'You're enough'

 

A few minutes ago a friend wanted to quit her medicine journey. She's a doctor in the making. 

It kinda gets to me in a way. I never wanted to be a pharmacist in the first place. I always wanted to be a writer and study literature. Maybe I could be the only child who teaches like my parents did. Then, I saw how my dad see medicine as 'the right choice'. The next thing I know, I signed up for MARA student loan and 4 years of my life studying drugs to be a pharmacist. 

To ease myself, I tried to go on with it. At least now, after I finish my compulsory posting (PRP, FRP), I have a chance to do something else. I mean, maybe find research to join and become a scientist. Who knows. By that time, I get more chances to redeem myself to find what I really want to do. 

I could try to apply for a job overseas. 

Well, that's not the point for today.

It all began because of the fact we want to fulfill our parent's wishes. 

'You're enough'

Those words never come out from asian-tough-love parenting. 

Who can you actually blame? 

Your parents want what's best for you while you just want to make your parents proud of you or prove that you're an obedient child. 

Studying medicines are, very tough. Especially for someone who doesn't have the passion, to begin with. I saw my friends got depressed along the way. Studying was not the main cause for them but it made it harder to cope. Studying seems to be the cause for other friends. They needed to seek proper help to function better. 

Eventually, you graduated. I graduated. Right now anxiously waiting for PRP placement. Knowing that the next year will be the hardest year for most pharmacists. 

That one year will determine your path in the future. 

My point is, life shouldn't be full of regrets and 'what if'. It should be easier than this but no. Nothing great comes out of a smooth sailing journey. 

This is tough but needs to be heard. 

You can't dwell in the past. Those 4 years had finished. Now, go through the rough storm for the next couple of years. Even if you decided to quit, at least you have a story to tell.