hmm

So, as usual i will text Nico. Yesterday we exchange songs. He gave me this song name fiddlesticks. I know all the other songs except that song. He dare me to find that song. So, i try to google it and find in youtube. and i fail. as usual he will always annoys me which is normal. i always get angry with him but it never last long because i know what kind of person he is. he is not the 'sorry' person.

but today something happen. he said that he write that song. i was like, WTH? and i said, oh,ok. congratulation. everything. so happy to hear that. thanks. as usual he keeps on annoy me. make me so angry which i just think, 'he always like this. he's the kid. calm down sister. never sold a kid or he will cry.' so he said that he is sorry. i just tease him,'now you know to say sorry i though you just know so say ok'. then he said that he want to make a step back and want me to live better.

i said to myself. i told you so, the boy cry! i'm like (sigh*) what in the world is he thinking? i'm fine and why suddenly he takes it so seriously?

he is like my little brother which is so mature than me. (i'm just a month older) he likes to annoy me which is the duty of a little brother. i already lost him once now i have to lose him again? huh *sigh. i don't know about that. he makes the decision.

i though of saying that its nothing but that just shows how desperate i am. maybe he is right. maybe it is the best for me and for him. i am always the one so busy body. he needs space. yeah, space.

so i guess it is goodbye then? should i say goodbye bro or goodbye crush? actually all of the songs is about him. -that's a little secret-

i don't know if i could handle it.