Assalamualaikum~

I just came back from an exchange student trip yesterday.. It was 12 hours of flight to Singapore and transit for 3 hour before departure to Malaysia. I arrived about 2.30pm in Malaysia. My family already waited for me. It was a great trip!

I learned a lot and i will never forget all the days and the lovely moment at Ramsgate. BTW, Ramsgate is actually a place nearby the border between England and France. We can see France on the way walked to school.

I was surrounded by rich people. I felt so humble until i stayed away from them. I got 2 new friends. I mean close friends. Its Huda and Lyana. Huda is the shy person while Lyana is so opposite of Huda.

I made other friends too but we didn't talked a lot. At least we smiled at each other.

BTW, the first day we walked around Ramsgate town and complete a mission. Taking pictures and ask people about England. I ran a lot to get the answers. And i saw a lot of hot guys, we Malaysian said, "panas" or "hangus" when we saw any cute guys. LOL

Then we had dinner with our foster family. This is my foster family:



The father cook while the mum works. Hurm, but he is the best cooker! We ate rich, pasta and many western dishes but most of it contain vegetables. Cause i can't eat meat there. They are not properly slaughter.

The nect day we went to the Dover Castle and learn about it. It was raining heavily and i get wet but lucky my coat and head were water resister.



On saturday we visit London. And shop there. On Sunday we walked inside Oxford and we also entered the Christ Collage to see Harry Pother's dining hall. Its a beautiful city. There are lots of history about that place but i only remember one.

Its about a king that died and have an evil wife. The wife want that kingdom to change their religion but 3 person objected. The queen tortured them then burn while they are still alive. The burning place was not cement.



Then we walked through Oxford street. I bough some souvenirs.

Monday school as usual but we went Westwood for shopping. It was a developing shopping centre. Most of the shops in Ramsgate move to Westsood. It was 30 minutes drive from Ramsgate. There was the biggest Primark in Southern Europe. We almost left a girl behind. But we didn't.

The next day, after school we went to the Canterbury Cathedral. A little history about it.

The King of Henry the Second and Thomas the church's priest were best friend. But the kind started to jealous because Thomas was gaining more power then him so he asked the knights to killed him and will be rewarded. The church people knew about it and lock the church but Thomas asked them to open it because everyone was free to enter the church. Unwillingly they reopen the church and the knights came and killed him. They killed him while he was kneeling and praying. They cut Thomas's head.

The king felt bad so he walked bare foot from Dover Castle while was about 35 minutes drive from Ramsgate, to the church and asked the church people beat him as the punishment of Thomas's dead. He was beaten about 50 times, i think.

It was names as Canterbury Cathedral because since Thomas's dead, magic things started to happen. One of it, o blind woman can see after she put cloth which had Thomas's blood on her eyes. People started to visit the place.

A place with a cathedral is called as city while without it are towns or villages.

The last day we walked around Ramsgate again. Some of us went to Westwood.

I said, goodbye and have a nice day after stopped by most of the shops.

Then the next day the taxi arrived while i was having my last breakfast with my foster family. We said our last goodbyes and gave last hugs.

12 hours flight back to singapore and about 1 hour flight back to Malaysia with 3 hours transit.

After my family picked me from KLIA, we went to fetch my brothers. We had our dinner at AKEA. Then went back home.

That's was my journey. More updates in Twitter.

This is a book that inspire a lot of people about women rights. How there are a lots of women being treat wrongly and how culture discriminate women's rights. They also have documentary shows about it. I just watched them. In spite other people my age watched the dramas and cartoon and busy being online, i watched a documentary which was after Conan cartoon. I was so inspired. And i felt so lucky to be born in Malaysia and being raise as a Moslem in a proper way. I don't have weird cultures that i must face.

They travel around the world and find for women that had been discriminate and how they actually being torture and they show how lucky a man is, there. I mean, they are lucky to be a man rather than being a woman.

