Now i realize how much my ex hate me. He called me something that i am not sure what it is.

He is my classmate, and my friend K, start conversation in our class's chat box. My ex start his annoying and girlish attitude. All of us really hate it. Then i told him what is right. He end up telling me"

"aku tau la ko berani maco bukan cam pempuan lai tetapi cam t****i"

english: i know that u are brave to act macho not like another girl but it's like t****i


i am do damn shock! i am just telling him the right thing. Why is he being to girly? Act like a girl. I really hate people giving me names that have negative elements. I don't know what is his problem.

When we were together, i asked him why he love me, he said because im different and he always be a patient guy. He always listen to me >advise< and he used to be the shy boy. That was one of the reason i liked him. But he started to change from day to day.

I am the one that always try to keep our relationship on. I am the one always be patient on how he act towards me. But at last, you were the one throwing me away. You never felt grateful having me as your girl friend? I know that i am not a cute girl. Even my friends says that i look mature not cute.

You also said that you felt in love with me in first sight.

You were the reasons my results falling down. You were also the most biggest mistake i had ever made. Being with you was such a waste of time.

But thanks to you, now i am much more stronger! I move on. I act like we never had anything. I take you as my classmate. I talk to you nicely like a friend and i never want to remind you about the past. But you...you never understand!

You said to me like that. You think i take it as a joke, you are so damn wrong. i don't take it for granted! I will always remember this day that you told me about your true perception towards me.

I will try to change myself. Thanks for you 'words'. I appreciate you generosity last time.

For your information, i already found someone that totally understand me! It is some Allah give as a best friend which i hope one day he can be mu future husband or my future husband is like him. I hope you pray for my happiness.

So, i just watch a video in youtube about a student asking a woman (someone that give speech) in an occasion. That student was giving new points and asking what she really want to know. She did not even finish talking but that woman cut off her speech and talks about rights and not answering the questions properly.

Talking a microphone from someone who was talking showed how we were being disrespect to that person. Not answering the questions properly showed how least our knowledge.

In that video we can see how Malaysians are so small. I mean, the adults cannot accept a young student questioning something they cannot answer. We as human have different thoughts and different level of knowledge. To gain new knowledge we must share and listen to what other person ask. If we cannot answer it, tell them what we could and how must information that we know about that stuff.

Even Albert Einstein had been kicked out from his school because he questions his teacher and his teacher scold him.(what i read last time, if im mistaken, forgive me) I just don't get it.. People said, if you don't understand, ask! But when we ask, people scold!

Why they scold? Because they are someone that have more knowledge and have higher degree and cannot accept something that may challenge their knowledge. They know that actually what they do is wrong but they act like they know everything by style and the way they talk confidently!

Its the fact that is important not style! Before you think of embarrassing other person or yourself by the way you act, think carefully! You will create a new issue.

What actually im trying to say, respect people because he or she is a person. LISTEN the question FULL then you answer with rationally! If you cannot answer, say what ever that you know.

For me, we need to compare with other country to learn new things from them. If you are someone that is learning to cook, will you learn from a chef or just someone who is also learning too?