, i predict that maybe someone already own him. i know that i don't deserve a complete guy like him. cause we are just not in the same level.

boys? you all know that i had crush on many guys but...the only ONE i love is...' mr future-husband...and that guys seems to be not-so-friendly...maybe being friend with them is enough.

the thing is, i don't know why but i always think things so negatively so,,,,thats why i'm easily emotional.

when i'm happy about something, it would last long. something will make me sad and i will think that i had made a bad decision. the guilty feeling is like poison with no healer. it will crawl in my body. when i like someone that i think perfect, i will imagine that he already have a girlfriend which is better than me. i mean, the same level as him. i don't think that i deserve someone that is not in the same level (high level).

i don't know, what ever. what can make me calm? Pray, Pray . Maybe talk to ejat...

for me growing up according to what we know about sex. sorry if that sound kinda intents. but its true. our parents will not let us know so many things about sex or violent, right? which we will be expos sooner..its true. it is the fact that we must accept.

so one day, i was so boring and by that time i am having a headache.so i look at the book shelve in my room and i saw this novel. i remember about what my sister told me about that story. so i start reading it.

about a girl name Carrie and her friends. its kinda interesting but what surprised me, there is about sex in it. that book said, if you are 18 or 19 but you never have sex its kinda embarrassing. so one imagination pops into my mind, so girls lost her virgin in high school? OMG! so discussting because that shows their husband is a not lucky guy.

i know im kinda young to say about all of this sex thing but i think its fine because one day i will know about this stuff. and my sibling all already past 18 so, they are the reason how i know so much stuff about this stuff. yaiks!

this is the novel

and that novel already have their movie.



and other image



this story also tell us about rule of friendship and some wisdom words

@ What if we we someone we want to be but at another place but nobody have to know

@ You can't let what other people say effect you so much. By looking at everyone like they're a big joke

@ Love is spiritual. tis about self-sacrifice and commitment. And discipline. And respect. When you lose the respect of your spouse, you've lost everything.

@ Why do girls carry these grudges for years? Do boys do that too?

The rules of i dont know

R1: why is it that the one time a cute guy talks to you, you have a friend who's in crisis

R2: humiliated bast friend always takes precedence over guys

R3: best friend always think you deserve the best guy even if the guy barely knows you exist

R4: best friend can also be full of suprises

R5: always agree with your fiends, even if its your own expense, so they won't be upset

i guess that the rule of friendship...

#that story tell us about friend that betrayed friend for a boy that was a jerk.
#having an ex that turns into gay after the break up.
#about a nerd girl that have a perfect boyfriend and already have sex.
#also about how we can be a writer which we must write something that already happen to us.
#having crisis because of sisters that only have a father because the mother already died.
#but actually carrie have a big dream to be a writer and she want to live in the big city like New York and Manhattan.but her father want she to be a scientist. yeah. that inspired me a lot.

True form heart

I want to be a scientist but in the same time i want to be a writer. my mum said i can be both of it. my dad want me to be a doctor. but my school counselor dont want be to be a writer because of the harry pother writer, JK Rowling. she start writing that fiction after she divorced.maybe my counselor is afraid im going to be like that.

so? i hope you all got the input for today even the topic is kinda sensitive.

so, this summer, my fav singer will release her movie about how she success. i just watched her trailer and it really get mt attention. i mean, she start singing because she got her first guitar from church.

her personality is great because she knows how it felt being a fan. her priority of making concert is to make people happy. she just want everyone to have fun.

she said, by singing, she smile, cry and so on. so she really got the heart of an true artist.most of her songs really inspired in so many thing. like don't give up easily, be yourself and wake up from your imagination.

she is also such a sweet and beautiful woman. i love her SO MUCH!



this show how much she focus. (i think so) she look so stunning! loving her hair!



am im going to look like this after finishing my PLKN? i mean starting with my batch, PLKN is a MUST!

but im kinda excited. even it is going to be about 3 more years...i think so.

what ever. the point im talking right now about 'the part of me' is that i want u guys to know that i really ADMIRE Katy Perry....

hope i can catch my dream too....pray 4 me....