This time, they went to Somalia and they find out that most women died because of giving birth. They died because of sickness that have solutions. But its just too late to save them. What makes it more tragic, they have a disgusting culture. Girl age around 8-9 must be uncircumcised. I don't see the process but i know its terrible. They used something like torn of something to sew it back. But that thing makes it hard for someone to give birth and really hurts when they wanna pee. They let the girl lay down for a week without giving them food after that process. So they wouldn't defecate. They only have a small hole. That's what they said but i don't know how small it is and i don't want to know. It hurts and the girls screaming! Its terrifying to hear about it. I think i will cry if i watch it. They will ask the men to go to town.So they don't hear the screaming.

They will get marry in a very young age. Btw, the live inside tent. Something like this:



But they have more cloth to cover it. But the structure is still the same. Can you imagine it? They said, most of them give birth at home. Inside that kinda place. Without hygiene care and give birth by their grandmothers or their mum. Seriously! The resident said, if you are strong you give birth at home if you are not strong then you go to the hospital. I'm like, dude its not about the strong thingy but its about your life and how you are taking care of your baby.

Then, there is a woman who built a hospital to take care of the pregnant women. She built it herself and people who heard about it helped her. They gave her things to complete her building. She used all of her money to built that building. She was someone important in PBB but she turn herself into an old woman who retire and used her stuff like jewelries and microwave and etc to get money and turn that dump place to a hospital. She said that not me.



http://www.crowdrise.com/TeamFriendsofEdnas

The one wearing green. Her name is Edna. She also held a program where she trained girls from all over somalia about basic of being a nurse and how to be a proper midwife for 18 weeks or month im not sure then they send them back to contribute to their own place. She is also the first woman that graduate in Somalia from UK after 6 years of studies.

The one that started this Half the sky is a man name Nicholas Kristof. He is the international reporter. He wrote books and write of the newspaper. He stand for some women issues and he is strict about it.

Guys are not all evil. Different people have different mission in life.



I also watched about how Indian girls must be a prostitute. BTW, in every program, they will invite an artist to witness everything. This time they invite America the ugly betty series actress.

They said that the children of the women actually in the room where their mothers entertains the customer. They sleep under the bed of the mothers. You know what i mean. Masya Allah...

Its too painful to tell about it. You guys can read more detail in:

http://www.halftheskymovement.org/issues/maternal-mortality

http://www.halftheskymovement.org/issues/forced-prostitution

You can find Edna here:

http://www.ednahospital.org/

Read about it and be inspire. As a girl that will grow up and a woman, i hope i will grow up as someone that will help the society... Insha Allah.

Last night i cried so much until my eyes looks like panda the next day. Nyna and Larry asked about it but i just keep quiet and shut up. Then Peter come ... Please give me strength ..
"Why you stop answering my text?"
"..."
"Hey, what's wrong?"
"I need to go to class."
"But the bell not yet ring."
"I just must go."

I walk away. And my tears fall out. I never feel pain like this. Why must Peter?

This time i pull 100% focus in class. I am too tired to be bother. I start to eat alone during recess but I already explain to Nyna and Larry that i need to be alone and its not because of them. I just need some space.

I saw Peter walked towards me during recess. I just ran to the toilet and left all of my stuffs. I waited and cried in the toilet. As i walked out, he grabbed me.
"Talk to me. Why are you acting like this? You look like you just finish cry."
"I don't wanna talk. Let. Me. Go."
He let off his hands.
"Just tell me what bothers you until you never wanna look at me."
"Last night i received a phone call from Dylan. I never gave him my number but he said you gave it to him."
"Oh ... that.."
"So, its true you gave it? I knew it. I was so stupid to trust you. Now i am broken."

I just walk away.

I walk back home alone. Suddenly i bump into Dylan. He look up and see its me. He give me a cute smile and say:
"Hey, i know its you last night."
"Oh, yeah? What? You got the wrong person."
I try to walk away but he stop me with his hands.

