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What i want to share today have something to do with my past. Most of it. SO, today i went for my tuition class as usual. I always come early so i sit down and read my novel before i enter the class.

Suddenly a boy aka my classmate arrived. He looks handsome and smart more then usual. Whatever. Then he sits kinda far, i mean, the other side of the room. The some boys from other class start to come out. They begin to talk wit my classmate. And one of the boy is Iman. He is the first guy that i know had a crush on me. In the same time, i also had a crush on him. we like each other but both of us don't know that.

It had been 3 years since the crush. I met him again the last 2 years at a camp. We were in the same group but, we don't have time to talk. We did talk but not much. After that camp, i sent him some letters but he response negatively. Which make me so sad. So i forget about him for a year then i move on. But he appear in my friend's fb acc. His photos!

Damn it! This time i cried because of everything about him. I wish i never know him!

Today, i watched him. I even rub my eyes. He saw me but i look away because i don't want him to recognize me. I'm not sure if he realize that its me. I hope he wouldn't because i want to move on. I don't want to like him or even what ever about him. Its enough! I am sick of everything! i just want to move on. some of his friends remind me of my friend which i haven't meet for so long. They remind me of so much pain. The bitter is more powerful than sweetness.

Things change. I change. He change. All of us are grow up! We must move on and left the past. the future awaits. Let's catch them together.

The past is great and taught me so much about life. I'm sorry but i have to move on. I am so sick waiting for something that never come. You think i forgot about you? I never did. So, I am so over it!