Assalamualykum, Alhamdulillah

Here i am again in this room. Fill with dramas of life. Being a teenager is enough. I mean, I am happy that i am still young and I am living it even...there are so much drama happening.

Sport day is just a round the corner and i am ..... injured because of triple jump. Well, i never expect that could happen but, yeah, it happen. And i told the person that i hope he care but it looks like i am wrong. Nothing about me worries him. Ok am used to that.

Life can be a sad place for you if you never want to learn to accept things that is happening around you. Yeah that inspire me to love all the flaws i am having. What do you expect in the first place? There is nothing you call as a life if it is full with ONLY rainbows and sunshine! I mean, in some part of it, there will be dark clouds that cover it. They say every silver cloud have its silver line, right?

Being injured is like a wake up call for me. To see who cares about me.

But, we can never expect the people we thought never care actually care more about us but they just never show. Never judge a book by its cover.

For me, 'don't know' is not my thing. I prefer to know things that i wanna know. I mean, being 'don't know' is... disappointing. Seriously..

Well, its life.

Hurm...let see. Lately, i've been thinking about my future A LOT.

And it will be in a whole new article that i don't have to tell how sad i am feeling right? Well, as long as Allah is still with me, there is nothing to be sad of.

Chin Up!!

Assalamualaykum, Alhamdulillah

Hey Hey its my first post in school! yeah! I am excited too!!

Well, many things had been going on in just a few days. You know, people change, people always forget. Promises. Everything left as words only.

I had got my grades and it was nightmare!! Seriously, I feel like i never study for the passed examination but i did studied. But what can you do, what you give is what you get. Means, i didn't gave mush last time. I do have some improvement but, not much.

Things become different after the last two weeks ago. Me and Xiu Min..... Everything is just.. dot dot dot.

Just forget it...It is not important.

Now, i am facing a new challenge in life. A feeling. Betrayer. Feel like being stab from behind AKA back stabber. A friend. Someone you used to trust. Someone that you share you life. Apart of you are hanging inside of that particular person. You just feel, sad. Like wanna scream! But you can't because you know nobody is listening to you. You just can sit down. Try to relax. Keep on trying you best to stay positive but, at last you just can't handle it anymore. You just don't have the strength.

Then..old memories...yeah they become the reason you keep on being strong and be inspire. The old times. Everything that you keep so sweet. Even after awhile you feel bitter but you still wanna find the bit of sweetness. Yeah, that is just life.

No matter how much you try to keep it away but it will still come back and give a big impact in your life.

Everything that come will go. It is just up to someone to really let it go.

yeah people! JUST TRY YOU BEST TO FIND THINGS THAT INSPIRE YOU TO STAY ALIVE!! Seriously.

Having Allah is enough but you are living with human so, try to be nice with the rest.

#FaultInOurStars #TroyeSivan

Assalamualaykum Alhamdulillah

Salam Nisfu Sya'aban

For tonight i am thinking about Maria Elena. Throwback the old article that makes many people view my blog. By that old time, my language was so mess up, Alhamdulillah now, maybe better.

Ok, as everyone know that Maria Elena already married about a couple years ago. Now she already had a baby girl! Her name is Nadrah if im not mistaken. She is damn cute! Seriously. I'll give a picture.

Here is her blog. You guys can see everything that she post!
http://peliks.blogspot.com/

She is still with her lovely husband!

She has her online shop. Selling clothes and stuff. She also always publish some new stuff in her blog. She is not really active in her blogging and she already quit vlogging because she is a very busy woman~ I get that. I mean she has a baby to take care of and she still completing her Masters.

She already change, for me, from a teenager into a mum. Well, its a big deal for me. You see, we always watch a kid grow up, now its happening! We are growing up! And watching people change, really, scares me. The future.

We see our friends passed away.. We get married and pregnant. And now, we are currently an adult! How fast time flies..

Eh, back to Maria. I admire her because i see her just like me. Both of us are urban kids that grow up with different surrounding. We don't have much religion thingy in out family. But after some advises and after seeking for some new knowledge, both of us realize something. We realize that religion is something that we must too forward not something that we should play.

Alhamdulillah Kak Mars inspire me to seek for more knowledge in religion. Our religion, Islam.

She had been through a lot that i don't know much but i do know that, it taught her about life. About growing up and be a better woman.

She inspire me a lot! That i dunno how to express it with words! Yeah i am excited talking about her.

Now, i don't have much to talk.

Here some photos.



After a long relationship, it work out and turn out great as a soul mate!



Nadrah~ With kak Mars~

Maybe that's why my twitter username is shining mars. Actually it stand for Mardiah. But, who cares right. Thank you for reading. Hope to inspire.

Assalamualaykum. Hey there! My name is Mardina. I am an urban teenager that know nothing about minors lifestyle. Yeah i know that sound arrogant but at least i am being honest here~

Here out about the story of my life. Yupe, i hope to inspire. Maybe give you guys second thought about being 'too urban'.