"Just admit it. I know it was you."
"So what? How can you get my number?"
"From Peter."
"Peter who?"
"Your new boyfriend."
"Oh that Peter. He is not my boyfriend. Can you move aside cause i really need to go. I will be late and my mum will be furious about it."
"But your mum in not home am i right? Your dad coming back late so what is actually you are late for? Your date with the Chinese guy?"
"How do you know about my parents? Let me guess, Peter AGAIN? Well, yeah i have a date with him. Can you excuse me?"
I push his hands and walk away. He run and walk beside me.
"I know everything about you and Peter and all about your life! You cannot run from me."
"What is wrong with you? How do you know everything?"
He grab my hands and start to pull me into back of the buildings.
"What are you trying to do?! Help! Help!"
He puts his one of his hand to my mouth and try to silent me.
"Shut up! Or it will get worst..Shush..You know, since the first time i saw you. I was addicted to you. I just need to taste you. I know you never wanna be my girlfriend cause i already have one."
He is just too strong and i start to cry. I pray, asking Allah for help. Then i manage to bite his hand and i run into the street. He shout and chase me.

I just keep on running. Then i see a car stop just in front of me. The person inside open the window shade and i see ... PETER.

"Get inside! Now!"

I get inside. Both of us keep silent for about 5 minutes. Then Peter crack it out.

"I'm sorry about Peter. Actually he is my cousin. I stay with him and his family because my family is not in England because of business stuff. I got this car because he lives in other town. At first he asked me your number because he said he wanted to apologize something about the riding stuff. So i gave it to him because he also never act this psycho before. I never thought he would read my texts with you as i slept. I am so sorry. I never mean to hurt your feelings. I never know that you are this sensitive. I will be careful next time. And next time, can we talk first before you get mad or anything. I never ever want to lose you again. Even it had been just hours, i cannot concentrate during classes."

It takes sometime before i response. Well,i talk as we reach my house.

" I am sorry for the misunderstanding. I should ask you nicely next time..."

"Are you ok to be home alone?"
"Well, can you send me to my father's clinic?"
"Sure. Just show me the ways."

Yeah he send me there. And i introduce Peter to my dad. He seems surprise but my dad is nice to him. I am glad about it.

The next day, after school, Peter come with Dylan. I am with Nyna and Larry.

"Don't be scared Serena... I come here to actually really want to say how sorry i am. I never act like that before."
"Just stay away from me. I never want to see you again. I accept your apologize. Now you can go."

I walk away with my friends. I can see how sad and sorry Dylan was but i was so trauma about what happen yesterday.

My relationship with Peter gets better. Larry and Nyna are more close to me like before. Since that day, i never saw Dylan again. Ismael and me are like brother and sister.

Peter and my friends convert Islam after high school graduation. Their family seems fine with their decision.

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Assalamualaykum everyone~ This is the last episode about their teenage life. I will continue one episode about being adult and their marriage. I will tell you some conflicts happen. I hope everyone stay tuned and thank you so much for reading my blog. I am sorry for the spelling and the grammar errors. You guys can follow me in twitter. That's all for tonight! Assalamualaykum~

Assalamualaykum.. I am sorry for no updates about The Drama. Lately i have no idea about the plot of the story. And i am also stuck with some conflict of life. Its like i am actually writing a new chapter of my life.

After yesterday, i feel so much better and i am feeling great! Today i chat with some old pals and they are as friendly as i know. And that brings me back to my old memories.

I remember how naughty i was back in primary school. How great i am studying in one gender school. Living harmony life without boys being so busybody. Back there, i was the one being so busybody. Remain me of the old me. Remain me of life without pain. Without friends stabbing me. Well, there was someone stabbed me before. Remain how relax and how i enjoy every moment of school. Makes me wish if i could invent a time travel machine and live in that moment. But..we --->




We just have to put fate to the future. Time wait for no men. The world will never stop turning means life will not stop until we die. We have to live it. A wise man once said, if there are pins and needles along the path of your life, don't step on it but collect them because they are design to make your stronger and wiser. Just hold on the word. Always remember Allah.



Stay strong! Its not an option but its a must.




Just walk people~



When i am feeling down, i motivate myself. I want to inspire you guys too. Just never give up.



