I woke up to the ray of sunshine that creeps through the curtain. I saw Sebastian sleeping facing me just like how I placed him last night. Tiny snores linger as he breathes. With a heavy heart, I rose from the bed and brush my teeth. 

Tiptoed slowly back into the room to see if Sebastian has woke up, he is still in deep sleep - that's what I thought- As I was about to turn my body away, in a flash, I fall back into bed. Sebastian pulls me by the waist while his eyes are still shut. In slow motion, he peaks through his left eye.

"Where's my good morning kiss?" 

"Your breaths stinks! I'm not kissing those." I pinched my nose and rolled my eyes. 

"I can't move. Will you brush my teeth for me?" He whines like a baby.

"I'll call the maid to do it for you." As I was about to move to the button, he grabs my elbow while his other hand reach for my wrist turns my upper torso closer to him. 

"Stay. Let's just stay here for awhile." He pulls my head to his chest, I could hear his heart pounding a rhythm against his ribcage. 

I could feel him exhale between the string of my hair, he brush my back gently. 

"Your hair smells nice, I could breathe in this all day."

Glad that my face is buried into his chest, he can't see how I'm smiling like an idiot underneath. 

Still curling in his embrace, I tilt my head to peep his lazy eyes that have been staring at me the whole time. 

"Let's have breakfast. Our first meal as a couple." I try to tone down the excitement in my voice.

He smiles.

"I could eat you for breakfast." Those dark eyes beam complements the devilish grinning. 

"Not today."

I push him aside and walk away. 

= Dining room =

There's no food prepared. I'm a bit confused.

"The maids usually don't prepare breakfast if our parents are not home. We can ask them to make something or just order delivery, anything is fine by me." Sebastian explains as he rubs his right eye. 

"I can make some pancakes. Just show me where's the kitchen." I start to look around, march away to other parts of the house. This gigantic mansion that I could easily get lost. 

"Hey, we can ask them to cook. You don't have to bother about it. Ina cooks are amazing!"

"Ina?" 

"It means mother, she's the oldest maid here. She practically raises me ..." There's sadness beneath his voice. I get it.

"I grew up alone too. My parents move a lot so I don't really have friends. My mom tried to get pregnant again but she lost two stillborn babies.. It took a toll on her mental health so she decided to stop and I don't blame her for it. Where ever we settle down, I would spend the most time in the kitchen, I learn cooking for the chefs or whoever we hired as a helper in the house. No matter where I go, at least I can make home-cook meals." I lay my eyes on the feet because I know it sounds stupid, I don't want to see him making fun of me.

Instead, he cupped my cheeks and press his forehead on mine as he whispers," That's very beautiful."

My face overheated, he chuckles as he saw it. 

= Kitchen =

"My child, what are you doing? I can cook for you. Anything you craves dear?" Ina appears from the backdoor.

"Aunty-"

"Just call me Ina ."

"Ina, I want to make some pancakes for Sebastian. It's been awhile since I cook in the kitchen. Take out foods are boring, I miss cooking for myself. Can you, assist me?" Ina held my hands, "Of course dear, any time." Her motherly gesture with sprinkles of loveliness in her tone touched my soul. I feel warm just by standing in the same room as her. 

I mixed the ingredients, heat up the pan. I was really in the zone, I didn't realize Sebastian observing each move I made. He looks astonished by a simple meal I prepared.

"You should learn cooking sometime, it really helps to distract yourself." That made him awake from his daydreaming. 

"I don't trust myself around a fire or any other kind of heat, I get all sweaty and start-

"He could barely crack an egg," Ina says sarcastically before both of us explode in laughter.

"Ina!" 

--- meal is ready ---

"Dig in! I'm starving!"

"Wow, it's good!"

"It's just pancake, I bet other girls you dated cook better meals for you."

"I have girls cooking for me but never dated any of them," he wicks at Ina and he stares at her with the corner of his eyes. 

"No one you dated had cooked for you before?" Now he sounds ridiculous I bet he's just trying to be modest. 

"Ask Ina if you don't trust me," he says with his mouth full of pancakes with strawberries. 

"Sebastian never let any girls stay until breakfast, they usually left before the sun rises. (Sebastian coughs, he choked some of the pancakes) Excepts the last ones, Leela? I never saw her eating. She's always on diet," her eyes widen as if she saw a ghost. Her expression turn bitters as she mentioned Layla.

"I told Sebastian that he should find good girls. The ones that care about him." Ina continues as her hand smacks the back of his head. 

"Ina! I'm eating. I just choked-

"You'll live." 

"Layla cares about me." Sebastian tries to defend his taste on women. Even though he knew what Ina said is true, each word. 

"You young people use this word often, 'my ass' (?). "

"Ina! That's not appropriate. "

"Let the woman preach." I just love juicy stories.

"Layla always comes after school with her friends. She always boss around the house like she owns the house." Sebastian froze as he listens to Ina.

"She even disrespects us.. She would ask Steve to pick up her dry cleanings, she asked Melati (I assume another maid in the house) to walk her puppy each time she's here with her puppy and always nags me about my cooking."

"Ina, why you never told any of these before? I could do something about it." There's guilty in his tone. 

"Why should we? It's our job. I also don't want it to become an issue. She's our guest. We treat the guests of this house with honor.

I would love to stay but I need to do the laundry, miss-

"Beth ;)"

"Such a lovely name. Beth, I wash your dress. Don't worry I know it's silk so I sent it to the dry cleaning while you were sleeping. I saw Sebastian was at the pool house so I decided to pick up his laundry, I'm sorry if I interrupted your sleep."

"It's fine, no worries."

Ina left us alone. Sebastian left his food untouched since Ina told him bout Layla. 

"Hey, finish it up. You don't wanna waste good food." I try to ease the tense of the atmosphere. 

"Oh, yeah. Sorry.." He looks withdrawn and pensive, hardly speaking for the next hour. He is probably still surprised. For Sebastian, the maids and driver are more than just helpers, they are his real family. The ones that made him feel at home. The ones that love him for who he is without him needing to prove anything.

"Oh btw, can you call a car for me? I need to go back. I got some assignments to do this weekend." I blurted out something just to snap him out of his deep thought. 

"Steve can send you. Besides, I'm coming with you! How about you let me stay in your room this weekend?" Sebastian begins to smile the moment he suggests we spend the weekend together in my tiny room. To be fair, my room is actually a bit bigger than his room because my parents paid extra money to put more unnecessary closets that filled with clothes I barely wear. 

"I don't think that's a good idea. I'll be busy with work and you will be left in boredom." I insisted to deny his request.

"Or, you stay here. We can go out, I'll buy you the clothes you need." 

"How about, I go back to school and you stay here. We spend the weekend just like how we used to do before we met each other."

"Are you pushing me away? Is that what you want?" I can hear a string of disappointment in his annoyingly attractive voice. 

"No, I just.. If you come with you, you need to sleep on the sofa. You're lucky I have a sofa bed for you to crash on it. Still, you'll be bored. I don't have any tv or those fancy pinball machines in my room."

"I'm fine with sleeping on the sofabed. I want to get to know you. We're seeing each other-

"IN S.E.C.R.E.T. remember?"

"Oh shoot! Why did I agree to that before.." He swings his palm right onto his forehead. 

"I can't let people see you with me, at least not in school."

"Then, stay. Let me get to know you. Let's spend time together like a couple. Let's watch a movie, eat dinner, have a nice long walk by the beach, let's start doing things together." He reaches for my empty palm and laces his fingers together. Those dark eyes filled with loneliness stare directly into my pupils as if I could illuminate his world. 

"I'M A VIRGIN!" The look he gave me made me say it. 

"Oh.. I think you told me that before." 

"I did but I'm not sure if you remember it. (I took a long pause) Sebastian, I have a feeling that you want me so bad last night but when I pushed you away, you felt like I PUSH YOU AWAY literally. I'm sorry about that. The truth is, I'm not ready to do 'it'. I want you too, my lady part certainly agrees as I know how 'she' reacts each time you kissed me. Just, not now. 

If we are spending the weekend together, you need to obey the limitations." 

"I'm on board. I want you to feel safe with me." Intermediately he places kisses on my knuckles. 

"Ok, I'll stay." 

My hands clutch at his color shirt, bringing him closer. I press my lips against his. The kiss felt right and sweet like the maple syrup he had with his pancakes. 