~adios~

from what i observe since the Olympic going on, malaysian take our athletes as their hero just because they got the medals.

ok, i agreed because this can make our country become more popular and what-so-ever. so, today i read the newspaper from behind FOR THE FIRST TIME. can you believe that?! i read sport first not the cartoon first, high-five to me!

then i read something about our national-3 squash player. his name is Mohd Nafiizwan Adnan.



he is leading the game (not sure what event) and bla..bla...bla.but he is really catching people's attention right now, i think so..

then i turn to another page. this picture of this cute boy really get my attention. so i read the head line which said, 15-year-old foolballer joins Italian club. so, i read that article.

this boy enter the MENCARI RAMLI program. in that show, his hair had been shaved. he said that his dream is to achieve the national level like Manchester and his motto is, what doesn't kill you make you stronger ( stronger by kelly clarkson) . his name is Sean Gan Giannelli. he is mixed with malaysian (his mum) and itlaian (his dad). he is so cute!



i like a sport boy! they are cute and active. they keep their body fit and muscular. maybe not all but...most of them.

Sean Gan Giannelli <3

always supporting you from malaysia!

hope he heard me

i just finish my japanese paper and tommorrow i have the last paper, its history. one of my favorite sub....

yesterday i finish my math and geography paper....both of that paper i did so not good. i mean, math, i have not enough time and geo, i circle the wrong answer in the OMR paper. question paper is just for recycle but the OMR is the important one...

i just got my math's mark. its my black history. honestly! i feel like im the stupidest girl in this earth! i got 44% only. can you image?! i never got E the whole of my life for math! the worst on B...i got a red ink in my paper!!!

so, say goodbye to top 50...i don't think my pointer will be 3.0 and above.

my siblings and my family must be so damn down at me. got E for math, such a stupid girl!

easy thing also i cannot do....

so...............any advised?

i hope i can do better next time. i want to jump from E to A...pray for me...i mean, please!!!! i cannot handle anything that making me feeling much more worst! no mood for Raya...

i want to lock myself in the room! i want to cry until i die! _kidding_
its time to roll up my sleeves and pull up my socks! its time to break a lag and no more mambo jambo!!!!

Ganbatte Kudasai!!!

Official description/synopsis

London Paris New York is a film that captures the angst of being in your twenties, the most dramatic period of your life - when you have to find a career; you have your first significant relationship and most importantly form your identity in this world.

It is the story of Lalitha, a middle class South Indian girl from Chembur (an eastern suburb in Mumbai) who is on her way to New York to study politics on a full scholarship, and Nikhil, a Punjabi, rich kid from Bandra (a posh western suburb of Mumbai - read new money) who is going to study filmmaking in London, fully funded by his father's money. They decide to hang out together one evening in London and find that they are completely drawn to each other even as their future lies on separate continents.

The film follows their personal journey and their love story as they meet in London, Paris and New York for a night each over eight years. The film is in three chapters and each chapter is shot in a manner that mirrors the mental state of Nikhil and Lalitha. The three bridges on the three rivers - Thames, Seine and Hudson - witness the three states of their love.

Music is integral to the film and takes form according to the moods. The three cities also give a dramatic canvas to create different exciting themes - Pop-Romance in London; Electronic Sufi in Paris and Blues-Rap in New York, all blended in true Bollywood style. The dialogues are natural and fresh and you get a sense that you are eavesdropping on these two characters. The film is romantic but not sentimental, and even though the pair discuss meaningful things, the film is always underpinned by humour.

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that story i watched yesterday and it was so touching. i watched it because of the title. one of my dream is to go london and paris and new york. that 3 great city is my dream. maybe go there for honeymoon or study or for vacation. it doesn't matter, what matter is, i am at that place.

that story is about couple that met at london's airport. lalitha's book felt of and nikhil took it and gave to lalitha. start from that they know each other. lalitha's flied is the next day so they spend a whole day together.

after 2 years they met back at paris and have romance after walking around that city of love. and they fight because of nikhil's first movie.lalitha asked nikhil to be honest with himself.

after some years, they met back. nikhil when to lalitha's house. they when for coffee and walk around new york for an hour. lalitha's told nikhil that she is going to marry very soon with alan. nikhil was suprised and they fight. nikhil said that lalitha was selfish. but at last, lalitha cancel her wedding because she knew that she love nikhil and they be together.

such a beautiful story but...its only happen in movie

finding a true love is nor easy. we must be patient to wait until that love arrived.

ok..let see here.

look like some people already misunderstand about what 'crush' really mean. for me, a crush is like having a happy mood when we see them. i am not obsess or crazy about them. i just want to make myself happy.