If that is the only way we can be better, so let it be pain! It teach us what life means. How much we must appreciate someone. Teach us so many things without we notice it! Live to be inspire and to inspire. Never let your life waste in vain.

That's all for tonight~ Assalamualaykum~

Assalamualaykum.. I am back from school! But i am carrying a depressing feelings with me. Things gone back today. I cried because on 'namjal' aka boy. I feel like being stab by my own friend. This feelings makes me wanna blame the fate and what Allah plan for me but i try my best to accept everything and move on. Its for the best!






The story started a few months ago. I like this guy and we were kinda close. I called him Mr K. For me, we were fine but i realize that he was starting to get back with his ex. I am sad but i hid it. After awhile, my friend told me that actually he didn't like me and he said i am irritating to him. I was shock and i said to my friend to tell him how sorry i am to irritate him so much. He apologize and i accept it.

After awhile, things back to normal. He and I are friends but not too close but after awhile we start to be close. And a few days later i saw he being too close with my best friend, Miss M. I always asked if they are together but both of them deny it. So, i think there is hope for me to be with Mr K. Then, rumors and how they act when they are together makes me feel more suspend about them. But i ignore that and put fate on my hopes.

It really breaks me and tear me up today to see them actually being together. Miss M wear a bracelet with his name on it. Today only she start to wear it so i take it as they are official. How sweet both of them walk together. I cried.

She realize that i start to like him in the first place cause i always talked about him. He must realize that i start to like him because i always be so nice and always text and called him. Why both of them do this to me?

They used to be my friends. They used to be someone i always respect. They used to be people who honest with me. Guess i am wrong. Guess that i should just step back and let them enjoy their happiness.

If they admit their feelings earlier, i would be like this but i will respect their relationship and give them spaces. I am not someone who take other people's crush. I would be putting any fate in any of my hopes with him.



I feel like being cheat and being lie in my own face.

Miss M always try to escape form me because i will always be asking about Mr K. Why she never want to be honest with me? Being honest will makes me sad first but i will understand. Rather than lying to my face. What kind of friend are you???

Mr K swore that both of you have nothing special. He was willing to swear because she said to never tell anything to me. Even her friend said Miss M didn't want him but, look what happen.



Other story, Mr A. He had some misunderstand with me. I tried so hard to make it right but never want to accept it. Since the day of misunderstand, i always panic if he is any near me. I feel so awkward. I tried to talk to him but, he just response unwillingly. I am sad and depress about it.

I got to be his SA for the SA game and he thought that its part of my plan to get his apology. I never planned about it. It was my luck to get him.... Why he is always so negative with me? I never want any of this to happen but that is what Allah wants so, I have no powers against Him. All i can do is try my best to get the word 'its ok' from him.

Sometime i thought to myself, all the boys that i had been nice will never be nice back to me. My ex end up with my best friend. My dear crush is with my other best friend. My best friend that i used to love never want to appreciate me.



I feel useless. I feel like i am not good enough to be love. Maybe being nice is not a good thing. Maybe i should never trust a man. Maybe i should just let the future me gets the right guy.



I pray to Allah, if this is for the best of me, give me the strength to go through it. Show me the advantages. Show me the right way of being in His path. Lock my heart until the right guy come.

I think i should use the word, i am single and unavailable. I am taken my Allah and Rasulullah

Tonight, thats all. Assalamualaykum. Insha Allah i will continue the drama tomorrow.

Its been awhile since the last conversation with Larry alone. He went to my house on the weekend and we talked. Funny cause that day, Peter also came to my house.