I spend the weekend with him. I did my assignments while he's playing on his phone. I managed to force him to do some studying with me as we BOTH will have a quiz on Monday for Biology. We slept in the same bed without being naked or dry humping each other. 

The relationship continues as a secret. Oh, we made Oliver promise to keep the secret as well. Surprisingly, he came on board without asking any questions.

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This chapter is a bit boring as it is filled with talking and less intimate actions. I think we need a break from anything intimate. I'll bring some actions in the next chapter! Thanks for reading! 

I'm taking a bit of a break from my fanfic. Even the whole day, I'm distracting myself from thinking much about those young boys.

Let's get back to this 'segment'. I had encounter some people who tend to bring me down and some of them did. If you scroll down, a few years ago I had come clean about how I was bullied in school. I didn't realize those actions were 'bully' until I reach, maybe 20. I told my close friends about how I was treated and how it affect me. 

Thinking back, some seniors did pretty shitty things too. 

Well, let's focus on the ones that actually AFFECT my future. At least, what I thought would be the future. 

Back in 2012, I wanted to be the school team player but I was unsure what sport I want. Eventually, I became a track runner for a few events but never train properly. It was just for regional level. I tried 'bola jaring' before this but there were tons of better players. Not to mention how the couch discourage me whenever I played. I saw disappointment on her face, crystal clear. Some of my friends wouldn't agree but they were better than me of course they were treated better. It's fine tho. I totally understand. 

Then, I saw my seniors playing basketball. I thought to myself, wow, girls playing basketball?? That's cool! So I started to play, for fun during riadah. One day they have selections for the junior team, I gave my all and I was picked into the team. I practise and train like everyone else. When my seniors saw my improvement, I felt great so I play more. 

My teacher who was in charge of handling our team also recognize me. He got us a few gigs to play friendly with different schools. One of the schools was in Penang, so we went there. During our time there, my friends and I did something wrong. Due to tradition, 'SENIORITY' plays a major role. We didn't take the balls after practise or friendly, I don't remember the exact thing, back to our dormitory. It causes my seniors to feel like we had disrespected them because they were the ones who needed to carry it back. 

Hence, the tension began. 

We (juniors) must greet our seniors (every freaking seniors) whenever we saw them, 'assalamualaykum kak sekian or at least assalamualaykum kak' while nod our head out of 'respect'. When we were in Penang, there were just us, as the team so I didn't greet them properly so I offended them MORE. 

When we got back to school, we (juniors) were scolded due to how we behave. How we 'disrespected' them. I was barely 14 so I got scared. The captain of the team and only like 2 others if not mistaken that scolded us. I became demotivated and it affected how I played. I was too scared I made tons of mistake....

Before HKSBP Utara 2012 was held, they made the last selection of teammates. The ones that will represent the school. I was chosen because my teacher had sympathy on me. I told him I tried netball but I was not selected due to high competition which lead to me joining basketball practises. There were only 3 juniors chosen (spoiler; those other 2 were the one bullied me fast forward in our senior years). Also, both of them cracked their legs from playing basketball. 

I tried to decrease the tension by behaving better but I kinda suck in playing as everything I did just went south. I could do better when I practise alone but totally suck whenever we play in the team. It was too late, my senior already made up her mind to hate me. 

During HKSBP Utara, juniors were the reserve players (duhh), we only got to enter the court last minutes. My senior and teacher said,"You will have more time playing in the coming years." (another spoiler alert; I didn't have the chance)

I had my first true devastating break up during the event. Shitty izzul decided that it's the best thing to do while I'm in one of the important events in my life. It was a few days before my birthday, btw. 

I spent most of the time on the side of the court. 

At least I did played for 3-on-3 Gatorade event that they held each year. Of course I lost miserably due to my shitty skills. I admit that I didn't play that well but so did a few others. At least they were not humiliated. 

I had been humiliated and had self-doubt growing up, this event of my life is the highlight of it. 

Honestly, I don't understand how some of my friends see me as a confident person. I guess I am very skilled in hiding my pain away. I swallow my pride and walk the earth like I had never heard any bad news.

Back to the story.

We won the 2nd place so we got the chance to go to the national level. Represent SBP Utara as the finalist. I was excited and pumped! I had always wanted to go to the national levels and meet up with more people. Of course I had the dream to be one of the senior players someday. I thought I will improve as I go. 

I didn't.

As we came back from the school holiday (the event was held in our school and during break time.), I heard that my back-then friends (other 2 juniors in the same team) heard rumors that the captain didn't want me in the team. The rumors amplify as more people talked about it, I mean, others started to notice it too. We had a break from practicing after the event so I didn't meet any of the seniors. 

While this shitty things were happening, one of my seniors introduce debate to me. Maybe my English teacher.. Well, someone introduce debate to me. I joined for fun. I had always love arguing with people.

One day, it was very clear that the captain didn't want me in the team.

This is what I heard, I still remember, each word;

"I heard the captain told the teacher that she will withdraw from being a captain if I stayed in the team."

It breaks my stupid heart. I fucking admire her as a player, a senior and her rep. 

I don't know if people made some of the shits up to make it sound worst but the point is, I'm out FOR GOOD!

I never step back to the court as a player. I did play again for fun or for representing Theta (rumah sukan). 

Just like that. I was pretty much banned. 

Yall must be thinking, what don't you wait for her to finish school and join again??

I can't. 

Basketball national and debate were held in the same event. I can't do both even if I wanted to. 

She eventually finished school but I was 16, I'm in my senior years. I don't want to be the senior who has skills of beginners. Also, I was humiliated when I quit. I'm not gonna pushed aside my pride for the game. Beside, I am the seniors in my debate team, I trained seniors too. I'm deeply committed to debate. At least they appreciate me. Those debate skills have become handy even up until now.

Debate opened a lot of opportunities for me. I met tons of other people and still connect to some of them until now. I went to various SBPs when not everyone was given that chance. I got offers to join more english related competitions. I gained respect for people as a debater.

Without that shitty experience, I might miss out on a lot of other things. I'm grateful but..

It doesn't change the fact I was banished, humiliated and scarred for life. 

I hold no grunge on the captain tho, I thanked her for the opportunities as a debater. 

As I said, basketball events and debate are held in the same place and time, so I still go to the place they played. We support each other if we had the chance. I was not hurt as I watched them play, I did wish I play but you don't get everything you want.

I hate it when I needed to go through so much shits to be where I am.

I know I didn't play well but I should at least get a better farewell. 

Well, the captain is not a b*tch but that event was a b*tch to me.

Sekian

 I decided to wait for Sebastian at the corner of the hall where no one is seating there. I enjoy being alone, it helps with the anxiety. I develop mild anxiety due to the bullying. I stop taking the meds as I don't have any attacks for more than 3 months now. I usually have Lily to ease up my anxiousness. Now, Lily is busy with her new boyfriend and I had no other friends so I prefer sitting at the corner while scrolling down Instagram. 

Text*

"Where you are? We're leaving for the afterparty at my house. Meet me near the exit."

"Okay, be there in 5." More parties? I don't even drink. Is this the first challenge as Sebastian's girlfriend? I groan as I stood up.

I could see Sebastian is waiting for me. His smile beams as soon as he saw me.

"Hey handsome, I thought you had left me."

"Never. Let's go!" He pulls my left wrist forward as he walks to the limousine that's waiting at the main entrance. 

"Where do you live?" I'm curious about it since he never told me anything about his house. 

"You'll get there in 20 minutes."

"I have something I need to tell you," I raise my voice a little. Sebastian puts away his phone and turns his attention to me. 

"I want to be with you but *a pause* I don't want people at school to know it. I hope you respect my request." I pour my heart out. I avoid looking into his eyes that could draw a distressing sight. 

Instead, he let out a huge sigh of relief. His hand cupped my cheek and leaned down close. I couldn't look away. His face is so close I could feel his breath. I shut my eyes as tight as possible, denying to face him. Gently he rests his forehead against mine. 

"I had only known you for less than a month in person but you're so addictive. You're like ecstasy to my heart. I would do, ANYTHING for you as long as you stay." The genuine earnestness in his voice makes me smile. I could feel his face moving close. His warm lips touch my upper lip. Just a smooch. The warmth of his touch made me succumb, demanding more than just a smooch.

