Now i realize

Now i realize how much my ex hate me. He called me something that i am not sure what it is.

He is my classmate, and my friend K, start conversation in our class's chat box. My ex start his annoying and girlish attitude. All of us really hate it. Then i told him what is right. He end up telling me"

"aku tau la ko berani maco bukan cam pempuan lai tetapi cam t****i"

english: i know that u are brave to act macho not like another girl but it's like t****i


i am do damn shock! i am just telling him the right thing. Why is he being to girly? Act like a girl. I really hate people giving me names that have negative elements. I don't know what is his problem.

When we were together, i asked him why he love me, he said because im different and he always be a patient guy. He always listen to me >advise< and he used to be the shy boy. That was one of the reason i liked him. But he started to change from day to day.

I am the one that always try to keep our relationship on. I am the one always be patient on how he act towards me. But at last, you were the one throwing me away. You never felt grateful having me as your girl friend? I know that i am not a cute girl. Even my friends says that i look mature not cute.

You also said that you felt in love with me in first sight.

You were the reasons my results falling down. You were also the most biggest mistake i had ever made. Being with you was such a waste of time.

But thanks to you, now i am much more stronger! I move on. I act like we never had anything. I take you as my classmate. I talk to you nicely like a friend and i never want to remind you about the past. But you...you never understand!

You said to me like that. You think i take it as a joke, you are so damn wrong. i don't take it for granted! I will always remember this day that you told me about your true perception towards me.

I will try to change myself. Thanks for you 'words'. I appreciate you generosity last time.

For your information, i already found someone that totally understand me! It is some Allah give as a best friend which i hope one day he can be mu future husband or my future husband is like him. I hope you pray for my happiness.