In the morning, Larry came by and he brought me my favorite cake. And we talked on the porch.
"Hey, i thought you never want to see me again."
"How can I escape from you?"
"Well, you can by skipping the school or move to another town."
"Hahaha!"
"I miss your laugh.. I miss our conversation."
"But you are with Nyna and i never want to screw your relationship."
"Well, we can at least be friends back. You, me and Nyna."
"I don't know. After everything, its kinda weird being around you guys."
"You are our captain in the team,what is weird about it? And you watch 'How I met your Mother', they still hang up even Barney and Ted fight for Robin. They still find their happiness."
"i don't know what to say. How about Nyna, did she knows you are coming here?"
"We planned this. Nyna was so shy to join. She don't want you to feel awkward."
"She is nice..Larry, i got something to ask."
"Go on. Anything."
"Well, why do you want to be my friend in the first place? We don't even go to any class together."
"By that time, i like you and i just want to be near you."
"Are you still interested in Islam?"
"I am still interested. But i Google most of my doubts. I am too afraid to ask you."
"Is Nyna on board if you embrace Islam?"
"She is because FYI she is learning about it too."
"*tears falling down* i am touched! yeah, i miss you guys. You know how alone i felt and how most of the nights i cry in my prayer. I pray for you guys to come to me if we are suppose to be friends."
"We miss you too. So, tomorrow, lunch together?"
"Sure."

And that's how we become friends back. That afternoon after lunch and Zohor prayer, Peter came. We talked for awhile.
"Hey, are you busy?"
"Hey, no im not. What brings you here?"
"Hurm, i need to say something."
"erm, alright. Go on."
"I...er..I..erm...I...kinda..no. I, Peter, (a long inhale and exhale) like you...*face turn red"
"Hurm..(>///<) *sigh i don't know how to response." "Just take your time to think. I may be a Christian but i am interested in Islam. I am sorry if i ruin your weekend but i can't hold it any more." Then he walked away. I was stunned. It took a lot of prayers for me to calm down and make the right decision. Tomorrow is a big day for me. I already promise Ismael to go to school together. "Serena, is loving a girl is a sin?" "No, liking a person is natural. Allah never get mad about it. It will be a sin if you like that girl because of your desire towards her. If you like someone, pray for it. Pray that she is the one. You don't have to admit your feelings to her." "If i want to be with her and take her as my girlfriend?" "If you want to marry her, its not a problem but be careful. It can be a sin. Everything is up to your purpose and your heart." "Thanks Serena. Mohd and his family are really helpful." "Its my responsible and i am honor to do it." We talked and discuss. By that time, i forgot all of my problem and having a good time. Its like reminding myself what i had forgot and what i should be careful of. I am glad i meet him. As we reach school, i go to my locker and i see Peter is standing and he is staring at me. I say goodbye to Ismael and continue my steps to the locker. I act normal and i ignore Peter. I want to talk about it but i think it is not a suitable time. Then he give me a note saying, if you want to talk, just name the place and time, i will be there. I will not rush you with your answers. Take your time. I can't focus for the whole day. I am being so reckless in my class. I become so dreamy and i don't understand a subject or a word the teachers said. I keep on thinking about Peter. I want to make the best decision. I don't want to regret with my own words and whine up about it after a long time. During lunch, Larry and Nyna realize that i had been dreaming. Nyna pop the silent. "Serena, no offence but you seems like you had a big problem. Mind if you share." "Well, after lunch yesterday, Peter came to my house and he confess his feelings to me. I am stunned and i don't know if i am actually happy about it or empty." "Hurm, that's a tough one. I think, you should be honest to yourself." -L "I know and i am trying too. It's not easy." "Do you like this guy?"-N "Well, kinda. Not so much but his face is really cute and i hate to admit it but he is actually nice." "Hurm, that's hard. But do you want to be his girlfriend?"-N "I hate relationships. I just prefer as a nice friend." "So, i think you got your answer. When are you going to tell him?"-L "Today, after school." "Have you told him about the meeting?"-L "Not yet. But after this is Chemistry class so i will meet him." "Good luck. We got to rush. Sorry. Bye! See you again." -L n N "Thanks. Bye.." So, talking to them makes me realize about what i want and how to tell him about it. I give him the note of the location. I am ready to talk about it. After school... "Hey serena! Sorry for being late." "Its fine." "Before you say anything, i promise that i will not make things between us awkward and i can act like it don't happen if you say no." "It's nice of you to say that. So, as i was saying. i like you as friend. i would love to have anything special with you but i am not ready to be in any relationship now. It is not because you are a Christian or your egos but i think its for the best. Being with me will be a lot challenging that you think. We can't hold hands or kiss or having sex (urgh) or any other couples do. We can date but not at night. We can meet but not in a quiet place.We.." "Serena, stop.. I had done research about a Moslem girl and i know all about it. And i can see hoe nerves you were by the time i confess. I can wait for you. I just want you to know that i like you because of you being yourself. Its up to you about the relationship and stuff like that. If you want me to meet your family, its fine, i will meet them. I will win you from that Asian boy. I will win you because i want someone like you forever by my side." "How can i trust you?" "I keep my words. Its up to you to either trust me or not but i take your words as a green light for me to know you more in a person." "i am speechless." "Let's just go home, ok. Clear your mind. I don't want you to feel like i am a burden. And i don't like to see you being dreamy in your classes. Even its cute." "(>///<)"