I wove my fingers into his hair and he hummed in approval. He wraps his fingers at the back of my neck as he tilts his head. Surprisingly our movement compliments each other.

I break apart from his kiss to gasp for air. Both of us are panting. He smiles, underneath the smile I could see a little pain because he knows he needs to control himself.

"We're here," Steve announced as we enter the main gate to a huge mansion. 

My eyes were transfixed to the beautiful reflection of the moon in the midnight sky the moment I step out of the car. Loud music play at the back which reminded me of the party that I'm about to go to.

I grab Sebastian to the side, I pull his shoulder hard enough, he leans on his right side. I whisper vaguely, "Can I not go to the party? I'll wait in your room instead. err.. I mean ... the guest room.." My head spinning as I'm not sure if he gets my intention. 

"I can stay with you, *his fingers hooked my chin* if that's what you want." My face overheated with his gesture. 

"No..no..Oliver needs you tonight." I stutter as I nervously looked away.

"He wouldn't miss me. He would be busy partying, besides it's his birthday, not mine. We can have our own little party by ourselves." Grinning nefariously he simultaneously grasps my waist upwards. I let out a small scream before I shield my mouth with both of my palms. My heart skips a beat. (Is it happening tonight? Am I ready?)

"No!" I pushed his herculean chest. My hands are shaking against his sturdy physique. 

"I understand. Let me show you my room." Sebastian faces the front. I notice he sounded distressed. I started biting my nails. I only do it when I'm nervous. 

Sebastian's room

His room is huge and spacey. There's a bass at the corner of the room. The room looks clean and tidy for a man's space. 

"I had some things that Layla left, it's in that box. You can use anything you need. I'll be at the pool house for the party. If you need anything, you can push this button right next to the dresser, one of the maids will assist. I will sleep in the guest room tonight so you wouldn't be interrupted." Just like that he closes the door behind him. Leaving me alone, again.

I could fathom the frustration he's feeling. I push him away. We may share the same age but his lifestyle and expectations lay beyond mine. I'm still a maiden. I would like to 'do it' with Sebastian however I just knew him. I don't even know his middle name, his favorite colour or if he has any allergies.

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POV Sebastian

Am I not enough for her? Does she not want me? Sebastian conceals the devastation deep inside his heart. He decided to drown himself with alcohol the whole night to take his mind off Beth. He totally forgets the fact Beth is still a virgin out of everything else he did remember in detail about her. He may pay attention to how she runs her hand through her hair as she's feeling shy, the blazing crimson ears each time he kisses her, the way she walks gracely but still stumbles. He chuckles by himself. 

The pain lingers back at the back of his head.

He storms out to the pool house. He deserves a break from the tension. At least. that's what he thought the best. Abandon Beth in his room like a hostage, even offers Beth the things Layla left instead of staying and try to understand. 

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 I wipe off the makeup, undone the dress, folds it neatly. I reach for the bathrobe which hangs close to the dresser. She's amazed by the view from the balcony. She unlocks the door and finds herself looking up at the sky.

The atmosphere during a moonlit night is reigned by calmness and quietness if we walk through the countryside, which is away from humdrum, noise and clamour of cities. Moreover, the cool air and the cool beams of the moon, kissing each and every object of nature, present a charming sight.

 She's easily caught in her own thought whenever she is stunned by the nature unnoticed by a figure watching her from downstairs.

I get back inside, freshen up before slipping into the comforter to sleep. I wear Sebastian's t-shirt and his boxer as pajamas.

BANG! BANG! BANG!  

I was awake by the loud bang on the door. 

"Who is it?" Slowly I twist the knob and take a peek outside.

It is Sebastian, drunk Sebastian.

I let him in. He tumbles onto me causes me to be imbalanced, thank God I manage to push him outwards gaining some stability. I drag Sebastian to his bed. He is indeed wasted.

"Hey you!" he mumbles angrily. "Why don't you want me..." Now he starts sobbing and whining. "Other girls would be dying to be with me..but you...I want you....." more tears run down his cheeks, he covers his eyes with his forearm. 

I'm not sure what I should do.

"Should I call the maid?"

I choose to tug in Sebastian as soon as he passed out. He did.

I unbutton his vest, took off his shoes and socks, and layout the comforter on top of him. I lay next to him. I stare at his good-looking face, the face that robs girls' hearts. I saw the smiling lines, his freckles, those uneven brows, also the seductive round-shaped lips. I'm not sure how many girls did he kissed before me, it really paid off, he's such an exquisite kisser. 

Suddenly his forehead furrowed into an agonized frown.

"He must be tired.." I brush my fingers through his hair, hoping it could ease the nightmare. The wrinkles of distress stretches, he's calm now. 

Frozen in Time

That's the theme for Winter Dance this year. In conjunction with our main sponsor, Moy's family, it will be held on 7th March (Oliver's birthday) which is 2 days from now. Only Lily knows that it is my birthday too. 

I called my mom last night, I told her about how I actually have a date for the dance but I don't have a dress. My mom freaked out worst than I did. "I'll be at your school by tomorrow morning with everything! Just tell me what you want to wear. " Before I could say anything, she cut me off, "You know what, just trust me. I'll prepare everything for you! Okay, I got a flight to catch, see you soon. Bye bye muah!" just like that she hangs up.

I texted my mom,

"Please, no sexy outfits. I prefer green and long dresses. If possible, no heels?" *seen*

I don't really have much choice but wait for her. *ringtone* Oh, it's Lily. Finally!

"Hey, Lily. I heard you were too busy for me," while I rolled my eyes even I know she can't see it. 

"Franky is very light with his hand. I know we just met but I feel a real connection with him. It's like we had known each other in our previous life," Lily describing his personality after spending a few hours with this stranger while her index finger swirls her ponytail. 

"I see you're falling head over heel for this ... Freeky? ('FRANKY' Lily corrects me) Ah, Franky. Geez, can you chill for a minute? I'm the one who's having a crisis," I whimpered as I roll on my bed. "I had to call my mom to ask her help on finding me a set of outfits for the dinner." 

"I have tons of dresses if you want to use," Lily replies like it's not a big issue.

"I know but we are built differently, no offense Lily but I'm at least a foot taller than you and my boobs may slip from one of those dresses. I saw your collection Lily, I don't fit well in column and over-the-shoulder dresses. Besides, is Franky gonna be your date this weekend?" my curiosity builds up as Lily took her time to answer my only question.

"Well... don't be mad at me .... the reason I called you ... I wanted to tell you that I'm not going to the dance. Franky- 

"Are you kidding me?! You just met this guy and now you're spending a romantic getaway with the guy you barely knew. So you're ditching me?" naturally I raise to a sitting position while I scream at Lily.

"We didn't plan to go to the dance anyway so I thought I would stay in, with Franky, in ITALY! His uncle has a vacation home there. I'm skipping school tomorrow and Friday!! I'm already in his private jet to ITALY!! (miss please keep your phone as we will fly in a minute) Oh sorry, give me a second. BETH, gotta go! Muah! Enjoy the weekend!" Lily cut me off before I could say anything else.

Great.. 

As I was about to switch off the light, I saw my phone vibrates. Sebastian is calling.

"Hello." I say while yawning.

"You're about to go to sleep? I'll be quick." I could hear his concerned tone.

"It's fine. What's up?"

"About the dance. You said you don't have a dress so I thought I could help you pick one. I can call in some favors."

"It has been handled. I'm in good hands. Worst, the faith of my entire look will be decided completely by my mom. She's coming tomorrow. I'm seeing her after school for a fitting. I will probably wear green, like jade kind of green. Are you okay with that?" This is last minute so I'll understand if he decides otherwise.

"Green is fine. I'll wear a matching green bowtie to your dress." I feel relief as I heard Sebastian is completely cool with green. 

"Oh, great! I'm glad you're okay with that."

"I see you tomorrow. Good night, Beth." The way Sebastian spoke my name, his voice, deep, warm that melts my heart to the ground. 

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The day of the main event.

Winter Dance; Frozen in Time.

I'm super nervous about tonight. My mom picked such a unique choice for me. The make up and emerald dress compliments my pale skin well. I'll be making a statement wearing like this but I don't think I have any other choices. Sebastian will pick me up. 

Here we go!