I live in city for as long as i can remember. I grow up with all kind of wealth. I don't know the feeling of being poor. I am a Moslem but i grow up with Westerner lifestyle. I know nothing about sholat, Quran and sunnah. I have no idea about literally EVERYTHING about my own religion.

I live with my mum,dad and a brother. He is about, 10 years older than me.

On weekends we go shopping. I always see beggars outside the mall but my mum nor dad never hand any dollar to them.

Every Friday, i always see the mosque is always pack with all the guys and everyday i always heard a call for prayers but i never know what religion it is. How sad i life was back there. I never see my family members pray. Once i asked my mum, why she is wearing the hijjab, she said it is for fashion.

My parents never mind if my brother bring any girl into his room. They never mind if i take any boys into my room. At first, they kinda mind but when i aged 16, they don't care about it. I got my first kiss during my 15th birthday. But i was so scared of sex. Honestly. It is just too nasty. But in the late 17, i did it. Yupe, i regret that very moment as i wake up the next day. Because that day i was too drunk.

It continue until i get study aboard.

As i registered, someone tap my shoulder. Her name is Balqis. She was so excited to see me. So i respond with a smile. She said that she is my roommate. She is the best roommate ever. We made rules together, but she only have one rule, do not bring any boys into our room. At first i thought she is being ridiculous about it but i agreed.

As you guys can guess well, she is the reason i realize about being a true Moslem.

Everyday i see her praying, recite the Holy Quran and she plays all the zikir and the du'a. I feel so calm and protected. One day, she asked my full name. I said, Mardina binti Jamal. She was shocked to know that my name had 'binti' in my name. Then she cried and hugged me. I was so confuse that time. She apologize so much about why she never notice about it before. It made me felt more confused. I said that it's no biggie.

Then she looked at me in the eye and said, are you a Moslem? I just shocked my head. Then she said, do you practice your religion, our religion? I told her that i don't understand what she mean.

She explain to me about being a Moslem. She practically told me EVERYTHING that i need to know. Subhanallah. It was a wake up call. I never know about any of it.

Alhamdulillah, Allah loves me so He send Balqis to take me by my hand to the right path of life.

At first, it was hard. I mean, so hard! I must stop taking alcohol, quit smoking, no more touching guys, and etc. But Balqis never give up, she keep on giving me spirits. I lost ALL OF MY FRIENDS because i stop partying and hanging out with them. I only have Balqis. I cried a lot. I thought God was being unfair because making my life miserable. I gave up and there is one time i thought of killing myself. true story but, Balqis stopped me before i could stab myself and i got her wounded. That was the time i realize how she is not giving up on me. And that was the time, i don't want to give up on myself.

Balqis set me with new friend. People who are willing to guide me even i am dirty before this. They never judge me. They are patient about me. They teach me many new things. I feel to bless. By that time, i can feel the sweetness of Iman.

I start to wear Hijjab. Balqis said, i can start to make changes one by one as long as i keep it on.

We sholat together, she teach me how to read Quran, she always tell me about all the Sunnah that she know and tell me stories about Rasulullah and the Prophet before.

As i when back home, i family was so shocked about my changes. Long story short, i started to bring my family into the right path too. Alhamdulillah even it is not easy but at least i managed to make them join me. There was a point where my family wanted to throw me out of the family because they say, i am being hypocrite and stuff. You know what i mean. Let me give an d example, i used to join my dad drink, now, i refuse that tell them that is a big sin. They felt humiliated. I always remind them that it is not too late to change.

Yeah, it is not too late to change people.

It is hard to be nice, different. But Allah already said, different people is the lucky one. Why we need to fell ashamed about being a Moslem? It is the purest religion.. It cover every aspect of our life. It is the most complete and oldest religion. Adam and Eve were Moslems. But by that time it was not called as Islam yet. Maybe there was another name for that.

Why we need to doubt when there is so much proof that Islam is a true religion. We are not offending any other religion, but it is up to one's to choose. Islam is not a force religion. Maybe there are many things that we need to obey but if that is for our own benefit so, i don't see that as a harm.

Oh sorry, continue to my stories. It took years to convince them about Islam.

There is always a moment that they wanna give up and they wanna quit being a Moslem, That time, i felt do hopeless. That night, i dreamed a guy approach me and told me not to give up and smile before i woke up. Alhamdulillah i did not give up. I recite suroh taubah and i never realize that my reading actually touched my family's heart. that was the beginning of them in the right path. I was so happy that i thanked Allah for giving them a chance.

Now, here i am with my family. My brother got married with Balqis, i never thought that could happen at first but they said it was love at first sight. I am happy for them even it is weird to have Balqis as your sister in law. Hurm, but at least i know that my brother is under a good care.

I am still searching for myself.

Balqis and I graduated in the same here but different coarse. Here we are. Alhamdulillah, in the right path.

They say, no pain, no gain, right? To taste the sweetness our Iman you have to taste the sour of life.

This world is a prison for Sholeh people but heaven for non Moslems.

I had faced the live as a blind heart people, i know how hard it is to change. I felt it. But, Alhamdulillah i managed to change. I am still improving myself. Just like others.

I am telling my story to inspire. I hope i do inspire any soul that is reading.