He walks me home. We don't talk. For a second, i feel like i can really trust him. I think, i like this guy too but i am too afraid to admit it.

That night, we text and suddenly an unknown number call. I answer it.
"hello, who is this?"
"hello, its dylan."
"Where did you get this number?"
"I got it from a guy name Peter. He simply gave it too me. Who is this?"
"I must go."

That night i cried and i stop replying any Peter's text and he call nut i never answer. How stupid i am for trusting him??

Assalamualaykum..Today i got some update about my life. Tomorrow Insha Allah I will continue with The Drama. So, as i was saying, remember about a boy i told earlier. About my cousin and the weird relationship. Well, after 2 day, he text me saying he miss me and hope i miss him too. He still calling me dear. And i said that, just call me, my name no more dear.

He said that he want things as it use to be and he will wait until i am ready. I said that i need to think. He just give like, some minutes to think. He rush me with my answer. Then i said i can't be with him because it will cost my freedom. But he still want me, and he asked why it cost my freedom? i said, commitment. He said i don't have to give any commitment but just spend time talking to him.

Then he asked me is i still like him. It took a long time for me to answer that question but i end up saying no. Being with him is so confusing! For now, my heart is empty and i don't have anyone to fill on. I don't want too. I just wanna be free and like who ever i want or when ever i want. If i agree being with him, i am scare if i am the one ending the relationship. I am scare if i get bored with him.

Its better for him to hurt now then after years or months with me.

And he is the one ending up in the first place, why i must act like nothing happen and be like how it used to be? I wanted that before but he rush me into a serious relationship. Now he want things as it use to be. I did said that we are only friendly cousin. Nothing special. I can't handle any more relationship stuff. I am sick and tired of it!

Only Allah and Rasulullah and my family and friends deserve my love.

I care about him but that does not mean i want to be with him. We are too young to think about having a life together in the future.

The moral of the story, be careful with any guy that you have feelings. Maybe you like them now but that does not mean you love them. Act honest and be honest. For the sake of your future!

For that, Assalamualaykum.

Larry

Here there! I'm Larry. I am with Nyna now. The story start since the day i knew Nyna.

I liked Serena before i met her. Serena was so kind and she always help me with my home works and she was even nice with my family. My family like her too. Things went so well between us. When she cried, i am always by her side trying to tell her that everything was fine. I knew her since the start of high school. I always saw her with someone but she never introduce that girl to me.

The first time I saw her, I felt weird she wearing the scarf around and she wore loose clothes and she was not wearing any heels. I didn't smell any perfume went she walked by. She was so different. That made me wanna talked to her. She always ate her lunch alone under the tree. I couldn't lie that makes me starting to like her in the first place.

One day, I man up and walked towards her.I waited until she looked up. She smile. She said, Hey there. I was stunned. Then she stand up and she walked away with a smile. Now I remember how warm her smile and how my heart beats so fast as I was near her. That made me so interest in knowing about Islam. I asked her a lot about it. That makes us became closer. We hang out together a lot. Just us. Her family were fantastic. But we were not allow to be together in the room or close the door. She already told me why. I understood it.