As Sebastian stepped out from the car, I could literally hear other girls in the surroundings gasping for air. He looks sharp-looking and well-fitted in the black Armani tuxedo with velvet lapel suits his suave manners. The raven vest that compliments his outfit as well as his leather shoes. I saw his emerald bowtie still hanging around his neck. He smiles, a bit magical even in this dim light. 

He saw me standing a few inches away from the limousine. His jaw dropped, his eyes popped! I divert my glance elsewhere to avoid eye contact as my cheek's burning. 

"You look astonishing and breathtaking all at the same time. Your mom sure knows what goes well with you." He picked my left wrist and tie a bracelet corsage. Gently brought his lips to my hand, leaving a brief kiss on the skin just above my knuckles.

"You're lucky I know how to tie a bowtie. Scootch a bit lower." My fingers dance step by step to tie that bowtie. "Done!" He gave a quick smooch that caught me off guard. "Thank you, princess." I can feel the surge of blood rose to my face. My pale face turns pinkish for a split second. 

For this event, they layout red carpet on the entrance for the girls to show off their designer dresses. Everything is important, from the accessories on the top of your head down to your toe. 

Sebastian stepped out of the vehicle. His stunning image sure attacks the attention of the entire crowd. Flashes of camera blazing as he offers his hand to another person in the same vehicle. People are freaking out because the infamous Sebastian brought a date! 

He held out his hand. The slight raise on her brows betrayed the surprise she was trying to hide as she stared at the empty palm in front of her. Her gaze traveled upwards meeting his, searching for certainty. She slid her hand into his hold. She didn't notice the curve that the corner of her lips made as soon as the warmth of contact settled in but he did.

Timidly, I stepped out.

the female companion is dressed in a jade green silk dress which compliments the cornsilk see-through cardigan with a cute hoodie hanging over her low shoulder. The skirt of the dress barely touched the ground, giving a glimpse of the red bottom, Christian Louboutin Impera Limited edition.

Her hair braided in the shape of 't', gives out the vibe of ancient dynasties. The hair coiled into a 't' line of the bun and the rest of the hair rested straight down to the shoulder, with Hanfu hairpin fixed. It exposed her neck accessorize a snake-like necklace with a dangling emerald. Paired with tiny emeralds on her ears. In the center of her forehead, a small gold flower was drawn to highlight the stunning colour of her olive eyes. 

The smokey gold with bold eyeliner surely goes well with her whole outfit. The light glossy lips highlight her natural pinkish lips.

Sebastian smiled while he seductively wrapped an arm around my waist. We walk together and pause a few times for a proper photo, together. 

"You surely steal the show," Sebastian whispers to my right ear. 

"Finally you arrive!" Oliver appears from the dance floor. He wears Gucci black lavender slim fit tuxedo with a matching bow tie, undone. "Since when did you know to tie your own bowtie?" Oliver looked at Seb's bowtie. 

"I don't. She did," he points at me. I was busy looking down on my feet as its hurting my damn toes.

"Wow! Who is she? She goes to our school?"  I was too occupied with the pain on my toes, I barely see Oliver standing by my side.  I walked past Oliver, leaving traces of my scent together with the trail of my hanfu.

I sat alone at the corner of the table as I hates to socialize with the other kids. I heard the hisses and snarks of the other girls while I was in the restroom a few minutes ago.  They say that I'm a gold digger and outsider shouldn't be allowed to join the event. I miss Lily.

They are announcing the winner for the best dress. I was about to take a bite of the cookies I sneak inside my purse, a bright spotlight position over me. Dammit.. Mom surely goes overboard with the outfit. I made 'cut-it-off' hand gesture. "Please come to the stage to claim your gift card."

Forcefully, I stood up and made my way to the stage. I accept the gift card and rush down the stage. I skipped a step and found myself being pulled by gravity. I closed my eyes as my face was about to hit the ground! Someone caught my wrist and pulled me close, against his well-built chest. I stumbled again as I was trying to stand up. I tilted my head to see my savior, it's your father, OLIVER MOY. Our eyes locked, I feel like the whole room was in silence for a minute. I gaze away to snap back into reality. I quickly move away from Oliver without thanking him. I can hear my heart beating loud and face as if I just finished a 10km run. That's how I officially met him.

I did run into him in the hallway sometimes. I lined up behind him in the cafe once. Yet, I never really meet  Oliver while he's facing me.

Dear, by that time I was dating his brother. (Mom, do things get twisted since then?) I did but I'll get there if you want to know what happens next. I already told you how I met your father. Well, he didn't know who I am as a person, he saw me as the girl who dated his brother. (Did he ever love you?) Yes, he did. That's how we have you! You're the symbol of our love. (What happened, Mom? Do you both not love each other anymore?) Hurm...it's complicated now.  If you want to understand, I'll continue to tell you the rest of the story. (Yes, please!)

Sebastian managed to find me catching breath outside.

"Can we go now?" I begged Sebastian.

"I can't go now. They need me for Oliver's birthday cake ceremony. Besides, we still have to attend the after-party at my house!" Sebastian shines as he smiles in delight. I know this event meant a lot to him too.

"But, my foot is killing me.. I could barely walk properly in these heels." I remove my shoes, showing him my toes that have been crying in despair since we came. 

"Worry not! I have it all prepared. What size do you wear? 6?"

"yes. What do you mean as 'prepared'?"

"Steve, can you please bring size 6 to the main entrance," Sebastian called up his loyal driver.

The limousine appears Steve rushes out with a pair of flat sandals.

"I know this will come in handy. I'm not sure what size you wear so I bought 3 different sizes before I picked you up. I noticed how you never wear heels even at school. I just have a feeling that tonight you might wear those (points at my heels) as you did mention your mom prepared everything.

Steve, please keep these lovely pairs inside the car. (my heels)

Lady Von Blues, your comfortable sandals awaits." Sebastian bends down, removes my heels and puts on the sandals. "There you go, my lady," he says while glaring at me. In slow motion, he raises his head without breaking eye contact. My heart took another 5km trip around the non-existent field. He buries his face between my chest," Your heart is racing." Grinning devilishly, Sebastian locks his lips onto mine. 

As things are about to get intense, someone appears from the inside, "Sebastian! Oliver is searching for you. It's time for the cake! Oh, er, I'm sorry."

Dreadfully, Sebastian pulls away and lets out a groan of disappointment. "We'll continue later." 

I was utterly dumbfounded by how my body reacts to Sebastian's touch. I could feel a rush of adrenaline through my arteries and veins. I could literally run a marathon. 

He walks back inside and disappears into the crowd.     

Both of them make me nervous. I hope I wouldn't be caught up between those two.

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The text bold are ideas from my fellow friend, ns__mf !! Shes so helpful in describing some scenes that I was unable to think of. That's why its totally different from the others. Most of the descriptions is also inspired by references in Wattpad and AO4

Outfit ideas;

Beth's

Oliver's

 Warning: Strong language and sexual content. 🔞 

I was still discovering the world of dating. Lily and I decided to go on a double date. Basically Lily is going on a blind date. Wednesday night, bowling alley. Both of us pick that place as we are bowling pros. We want to trash our dates. Bowling alley was the last place any rich kids in our school would go to. They don't have any special services for the 'VIP'. Everyone is equal here. This would be interesting! 

That's what I thought at first.

The night before our date, I had one of the strangest dreams. In that dream-

I saw a tall figure, well built, seems familiar. He moves close to me, softly kiss my forehead, made his way to my lips. It feels so real, I could feel his tongue deepen, taking my tongue in his mouth while he stole my breath away. As he moves away, I start to see his face clearer. He smirks as he wipes off some saliva from my lower lip with his thumb. Fak! It's Sebastian!

I woke up, my heart is racing! I pinched myself, OUCH, yupe, I'm awake now. 

That dream messed up with my head the whole day. I couldn't tell Lily about it because Lily is nervous to meet her blind date. I told her that it must be one of the pretty boys. That just made it worst.

Lily made effort to dress up, she even wore contact lenses. Sebastian better not mess up with this date.

Bowling Alley

Lily and I arrived a bit earlier than promised so that we can reserve the booth. There's only one booth that's big enough for four people to fit in. A few minutes after that, Sebastian arrived with someone with him. 

L: Can you see him? Is he good looking?

B: Why can't you see him?

L: I'm too nervous to look!!

