So, after what happen. I mean a day after that, someone appear in my life and bring such a bright sunlight! He he such a caring person and he is just so perfect for me. I really enjoy being his friend. He never get bored talking with me, i think. And i hope things will always be like this between up. Being a close friend. More than friend? I am not ready and it take time.

He had been such a supporting person. He ask me to focus on my studies and one day Allah will show me the right guy. That is the first time a guy talk to me like that. I mean, nobody said like that except for my girlfriendz! He was so loyal in listening about. I am not a really interesting person. He said that im funny. *smiling

Alhamdulillah Allah send him to be my friend. We just met once last year. And he is looking forward in looking down to me. I mean, he is much taller than me. He want to meet me. For me its fine. He also told me to be myself. Being myself!! No guys ever told me to do that. They usually said im an annoying person and like to judge me A LOT!

He is the reason i start to like quotes. Now i understand why he enjoy reading quotes. It said about life and really inspiring.

I think, starting from now. I want to change. I mean, about life. I want to enjoy living in Allah's earth while i can and always grateful of all Allah give. I want to life a happy life but always remember that i have responsible to Allah. I want to do everything because of Him. He create us so we must loyal to our creator and never forgot who is the reason we are Muslims. Its Rasulullah.

I want to always remind every Muslim to never give up and always pray in your life. Life is never easy but the more challenge you got, the more Allah loves you.

Allah never judge a person by its look but by its Iman and heart. Do everything because of Him. Find reason to do things because of Him. Don't find reason to blame on Him.

Remember, Rasulullah had been through so many challenges and yet he still never give and he always asked Allah for help. Allah loves him so much even what ever he want Allah will fulfill his prayers. He can be a rich man because he was a Khalifah (like prime minister), a rural of Madinah but insert of being rich, he is more comfortable being poor or 'zuhud'. Never boast. If we want an idol, he is the best idol. What ever we want to do, we can follow his step. Follow the Sunnah. You get Pahala and you get great health! He do things for reason. Even you can find the specific reason or effect to us. Believe me, its positive reaction.

So, i hope waht i write will inspire you guys. Thats all from me, thank you and Assalamualaikum~

I don't know what is wrong with me and what is dancing in my head. What i feel is empty and sadness. I am so sick and tired of being sad. I want to step in the sunlight. I just want to be warm not cold. I want my heart fill with happiness not sorrow.

Things just got messier when i saw something that made me, for sure sad. I mean, watching someone that you really like is happy with someone else while you are floating in the darkness trying to find a drop of light. How pathetic i am.

It will take a long time to get over something that you dream of. Or a person you loved. Love? So stupid of being in love with someone that never love or care about you. That already show how desperate i am towards him. And yet, i still agreed to be his friend. Just because he said i am the person that really2 care about him. Of course i care about you because you are my best friend and you give me hope. Fake hope!

I had been by your side since your first girl friend but yet, you still choose her insert of me? Am i blind or are you blind? I thought that you had change but you are just the same person. You will keep on loving those who you know will brake your heart. I am here standing and waiting. I don't ask for second chance, i just ask the first chance to praise you and really take care of your heart. But you end up loving someone that know you for months while i know you for 2 years.

Why i still become your friend? Because i know one day when you broke your heart you might need a shoulder to lean. I will give you my shoulder but not my love. I don't know if im being the bad person or what. But i dream one day when you realize that you had give up the most precious girl you ever know, i will say to you, in your face man! Not to be rude but i think that sentence really suits you.

Remember that you said we just better off as friend until death? I don't want friend until death but i want someone until Jannah!

I don't need 'i love you' as the symbol. I just need 'i will guide you as your husband and be your Imam'.

Maybe im not always right, so correct me.

Maybe im not perfect but that's who i am.

Maybe you are not the right guy but i will find one in the future.

Maybe i always make mistake, because im a human being.

Maybe i am not a religious girl but im trying to be better.

Together support me and other member of #TeamHijrah

So After everything that i had been going on lately make me realize. Realize that something brighter is waiting for me in the future. *switch off I Wish and turn into GG songs

The one of song that make me feel like jumping around and paint a smile on my face.

Lately many sad things occur but does not mean i must always be in the dark. I must wake up from my nightmare and start to step on the bright side.

Life must always happy! All dark stuff happen for lesson and have reason behind it.Allah already plan perfect things for us. Allah always test us because He loves us.

When i face any trouble, i will pray harder. I said, are You giving this as test because You love me or because i had done a huge sin?

Everyday i said to myself to never forever forget Allah. He is our creator.




I am in process in fixing myself. As human we must always try to change into a better person or into more better person. But we can never be the best because the only human with the best attitude is Rasulullah.




I am not perfect. One more thing i always remind myself. Always sincere in doing things. Let everything we do only for Allah not for compliment or what ever. Let it be clean and clear so that Allah love it.

I know that not everyone in this world is Muslim but I hope what i write today can give some inspiration to all my dear readers.

Thats all. Assalamualaikum, kalau jawab sayang, x jawab dosa.

(special for Malaysians, AKA Maria Elena's Fans)