I tried to tell her my feelings but she never get it. I mean, I gave her chocolate in love shape. I spent time with her. She just never understand. But in person, I never admit it to her. When she asked me about the gifts, I said, that what friends give each other. The next day, she will give me something in return.

Then, she introduce me to Nyna. As my eyes set on hers, I felt something more weird. I was confuse. Then, she started texting me. I thought Serena knew about it. So, I decided to tell to Serena about me Nyna and me. And it was a mistake. As we start to be apart, my feelings towards Nyna grew stronger. We decided to be in am official relationship. My family expect Serena but, they accept Nyna.

Being in the quiz team, is the opportunity for Nyna and me to get along with Serena but she ignore us. Talk to us just if necessary.

Peter always talked to me about Serena. I think he likes her. But I think, i am the reason for Serena staying away from any guy. Except for today, she seems happy with that Asian boy.

NYNA

Being with Larry is one of the most greatest thing that even happen to me. Being a friend with a Moslem is the second thing. She is my only best friend. The person that always patient of my attitude.

I don't have much to tell. We hang out a lot. But she never allowed me to join them.

Meeting Serena for the first time was a tragic but i think everyone knew about it. For me, i take that simple because i am great with animals.

I knew about Larry since before high school. He was the popular kid. Everyone knew him but no one ever told him how popular he was. But in high school, the girls made a secret Larry fan club. I ... was part of it.

But being Serena's friend was not part of the plan. Ok, fine. I took his number from her phone. I could text him before we were introduce but i had no guts.

Seeing him eye-to-eye really made me felt for him. I text him that night. We become closer since then. I knew that Serena had a crush on him i had too. I need to try my luck. But Larry was the one telling me his feelings. We decided to lay low but rumors. It's too late.

I can't lie that i was mad at Serena when she left me. And how stupid i am being mad at her. I just deserve she being mad at me.

I can't deny my feelings towards Larry and i can't him push away. I hope she will meet someone better than Larry. She deserves that.

Peter
I just move to the town because of my dad. He had his business things and what ever. I meet Serena and knew her just because her locker was beside mine. She always bang her locker when i am around. I think she is trying to take my attention. She even grab me once because of lame excuse. But,I like her. My mistake when i thought she had a crush on me in the first place.

I saw Serena when i was sitting outside and i saw she was staring at me. But by that time, its like she was looking here but her mind was slipping away. Like a girl who was imagining her future. She look stunning by that time. Suddenly she wake up from her day dream and she started to cover her face with a Biology book. I could see how shy she was.

As she said she was sorry about banging her locker, i was taken away by her voice. She talked so slow and i knew that is was her true voice, she was not making it to attract me because she never realize i was me. Most other girls will do anything to grab my attention but she never anything to attract my attention. But she got my attention.

I acted cool so she would like me cause i thought most girls like cool kids. I was mistaken about Serena. She never look at me as anyone special.

I was stupid to yell at her. I tried to fix it but my egos keep on ruin every moment.

Being her partner is great because she explain to me everything that i don't understand without me asking for it. She can read my face whenever i am blur. She make me write the reports so i can understand about it. It took some days with that gay guy for me to realize it. Fool me.

I asked to be a part of the quiz team. I am excellent with numbers so, i deserve to be part of it. yeah, its also another way to be more closer to Serena.

She is not hot. She is a shy and confident person. She is smart and friendly. She is kind to everyone but she had a scary eyes. She always be rational in deciding about most things. considerate about me. Even i argue about her attitude and she stop doing what i hate. I like this girl.

I am a stalker. I mean, i stalk her. Only at school. See her routine. At the library, i was actually nerves being alone with her. I try to start a conversation but my mouth just...can't move.

I followed her because i saw the asian boy followed her. I was worried.

I had done some research about Islam. She is wearing Hijjab. I tried to understand but being a Moslem ... really hard. Its complicated and i don't really understand about it.

Should i fight for this girl?

Dylan

I study in an academy in the other town but not too far from Serena's school. Actually, i saw her since her first day in high school. I mean, as i ride my bike to academy, i will always see her. Its hard to get her out from my head. Because she is different from any other girl.