B: He looks nice, take a glance. 

L: Wait, is that...Oliver?

B: I don't think so. I'll know if its him by his figure. Oliver is kinda hard to be missed. 

L: Are you sure?

B: Super!

Sebastian walks nearer..

B: Oh God, someone who looks like Oliver... His eyes and jawline are not Oliver's.

L: Wow, you're right!

B: Here they come, ACT NORMAL!

Sebastian and this guy came and sat across us.

S: Hi guys! Sorry, we run a bit late. This is Franky, my cousin who's visiting.

F: Hello! *British accent* Nice to meet both of you, ladies.

B: Franky, this is Lily. (Lily, close your mouth! psssst)

L: Oh! Hey! I'm Lily!

B: So sorry Franky, she's a bit energetic. That's why she's being loud! 

F: She's better than how Sebastian describes her.

L: Oh...wow...you're sooo- (I had to elbow Lily to stop her from saying anything she'll regret later). OUCH!

B: Shall we order?

S: We'll have whatever you girls have.

B: I'll call Mary. MARY! 4 cheeseburgers and large fries! Also, 4 diet cokes!!

Mary just raises her hand as an indication she had taken note of our order.

F: Are you sure you want cheeseburger?

B: We are STARVING! It's the best cheeseburger in town. 

L: Beth, maybe we should order something like salad?

B: Why? We both eat cheeseburgers here all the time.

L: She's just joking, Franky! You're so funny Beth!! *slaps my back

B: Gentlemen, could you please excuse us? We're going to the loo.

In the toilet

B: What the hell Lily?

L: I just want to impress Franky.

B: By becoming someone else? We both love cheeseburgers!

L: I do! But, I also would like to Franky to stay around for a bit.

B: Lily, we don't change for men. You barely eat any greens! You hated salad in the first place!

L: I KNOW! But, it doesn't mean I need to chew it. I'll just swallow it.

B: You know what, you can do however you like. I'm gonna stay out of it. 

L: Thank you.

I gave Lily my sharpest glare. 

We walked back to our booth. Our food had arrived.

B: I guess we need to send this food back, Lily decides on those 'salad'..

F: It's fine! I can have my cheat day today. I had always hated salad.

S: You heard the man, let's eat.

Lily and I exchange such confused looks. Did something happen while we're gone? 

Instead of asking more questions, we just eat in peace. No one speaks until-

S: Beth, you have some ketchup on your cheek.

*Beth wipes the right side of her cheek

S: No no, lemme 

*Sebastian wiped the left side of Beth's cheek with his thumb. Instead of wiping it off on a napkin, he licks the thumb and chuckles. 

S: That's better. 

*Everyone froze. I blushed so hard, I think my ears turn crimson. I remembered the dream I had last night. I stood up abruptly and rush to the toilet.*

(Beth! GET A GRIP ON YOURSELF!! It took like 5 minutes of inhaling and exhaling to calm down.)

I came back.

B: Nature call. Sorry. So Sebastian, do you play bowling?

S: Yes I do! In fact, I played last week with the boys.

F: I don't. We don't have a bowling alley near my school.

L: I can teach you.

F: You're very generous! Lily, tell me more about you.

B: Both of you have a nice chat, Sebastian and I will go reserve our lane and pick the shoes. What size do you wear Franky?

F: Any size Sebastian wears. Are you sure they clean the shoes beforehand?

B: They don't.

F: Excuse me??

S: Let's go Beth! *Sebastian pulls my arm. 

We booked Lane 6 and grabbed a few shoes.

S: I'm sorry if Franky being weird. He always thinks he's above some people. 

B: I can see that. Did you say something to Franky about the cheeseburgers?

S: Is it that obvious? haha.. I did. I told him if he's being a pain in the ass, I'll leave him here. 

B: pffft! hahahaha! I thought you would bring along one of your friends.

S: Most of them are busy with ... erm ... I'm not sure. I never ask.

B: If Franky becomes a jerk to Lily, I'll take him out myself.

S: He could be worst.

B: Are you serious? You picked someone worst for my best friend? Are you joking??

S: I'm-

Suddenly Lily came to us.

L: Sebastian! Thank you for bringing Franky!! He's fantastic!! *I can see Lily is really happy\

S: Oh, no problem.

Then, Franky appeared next to Lily.

F: It turns out we both have more in common! We're gonna ditch bowling, Lily's gonna show me around this town.

B: Are you sure Lily?

L: I'll text you once I'm home. See you tomorrow Beth.

B: Okay, be careful. I mean it! Franky, you better be good.

They left.

B: I guess just the two of us are going to play bowling.

S: I can't believe he ditch me.

B: If Lily got hurt by Franky, you better watch out.

S: I will be fine. I think maybe Lily will break his heart instead. 

B: Well, if that happens, I'm fine with that. 

By the way, I'm very competitive. You better bring your A-game.

S: Don't underestimate me. haha

We play for three games before our hands got tired. I scored a bit higher than Sebastian.

"I won!!" *I did the winning dance*

'Hahahahaha! I'll get you next time. Let's grab ice cream before heading home. On me!'

"Lead the wayyyy."

Basket Robin

B: I'll have that *points at Love potion*

S: I'll have that one *points at Chocolate*

While enjoying our dessert we talk.

S: Are you going to the dance this weekend?

B: No one asked me. I don't have any dress.

S: Do ... you... er... want to go with... me?

B: *stops sipping, looks at Sebastian

Are you asking me to be your date?

S: I am.

B: I'll think about it. 

S: Oh. 

B: Sebastian, if we go together, people will think we're seeing each other.

S: I want that. I don't care what people think, I want YOU.

B: *bites her lips.* 

Why do you want me so bad? There're other girls, prettier, sexier, curvier.. I can't compete with those. I don't even want to be popular. 

S: You are not, them. You have your own opinions, belief and you're genuine. 

B: Tell me, Sebastian, why should I say yes?

S: I can't. I'm not forcing you to say yes. All I can do is hope you change your mind and say yes. I'll be the luckiest guy to be your date! I know trust can't be built in one or two dates. I would like to build it with you no matter how long it takes. 

B: Sebastian, do you know how stubborn you are right now?

S: I learn from the best. *he points his finger at me* 

B: I'll think about it. 

S: I'll hold on to your maybe.

We made our way out of Baskit Robin. Out of the corner of my eye, I'd catch him watching, but when I'd turn, he'd make a quick getaway.

B: You can leave now. I'll get a cab back to school.

S: Let me send you back. It's the least a date should do. 

B: Such a gentleman but it's fine. I'm an independent woman, I can get things done myself. 

S: I insist. Steve will be here any minute.

I gave Sebastian a stern glare. 

B: Fine.. 

S: Good, he's here. *waving at a Mercedes driving through the parking lot.

Steve parks on the side road, Sebastian opens the car door and lets me in. "Ladies first."

We barely speaks during the way back as I was occupied with my phone. I need to make sure Lily is okay. She doesn't reply to any of my texts and even ignores all my calls. To keep my mind at ease, "Lily is probably having the time of her life. I would be distracting her." I mumbled by myself. I had totally forgotten that Sebastian is watching me. 

"Are you okay? I can call Franky to check on Lily," Sebastian expresses his concern. 

"Please," I say while still tapping on my phone. I just need to know that she's safe.

Sebastian begins to dial a number on his cell. 

"Hello, Franky! Is Lily with you? Oh, oh..OH..so sorry to disturb you. Thanks, bye," he immediately ends the call and made 'I-am-shocked' expression. 

"So? Is she okay?" 

"She's fine! They're getting busy. You can breath now."

I let out a huge sigh of relief. 

"We're here" Steve declares as we arrived near the hostel.

I stepped out of the car. I looked back to express my gratitude to both of them, Sebastian reach out to pull my waist closer to him. He kissed me. I gave in. He realize that I had completely wrapped my hands around his neck. He didn't let any moment for me to hesitate and pressed his lips down to mine. His soft suction and his tongue sliding against my bottom lips made my heart racing. 

I pull away from him to catch a breath. Sebastian press his forehead against mine, "Be my girl."

Reluctantly I say,"Yes." He moves closer to kiss my right ear as it's burning and whispers something.  I couldn't focus on his words because of the tender way his hands were on my cheeks. I buried my face into his chest to hide my flaming red face. He smells nice. Sebastian chuckles

I pushed his concrete chest away from my face. "You can go now," I asked him to leave as I started walking away. He waves back before he slides back into the car. 