Assalamualaykum, forgive me if anyone felt offended with this story. May Allah bless you guys. With that i end today's article.

Remember, there is still a light of hope in each and every of your soul. Who search for it, will see how beautiful life is. You just need to find it. Nothing come by itself.

Assalamualaykum, Alhamdulillah
We as students, always find that home works and studying is a burden. Sometime we take teachers' advises as jokes. Sometime we ignore the need to study. We never realize how lucky we are to still have teachers that are willing to teach us. We still have school to go. We don't have to bring guns to school. We don't have to face fears if we want to go out to school.

We forget that actually we are also in war. War with our 'needs' of want a freedom. War with bad attitudes like being lazy and doing dumb things that surely can damage your future. Our sisters and brothers our there is fighting a real war. Here, we raise our hands for selfies and dancing. Our sisters are raising their hands with guns.



We complaint about so many things. Food, television shows, and etc. There is just too much complaints and too much judgement until, me, the one listening get fed up. Yeah, i do complaint about stuff but not about everything. When they say, if you think you are unlucky, think twice. Say Alhamdulillah before you start to blabber about how 'unlucky' you are.

You see, if you are complaining about food, remember there is about millions of African who is starving like now.



If you complaint about having a sickness, remember that there are cancer patients out there that is waiting to die because no hope of recovering.

If you complaint about study, remember that there are many teenagers that cannot afford to go to school to study like us. So, be grateful.

Is it too hard? It is not about the hardness but it is about how lazy we are to feel the grateful.

If you see the news today, the world is having serious issues about economy, politics and criminals. But we are lucky that we are not effected. We are lucky to still have the leisure time to online and update our social networks. We can pray peacefully with hearing any bomb attacks. We have clean water. We have almost everything that we need to feel comfortable with life.

But, we as human, never feel satisfied with our life. We always want more. More. More!

A luxury lifestyle. Branded clothes. New things. New gadgets.

Together we face the truth, it is actually pointless. We cannot bring all those stuff with us in the end. Everything is left on earth. When we die, we are going to be question about our life. Each and everything that we do and say, even what we though is written as prove to Allah. Prove to every prospect of your life. What you had spend your time for. By that time, you can't lie. No one can save you. Nothing can help you except yourself.

How do i help myself?

Starting from now, help yourself to prepare the afterlife. Yeah, there is afterlife. I always believe the afterlife exist. The afterlife is infinity. What you are doing now is what you will be reward or punish in the afterlife. Are you not afraid? Google up what is the punishment for the sins that you actually realize that you did.


I am not here to say about being a saint or satan. I am not here to say that i am a prefect person. I am here as a reminder. We, as long as we are Moslems, not crazy and can think straight, you are a 'pendakwah'. I am not sure of the English word but i do know it means, a reminder. Remind people to Allah. His Powers. His promises. His Prophet.

Inshaa Allah I hope to inspire. Wasalam.

Assalamualaykum Alhamdulillah

Its been awhile since the lat post. Well, i don't know what to talk about. Today finally i got something to talk about.

Lately this week, people ask me what i want to be when i grow up older. They were interested in what i want to further my studies in 2 years time from now. Well, i did not made my mind yet. Even now. I am not sure what i want to do when i grow older.

I thought of being a scientist but i am not sure what kind of scientist i wanna be. Then i asked my mum, what do you want me to be? She said, i want you to take our legacy with you. You become a lecturer in a university. You continue master straight away and then do your Phd. For me, it is a good plan because i do think about doing Phd like my dad. Hurm, but being a lecturer.. It is quiet an idea but, i am not sure but i will consider that.

My sister is a doctor. Today i asked her, had you ever felt regret taking medic? She said, no. Maybe being a doctor is tired because of all the work and studies but being a doctor is stable. After graduate you can continue to work. You have already guarantee to have a job. I got a friend still jobless for about one year now.

Well...i can see how suffer studying medical with the long period. I already thought about being a doctor since, well, since my dad asked me to be a doctor. Which is a loooooooooooong time ago. Seriously!

I do respect all the doctors out there but,its just not my thing.

Then i asked her, what do you want me to be? My sister said, just be what you want.

Then a friend of mine said, you should think about your future staring now then persuade your family.

Yeah, i am trying to find what is suitable with me. So i thought about a lot of things. I think of doing solat istiqarah. Ask Allah is the best for me. In Shaa Allah

Rasulullah was a businessman. So i thought of taking business management.

I really love writing, a lot! But i think, i take writing as a good hobby.

Now, back about the society. Masya Allah..

I watched YouTube videos about girls nowadays. Nauzubillah..

Well, it is better for you guys to watch it yourself. Search for ftnfdzdl.

I know that i am also in the process of hijjrah. It is not easy to hijjrah. In Shaa Allah

Mujahadah itu pahit kerana syurga itu manis.


As for tomorrow is Friday, follow the Friday's Sunnah. Google up, Jummah's virtues and sunnah. In Shaa Allah

I think that's all i want to share for tonight. If there any mistake i do, i apologize and please forgive me.