falling in love and having a crush is like...so damn different. for me,

first-like to see them (can be anyone)

second-crush (some of the first)

third-starting to know each other AKA friend( one or two or more)

forth-falling in love (one person)

last-officially in love (the same person)

so,that is my chart. now, i have no time for third and so on because i am not ready. being the first and second is normal. i think not only for me but for majority girls.

i think so.

so...don't get it wrong ok. hoping ALL DEAR READERS understand what i'm trying to say. like i said before, being in relationship right now is not a good idea.

so lazy lah...

now i'm happy to live this single life

as you know from the feedback about me. things just getting worst and making me worst too. but the worst thing is actually great! because from those incident i get a change to change. to be more careful. to be someone new.

a leopard cannot change his spot but he can be better. just like me, i cannot change who i am but i can be better. so today i'm thinking...can i really change myself?

now what i'm trying to do:
-be more hard working especially for subject that i'm weak
-controlling my anger
-being active in co-curricular (basketball and debate)
-improving my spelling (starting to read the dictionary)
-being more quiet (kinda impossible)
-want to stay single until the right person arrive
-want to start writing a new story for my lovely blog (like drama)
-want to be more discipline

but can i really achieve this stuff?

question mark there...

guys...my music teacher told us his love story which was just like me. he said, we must be tough and never give up. and he said, the one that dumped him was such a waste. so i take his words to keep me on top. i mean, to throw away my sorrow.

it took a week to really think and decide. after a week (maybe more), i already gave back all the notes that used to be the symbol of loyal, back to izzul. so that mean, our long story already end!

i think he is happy with his new more hot and beautiful girl friend. that's why he dumped the most coolest and one of the clever girl in class. but i don't care. i already think of revenge but...for someone useless like him, nah...he is wasting his time coupling while i spend my time studying so which one is better?

i already had crush on someone else but...i just to stay single for now. couple? maybe not now. still sawing my broken heart. hope you guys get what i'm trying to say.

adios!

im at our lab computer and we have the opportunity to online. i have big news...now im single!!! guess what now he is showing his friend about his new girl friend. ok fine now he think im not here. he is so shit! but never mind i can fine someone better. his attitude is getting worst because i see he already become someone so damn lazy.

so...maybe thats all from me now...

so if you guys want to know how i felt right now. listen to payphone, wide awake and stronger.

boys? relationship?

i don't think so...

i dunno what is wrong with me tonight. i just finish uploading pictures from facebook. then i saw this photo. that photo really making me excited. the truth is, i had a crush on him. its been, i'm not sure since when but kinda.

at class, i can see him from his class's window. sometime i saw him looking outside like thinking. but, he is the type of boy that did not bother about girl. by the time i took his picture, his not angry but he ignore me. the point is, why he did not get mad but he just keep quiet and let me took his picture.

maybe is lazy to say anything.WHY I LIKE HIM:
@ he is so handsome and smart
@ he a genius
@ he play rugby
@ he is a quiet boy and mystery



and this guy. he is so funny but i don't know how to be close with him
i like him because:
@ he is funny
@ creative
@ his eyes when he took off his glasses



this guy is different. i like to see his face because for me he is kinda cute but he is an annoying boy. seriously, he always scold me when we chat.



i also have crush on one of my classmate but that just happen last time. now i more prefer to just be friend because he start to annoy me lately. i dunno what is his problem. i act cool but he keep on irritating me with my ex. its not funny ok.

last time i like him because:
@ his cute face
@ his spirit
@ his attitude
@ how caring he is



this guy right here is someone that is older that me. just one year. i had chat with with a several time. since that im so damn shy to meet him. every time i meet, i'll try to run away.i mean, try to avoid him but sometime my friend will trick me. like one day he was walking passing my class then my friend asked me out then i walk outside. and by that time, we meet eyes and i feel like wanna explode. so i rush inside my class. i dunno why, every time i saw him, i'm like...WAWAWAH!!!

@he is cute
@a soccer player
@ a runner
@ tall but thin



lastly, my ex
i still like him...he is different. other people i like just for fun. to make me excited or to make me happy but him. he is the one make me feel like in the cloud 9 or break my heart. the real feelings.

now...we are just....friend. it is lame to still be friend while you know that it is not comfortable or what ever.

i dont know. i still cannot forget about him. i'm not ready or i still did not meet the one that can replace his place. or i'm not ready. things just so complicated between us. so i decided to step aside and let him decide what's the best for both of us. i'm tired of everything. i 'm tired of crying or missing him. i just want to live a happy single life without any tears.