That's how I started dating Sebastian, officially.

It took me awhile to snap out from my daydreaming and back to reality. I just agreed to be Sebastian's girlfriend which means he's my date to the dance. Shit! I was so sure that no one would ask me to the dance, I didn't find any dress for the occasion. I'm not even sure what's the theme of my very first winter dance. I have less than 3 days to find the perfect outfit with matching shoes and accessories. 

I knew that the only person who would help me would be ... my MOM..

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Btw all of the images are either from his official Instagram account or i googled it. Mostly google 😂

How do you guys enjoy reading it? I'm dying to write the next part tho.

I insert some descriptions on the intimate scene. Thanks to my friends who recommended such great and simple references.

Hope you're excited about what's next!! 

 As you know, I agreed on a date, unintentionally. I wanted to bail but I'm not a bad person. Lily told me that I shouldn't decline free food. I quote, "You never been on a date before, take this as an experience. Just go for it! What could possibly go wrong? "

She's right. 

That Friday, I went out with Seb. He picked me up at the hostel entrance with a limousine as I had requested. It was awkward because I wore a casual t-shirt with cute boot pairing to it while Seb was all suited up! Not to mention everyone was looking. 

B: Oh, I thought-

S: It's fine! We can go somewhere, casual.

B: This is a bad idea.. I just wanna go. Driver, can you please stop here.

Driver: Sure miss.

S: No Steve, just drive. Hey, it's my fault okay. I never told you the dress code before coming here. I'm okay with however you decided to wear.

B: Sebastian, *pause and took a deep breath* what are you doing? I'm not your type. I've seen you date other girls. This school is much more smaller than you think. People talk. I know that you just broke up with Layla just a few days before you asked me out. I'm not some kind of rebound girl. 

S: Beth, please. 

The reason I broke up with Layla was because I know that I want to be with you. I was with Layla before I met you. I wanted to end things much sooner but she kinda knew about it. She would come up with multiple excuses to ask me to hold it off. We put up an act because she wanted to ensure her fame stays. I know this may sound lame but trust me. 

B: *speechless*

I still can't date you. 

S: Why? Are you seeing someone else?

B: No but I-

S: Give me a chance. Just one date. If you decide that I'm just a creepy guy or make you uncomfortable, you can bail on me after that. 

B: (remembers how Lily say as a new experience) *let out a huge exhale* Well, what the hell. One date! Let's go creepy guy!

I tried to tell Sebastian that I like his brother. I can't really say it now, if things don't work out, he would know one of my biggest secrets. Worst, he would tell Oliver about it.

We went to the restaurant that Seb had made reservations. It was fancy as fak. I'm so not dress up for this place.

B: Hurm...are you sure they would allow me to enter this place wearing like this?

S: Don't worry, my dad owns this place. They could never say no to me. 

B: You should have at least told me what I should wear. I wish you would magically have a spare dress somehow in this car.

S: I know this will sound so clazy but, I do. It was Layla's, well, I bought it with my money so it was mine but, I don't want to make it sound more complicated. I have a set of dress and even heels to pair with it. If, if you want it.

B: I don't! But, urgh, I don't want more shits coming from my mom. Give me that! You get out! You too Steve!

S: You heard the lady. *both of them got out*

*Beth changes in the car. She even wipe off her eyeliner and put on a decent amount of lipstick. She then came out of the car.*

S: WOW, you look.. amazing!

B: It's the dress. Let's just go in and eat. I'm not having more lectures from my mom about the way I dress.

Your Grandma always has people she paid to look over me especially in public places. I'm pretty sure we were followed that night. No matter how many times I told her to stop, she never do. At least she promises to stay away as long as I'm not in danger. Annoyingly, she would nag about how I dress up in public. Claiming how I brought shame to our family's name, the Von Blues. 

Just like any other fancy restaurant, we were welcomed with hot towels and immediately escorted to our romantic dinner table. 

S: Tell me, what do you mean when you said you don't want any lectures from your mom?

B: My mom is overprotective. I'm pretty sure we had been followed tonight. She would hire people to report back to her. She always nags about how I dress up in public. *Beth mimics her mom's word* "Don't bring shame to the Von Blues with your dark eyeliner and jeans with holes." 

S: Are you telling me you're a Von Blues ? I thought they were joking about having Von Blues in the school.. I'm so sorry, I didn't mean to offence-

B: Stop. That's why I used my mom's maiden name here.. I don't need people to see me differently. You can't go around telling people about me! Or, I'll ask my mom's spy to cut off your balls. I mean it.. I can do it myself but-

S: I get it. *laughs* You're kinda funny with that threat even if it's true.

B: *raise her left eyebrow* It is true. I mean each word. 

S: I guess it's an honor to date royal blood.

B: My blood is just as red as yours. Can we talk about something else?

S: Yeah, sorry. *pause*

You heard about the winner of the singing competition?

B: Of course, she sings like an angel. Jennifer deserves to win.

S: Nahh, your voice is much better than Jennifer's. You could have won the date with Oliver.

B: I did, but the different brother.

S: Tell me, do you genuinely like Oliver?

B: I think he's hot. I guess not hot enough to a point I needed to prove myself worthy to be his date. 

I want the person I like to like me back as he gets to know me. I may be an option among other girls but I want to be chosen for being me. I don't have to go the extra mile just to prove I deserve the throne. 

I can find other hot guys to be a crush on.

S: I would love to be the next 'hot guy'. 

B: We'll see about that. Can you do backflip?

S: Sure, once I learn how to do it.

B:*laughs

S: I may be less hot than Oliver but I'm definitely funnier.

B: In your dreams. *still smiling

S: I made you smile, didn't I? 

B: You're just lucky that I'm in good mood. Now, can you please let me finish this? 

S: I can cook. I'll cook for you next time.

B: I love sushi. 

S: I'll make sushi ;) Any allergies?

B: Nuts and sometimes prawns but I usually just eat them anyways. I love prawns.

S: Till death do us apart, you may kiss the prawn.

B: Nice try *unexpectedly smile*

After dinner, 

S: Where to next?

B: Surprise me! 

S: Steve, the location I told you about yesterday.

Steve: Buckle up. 

After about 20 minutes of drive, we are out of town.

S: I'm not sure if you're a fan of the stars. Tonight there will be a meteor shower. It will start *looks at his watch* any minute from now. 

B: I love stargazing! 

Sebastian lay out a blanket on the grass. We sat there while waiting for the meteor shower. He slowly takes off his blazer and puts it on me. "You must be freezing." I'm glad he didn't notice how red my face looks by the time he place his blazer on me. As the meteor shower begins, I was too occupied to see how close Sebastian was. I noticed how hazel his eyes look, he also smells nice. He realizes that I am looking at him, we locked eyes. 

Sebastian gentle lean on for a kiss and I did the same. We kissed! My first kiss. As our lips touch, i feel shivers on my spine and all my hair stand up. He tasted like strawberry. It must be from the strawberry ice-cream we had for dessert. My head was spinning for a split second as his tongue begins a quest to find mine. Naturally, my hands reach the back of his head. Sebastian begins to stand up which cause me to stand on tiptoes as he was at least a foot taller than me. Instead of bending down, Sebastian carried me back into the car. I screamed a bit as I was shocked. "You're definitely hotter than Oliver now!"

He wanted to unzip my dress but I stopped him. 

B: No. 

S: I'm sorry.

I stopped immediately. I move away from him.

B: Steve, school, please.

Steve: Right away, miss. 

B: Sebastian, can you seat in the front seat with Steve. I need to change.

S: Yes, sure. 

Hostel

*Sebastian went out to open the door for Beth but Beth already walked out of the car. Seb chases after Beth.*

S: Beth, wait! *Beth stops and turns around*

B: It was such a lovely dinner. Thank you. *she starts walking again

S: I'm sorry. I screwed up. Please, give me one more chance. 

B: I'm not sure what do you expect from me when I agreed to continue with the date. I'm sure sex is on the list now. 

S: I don't! It just...happens. I'm sorry I have no self-control. I-

B: Let me stop you there before you say more shits that will make it worst.

For you, this is just another date with some chick but, it means a lot for me. 