I already had a girl friend and it had been 3 years we were together. She, already knew about Serena. My friend told her that i had been watching Serena since the first time we talked. She was furious and she said that its over between us if i still wanna watch Serena. So, i stop.

There is something about this girl. BUt i am not sue why i am so curious about.

She talked so straight forward. She is never afraid telling other people the truth. I think, she is always serious in any matter she face. So different from my girl friend. She is Miss Independent.

I hope to see her again and apologize about the 'riding' stuff.


Note from writer:

Assalamualaykum, I am sorry for any spelling errors. Sometime i type to fast and too careless to see any mistake. I hope you guys understand the errors. I will try to write story more longer. Or story that involve Serena but the other character thoughts. Farewell for now.

Well, this time i am walking into the theater room for my drama class. I see the Asian boy already save a sit for me. So, i sit beside him. He just stare and start writing something in a piece of paper. Then he pass it to me.
"Assalamualaykum. I am sorry to scare you. I need your guide about being a Moslem. I tried to ask other people but no one cares. I hope you can help me. I am still new and i don't know much. My family just embrace Islam. I hope you are willing to help me. You are the only Moslem in this school."

I am touched!

"Why don't you mention it earlier and act less creepy? Its a pleasure to help you. I think i know someone who might wanna help you and your family. He is a boy at the library. Come with me after school."

"I am sorry about that. Thank you for hearing me out! I will. I will go to your locker after school. Wait me there."

I just reply it with a smile. I am glad that I am not the only Moslem in school any more. I wonder how he embrace Islam but have no one to guide them. I have lots in mind. It makes me less focus in class. But i am lucky that the teachers don't realize that i am dreaming. That reminds me of Peter. I am not finish with him.

After school, i see Peter AND the asian boy. But i ignore Peter.
"Assalamualaykum, hey, what's your name?"
"Waalaykumussalam. Im chee but called me Ismael. Shall we?"
"Hey, you said we are not finish?"-Peter
"Peter, next time. I am too busy to talk to you. Let's go Ismael."

I leave Peter and walk away with Ismael. On the way, we talk.
"How you embrace Islam and have no one to guide."
"Well, we felt in love with Islam as we were at Malaysia. The culture there and the Moslem were so nice to us. We search some about Islam while having the vacation there. We embrace Islam in Malaysia and we had to come back to London because of my dad's emergency work. The uncle that always advise us told me to find someone here to guide us. I just came back last week from Malaysia. I know how to preform my prayer but there are still so much i want to know."
"Oh, i am touch. Its ok. Im here. I'll try my best. Insha Allah."

We talk so much until i didn't realize that we had enter the library. As we enter, i saw the boy that talked to me. He is sitting at the same sit like before.

"Salamualaykum. My name is Serena and this is Ismael."
"Walaykumussalam. I am Mohammad. How can i help you?"
"Well, Ismael just embrace Islam and he need someone to guide him. I am sorry if i am asking too much. I know that we are stranger but i hope you can help him. You are the only Moslem boy that i know now except him."
"No, its ok. You have come to the right person. Actually my dad was the person who is in charge of the mosque and he will be glad to know you Ismael."
"Gee, thanks."

We talk and exchange phone numbers. I can see how happy Ismael is. I am glad that i can help him. My guts told me about Mohammad. May Allah guide us.

In the other hand, Peter was trying to call me since after school. But i never answer any of his call or text. I am too busy about it.

Ring~
Its him again.
"Hello.."
"Hello, are you ok? I've been trying to reach you! Why you never answer?"
"I am busy."
"With that Asian boy?"
"Its non of your business. And what is wrong with you? If you call me just to lecture me, forget it. I need to rest. Bye!"
"Wait.."

But i hang up. What is wrong with him?

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Note from the writer:

Assalamualaykum~ Sorry for the late continue. I hope everyone follow each chapter. This time is short because i am planning to continue a special chapter about what the other character say since the start of drama. So, i hope everyone wait for it. Thank you for reading.

Thats all for now. Wassalam~