This is my first date.

That was my *touch her lips*..first kiss..

I can't just give my virginity away over too in one night. 

S: I'm not aware that-

B: I need to go. 

Beth walks away.

Honey, that was indeed my first date and how I had my first kiss the same night.

I told Lily all about the date. 

L: You should cut some slack on that poor guy. I mean, he has never been with someone as refreshing as you. Most of the girls he dated were divas and obviously sluts. 

B: That does not mean he can get into my pants on the first date. He's a jerk.

L: Have you heard about Jennifer?

B: What about Jennifer?? Is she so special? Even Sebastian mentioned her name. Who mentions another girl's name when you're with someone else?

L: Beth, stop being such a pain in the ass. That's not the point. I heard she got dumb by Oliver. It was such a huge scene. Oliver found out she lied about her birthday and she can't even draw properly. We all know no one can sketch as good as you. 

B: Good for Oliver but he can never found out about me. I just went out with his brother for God's sake!

L: I'm just saying that Oliver is back in the market. Maybe your cute notes can start again.

B: I don't think that's a good idea. 

Monday 

I saw Sebastian in the first period. He sits beside that time. We can't really talk in class so he wrote me a note.

"Sorry for being a jerk. Let me owned up to my mistake."

'NO'

"I got you sushi today" Then he handed me over what seems to be a lunch box.

"I made it myself"

'STILL A NO'

"Please. Just one bite. If you hate it, I promise you, I'll get out from your sight.'

*rings* he just left the lunchbox and got out. Urgh.. I hate men. 

During lunch hour, I tried the sushi. It tastes like sushi. Not the best sushi but decent. 

L: Just give that pal another chance. 

B: We need someone to take you out so that you'll stop busting my ass about Sebastian.

L: No one will.

B: I have a good idea. If Sebastian manages to get you a date then I'll go out with him again. 

L: Why are you involving me in your mess?

B: Lily, just embrace the new experience. There, SENT! I already told Sebastian it. I said I'll go out with him again you go out with me too. He needs to find a date for you.

L: I guess, there's no taking back.

B: Deep down you're glad am I right? hahahaha

L: Shut up!

 POV of Oliver

When I started a career in social media, all the girls in my school just went crazy! They would do things to catch my attention. I love the attention, that's why I'm on social. I could get any girl that I want. Until this mystery girl appears out of nowhere. I don't know her but she seems to be getting my attention.

I never got a letter without that person signing their name. They even put their pictures on the gifts they gave. I get it, no one should take credit for your effort. This girl, she wrote in on a piece of paper and such short messages. She used some kind of tape to make it dangle on my locker door. I thought it was some trash at first but a cute note. 

She would put new notes on Mondays in alternate weeks. It was just ridiculous messages compare to what most girls would write to me. I get pages of letters every day but this chick, she only writes like one or two sentences. On top of it, I still feel more excited to get her tiny notes to compare to those gifts. She sounds so casual in a way that I feel comfortable and not being stalked. You see, those girls love to ask me whenever they saw me in the hallway about the things that they sent. I have a short attention span so I don't usually read all of the letters. I would zone out, it will take ages until I finish reading it. My assistant would read it for me and summarise it. Yeah, I sound so spoil but we all need to work smart!

I tried to wait for her during the weekends to see who would be the one putting the notes. I didn't see her until one day, I was out late with my friends. We were studying together. I went to the men's room and on my way back, someone crashed onto me or the other way around? I'm not sure as it was dark, plus, I was looking down on my phone. I apologize while helping her up. She said, thanks, and she ran away. I saw she kinda dropped something. She just, left. Then, as I looked at the things she dropped, THE PINK NOTE! 

"Uuuuur Ahhhrr Uhrr Ahhhhrr Aaaaargh (Merry Christmas and Happy New Year) - by the furry friends, Chewbacca. p/s: I knitted this cute glove for your magnificent Christmas tree ;)"

She even has a sense of humor that lots of the girls in this school are lack.

I realize that I've been thinking about her way too much. I knew that I needed to know her! At least something about herself.

As new year's vacation was over, I decided to volunteer as the student representative. I need to make a statement during the assembly because everyone will be there, including the mystery girl! 

"You have to find something that you love enough to jump over hurdles and break through the brick walls by George Lucas. Oh, to the mystery girl, tell me something about you. Thank you."

I almost got into trouble for what I did but it was worth it! 

The next day, I received more letters signed by 'Mystery Girl'. I knew she would never write a long ass letter telling me about herself. So, I waited for the next cute pink note that would be swinging on my locker door.

The first one I got after a week of waiting, " I love singing and sketching dumb things. p/s: a hardcore Swifties".

After a couple of weeks, the next one I got, " I wear eyeliner every day like everyone else. Not so special but still, I'm a badass."

One last note she gave about herself before back to the silly messages, " U already know my birthday. A proud pisces. *draw cute mermaid doodle*" Well, that doesn't make much sense... How can I know her- IM SO DUMB, it means WE SHARE THE SAME BIRTHDAY!

 William Academy was full of rich kids. Yet, no one really knows who is the richest among us all. Lucky for me, I know. 

As no one would dare share a table with me during lunch hour, I came across a table at the back of the cafe. Only one girl was sitting there. It was your Aunt Lily! 

Me: Hey, can I sit here?

Lily: Sure.

Me: I'm Beth.

Lily: Lily. 

We would eat in silence. We never really talk because I'll be eating while Lily is glued to her laptop. She's like the lonely nerd without a herd. Kinda rare for rich kids, the one born into a rich family, enjoys sitting alone without anyone to brag about their luxury holidays. Slowly, I started to talk to Lily. 

You know that I was bullied before. Our school has tons of cameras but non of them seems to function the day before my locker was sabotage. Even if it was working, the images would be blurry. Although I got the mean girls to do community services, I needed them to at least have a taste of karma. 

One day,

Me: Hey Lily, do you know how to hack the school security cameras?

Lily: Piece of cake. 

Me: Will you do it for fun?

Lily: I'm listening.

Me: You know how the mean girls would hire some guy to sabotage my locker? The cameras wouldn't work every time they put 'things' in my locker. I was thinking-

Lily: I'm in! Those bitches need to learn a lesson the hard way... 

Me: What did they do to you?

Lily: Before you came here, I was you. 

Me: Let's make them pay!

So, we plan an act of revenge. It was simple but very effective.  We would take turns to monitor their routines and whatnot for a month. We identify our targets. We realize that those girls would only use their locker on Mondays and Fridays so, on Monday night, we disable the cameras around the hallways. We planned some maggots and other 'things' that they used to put in our lockers. The signature of those douchbags. The blame will fall to those guys instead of us. We build a solid alibi by putting some false footage in the hard drive. We were seen in the hostel and nowhere near the school building. 

On Friday, as they opened their locker, flies flew out and maggots running around their books. The smell was horrifying! We kinda went too far, most of their possessions were ruined. But, they're not sorry. 

That's how Lily and I became best friends ever since! Lily's dad was the richest compare to the other dads. Later on, her sister, Rose registered in the same school. Well, that one is another story.

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As you know, the mean girls were the most popular girls and all of them were cheerleaders. You might guess that footballers would be the most popular boys in school, nope. Not even close. 

The most popular boys in school were the ones with the most followers in Instagram, tiktok or youtube. We called them, the pretty boys. One of them was your dad. So, yeah, I met your dad in William Academy! End of a story.

"Mom, are you kidding me?? That's 'where' not 'how'."

Yeah, I was just kidding!

The pretty boys were everywhere. One of them in my class, Sebastian Moy. We have Oliver Moy, Seb's brother who always finds every chance he has to be shirtless. Then, we have Tim Kono who actually plays football and is a quarterback. The rest, I don't really remember because they were not significant to the story.

"Are you saying that my dad could be either Seb, Tim or Oliver?"

Yes! 

I might be the girl with thick eyeliner who seems to be heartless and cold, yet, I had a HUGE crush on Oliver! Even Lily laughed when I told her that. I can't help myself.. His smile melts my heart, EVERYTIME! What makes it worst? I secretly watched him practice basketball from afar. The other fangirls always block my view..

Those pretty boys actually made asked the school to provide a PO box for them because their locker would be full of letters and some extreme fans even break into their lockers to put gifts! So, the school provides each pretty boy a PO box. No one can come near or disturb their personal locker in the hallway. Surprisingly, it works! 

On Valentine's day, their PO box and even personal lockers would be filled with so so many things. I decided that probably this is my chance to write something to Oliver. 

I wrote, 'Hi. You're too popular for me to approach so, hi from afar.'

I know his locker will be exploded with letters so I tag my tiny note, without signing my name, on something adhesive to ensure he notices something is dangling on his locker. 

On that day, he didn't notice it AT FIRST (yes I was watching from a safe distance), as he was about to close his locker, he saw something swinging on the locker door. He picked it up, read it and SMILE! One the best day of my life. You'll understand it soon enough.

I started to send more cute notes to his locker. He didn't report any disturbance (the pretty boys usually report whenever they felt disturbed, the principal will change their locker or something. I'm not sure because I was busy watching Oliver). I wrote all of my notes on pink paper and sometimes I spray my perfume on it. Just for fun! I would put the notes on the weekends as most of the pretty boys stayed at home. The best part is, Oliver awaits my notes. I'm not sure why but he did!

'Your left side is your best side ;)'

'Whenever you :) , it made my day. Well, other girls' day 2. Smile more'

'Good luck on your next game!'

'I saw you, no gums under the table =_= p/s: not a stalker just happened to saw it once'

'Hear about your injury, GWS (😭)

'Black tie goes well with everything. I mean, anything you wear goes well w u'

On his birthday (we share the same birthday actually), I drew a portrait of him on a half A4 paper and gave it to him. 'Hope u like it'. 

I gave him a note within two weeks. 

'Have a nice spring break! I suggest Nivea sunblock ;) gonna miss u'

He started to pay a bit more attention to his surrounding whenever he walks. It's like he is searching for someone. I wish he was searching for the mystery girl but, he could be just looking around.

The closest he ever got to me, 

On the last week of the final examination, I wanted to wish him Merry Christmas. I made an ornament. I was walking towards his locker with the note and the ornament. I was kinda scared of the dark so I was busy looking down, watch my steps. I crashed onto a person, it was OLIVER! I guess he was at school late for some group study. He apologizes and even helps me up. I got panic! So I left the note and the ornament. 

I said, " er..thanks" and bolt!

'Hey! You drop these!!' Wait!!

I left, running in the dark until I reached my room. I'm not sure if he realizes that the note and ornament were for him. 

After school break, I saw him and the ornament is hanging on his bag! I was over the moon!! Even jumped a little.

That day, we had the usual assembly. By the end of the assembly, a student representative must come up and give like inspirational quotes. That day, Oliver came up and gave a quote. He ended his quotes by saying, "To the mystery girl, tell me something about you."

I was so shocked, Lily had to slap me as I fainted. LOL I did.  

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 At the age of 7, my daughter's school held a daughter-and-father dance. I decided to dress up in a tuxedo to the event but instead, my daughter insisted that she wants her real dad to dance with her.

A few days prior to the event, my daughter finally asked the question that I had always refuse to answer. She's still young.. 

Tara: Mom, who's my father?

Me: Baby, I'm your parents. I'm your mom and your dad.

Tara: I know but.. 

Me: Why baby? Did anyone say anything to you today at school?

Tara: They were talking about the dance and how they went shopping with their dads for the dress. I felt..left out... I wanted to tell them about my father too. Yet, I'm not sure who he is..

Me: Baby, *pause. Looked at her sad face* I guess, I can tell you who's your father. Come here, sit. This is a story about how I met your father.

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I met your father wayyy early in our life but we were too young to know what love means. I was 5 and he was 6 years old. We went to the same kindergarten and became best friends. Your father was a very sweet boy. He would tell me how cute my ponytail looks and always play with me. I don't remember everything because I was too young but I remembered his name, 'Oliver'. 

My family needed to move to another state as my father got a promotion in his company. We moved to New York for Dallas. My dad's job requires moving around every two-three years. One day, at the age of 15, I told my mother (your grandma) that I wanted to be at the same school. I'm sick of traveling and never have any real friends. Thus, my parents did what other parents would do, sent me away to a boarding school. My dad was someone important to his company so we live a comfortable life. He sent me to a private school. That school was a semi-boarding school because only some of the students stay at the hostel. Believe it or not, most of the ones that stay at the hostel have parents who travel a lot too. I guess, even rich people want to get rid of their only child that easy.

I became the new kid with no taste in fashion. I wear zero branded things which made me the poorest kid at school. I could afford most of the brands but I don't prefer to have those. I find comfort in writing, singing, and sometimes, dancing. I don't find the excitement in shopping and possessing too many things. It would be hard to move. I wear comfortable outfits and the rest that seems cute. Yet, I failed the first impression. 

No one wants to be associated with the poor kid so for the first couple of months there, I didn't have any friend. I was miserable. I told my parents about it, instead of rushing here to comfort me or back me up, they sent me a bunch of branded outfits and accessories. They made some calls so I got my own room with extra closet space. I was also bullied for 'looking too cheap' by a group of girls. They would do mock me whenever they saw me in the hallway. They also sabotage my locker with dustbin liquid, someone's pee, and more horrible things. They hired one of the dummies to do it. Even the teachers couldn't do anything because their parents spent tons of money on the school. 

I endured two months of suffering until one day I decided to stand up for myself.

I read the rules and regulations to the smallest details. 

I cut my skirt shorter but still within the rules, I wear thick eyeliner like Amy Winfrey, I paired with the long leather boots. I used the accessories my parents sent me. Anything in black or pink. I dyed my hair to black from my natural blonde. I also cut it short with a bang. I put on some fierce piercing (clip earings).

The moment I stepped into the hallway, all eyes were on me. As I opened my locker, rotten milk flow out from it. Instead of my usual cry and running to toilet scenario, I LAUGH MY ASS OFF! I saw the girls coming and I said, IS THIS THE BEST YOU GOT??! I picked some of those milk with my bare hands and throw it at them. At those cute gucci shoes and prada skirt. I grabbed the leader's collar, i whispered at her right ear, "I promise you that the next time you do shits like this again to my locker, you will find those cute shoes, bags and everything you ever have, burn and melt in from of your eyes."

She said, "That's impossible! You live here, *laughs* my things are nowhere near school."

I smirked (that looks kinda nasty and creepy), "You really want to risk it? Here's something *shows here cute PE shoes she kept in her locker*. " I soak it into the rotten milk while she screams. I throw it at her face. Everyone cheers!! 

That's how I stop being bullied by those mean girls. 

Obviously, the principal called me to his office.

Mr Knox: You can't do that to another student.

Me: But she can do that? Let me show you significant proof that she did it. *shows the footage of the mean girl and the guy she hired to wrack my locker* Yeah, I put a mini camera in and outside my locker because the school cameras just 'not working' whenever shit happens to me. I know that her father pays you good money so, what do you think he would say if i leak this footage to the internet?

You seriously think I didn't think it through? After this, no one can take me for granted or I would make more damage not just to the school but also the image to the public. *smirk

I wouldn't need to be this evil and threaten everyone if you could just stand up for me. 

Now, do we get a deal?

Mr Knox: I,, I can make things work with what you offer.. I don't see other choice..

Me: Well, one more thing, those mean girls need to get something for breaking the rules. I expect community service for the whole month. 

Mr Knox: Erm, I mean-

Me: The footage will be launch in a few minutes if you say no. 

Mr Knox: Community service sounds amazing! Now, can I have the footage?

Me: Do you think I'm that naive?? I'm holding it. You can trust me. Unlike you, I keep my promises to keep myself SAFE. I paid the fees just like everyone else. My dad even became one of your generous donators because he wants me to have the best facilities but you guys just left me out cold. Ignore those bullies... So, sir, before I expose more corruption of this school, you better DO YOUR JOB better.

I left the principal office with style.

I hate being mean and evil but I knew that I needed to be someone else just to save myself. 

Well honey, that's how I survived those years in school and eventually made a move to know your father. Without backing myself up, I wouldn't stay and know your father.

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What do you guys think? I came up with a back story before I reveal the male leads. 

I wish I could get back to the people who bullied me in high school.. I guess I can never redeem myself in that way anymore. Being successful and ignoring their existence are the two things I'm doing. 

I'm sorry 16-17 years old self.. We can totally do better!!