Winter Formal Dance. It was the first formal dance that I went. It was announced right after new year's break. Well, that and also a singing competition. In conjunction of Oliver's 17th birthday, his parents were the biggest sponsor for the dance so the winner of the singing competition wins a weekend date with Oliver and becomes his date for the dance. The terms to join the competition, you must obey this 3 things;
- you wear eyeliner every day
- good at sketching
- birthday within March
Oliver puts a huge effort to find me. I was really excited about the competition at first... Until your Aunt Lily says some important things..
L: I know you are excited about this but what if, you're not as he expects you to be?
B: I guess, he can say that to my face that he doesn't want me. I'm not half that bad..am I?
L: Ok, let say you did WIN the competition and he accepts you for yourself, are you sure you want to be the girlfriend of one of the most popular boys in school?
B: I did not think of that..
L: Think about how you need to care about your 'image' because he really cares about his image. Those abs existed to be seen. It ain't hiding just special for girlfriend. Besides, you only like him because he's hot. You barely know this guy. He could be a jerk or a control freak.
B: You're right..
Due to a lot of submissions on the competition, they announced that only the top 10 will perform in front of Oliver and it will be on stage, in front of everyone else.
Lily got me reluctant to join the competition but I did submit the application before talking to Lily. I guess, my passion for singing really screaming! I just wanted to prove that I can actually sing. My application was accepted for the audition. I went for it!
The day of the audition.
The audition was held for 3 days straight because the number of girls that got accepted into the competition was bizarre! Maybe Oliver just doesn't want to miss anyone who might be the Mystery girl. I got into the second day. I was the last competitor of the day too. Urgh..
As I stepped inside the room, I saw the evaluators, Sebastian Moy, Rebecca (she's a singer. she has her own albums.) and our music teacher, Miss Granger.
Seb: Hi! Tell us your name and birthday.
Beth: I'm Beth, my birthday is on 7th March.
Rebecca: For real? We heard enough of 7th March.
Beth: I'm just here to sing.
Miss: Ignore her, what will you be singing today?
Beth: Invisible by Yuna.
Seb: Oh, we will be recording your audition today.
*Beth just nodded.
Music plays.
Beth started singing. She sings as if she's singing for her granny.. (Granny was the only one who listens to her singing. She would request songs from Beth.)
*song finish*
Seb and Miss Granger clapped.
Rebecca: Not bad.
Beth: I know this will sound weird but I withdraw from this competition. Thank you for listening ;)
I just ran out of the room because I felt overwhelmed. (Mom, why do you cry?) Baby, the last time I sing in front of people was when I was singing for my Granny on her death bed.... It was the same song. It was significant for her because she always encourage me to sing songs that express my emotions.
As I end my singing, I just know that being popular is not what I want. I love being in the shadow, being invincible even from the guy that I like. It's true what Lily said, I barely know this guy. Why am I exposing myself now when from the start, I hide.
I told Lily about the audition and how I bailed. I would love to be with Oliver but not like this.. He deserves someone who's in it for ALL of it! The popularity, the reputation also want to care for his feelings.
He deserves better. Mystery girl is just a character I created..for..fun...
A week before the dance, they held the top 10 girls. None of them looked like me. All of them have beautiful hair, wears a decent amount of eyeliner. I'm not pretty and sadly, I realize it. I was hiding my true self behind a strong personality. It's easier.. I'm sorry honey, I'm not a good example for you.. (Mom, you do just fine! I'll still love you even if you keep that thick black crayon on your eyes! *smooch)
The winner was announced! It was Jennifer, she's blonde, tall, plays bass. Moreover, she also shares the same birthday! It's legit. They checked multiple times tho.
I was walking out the hall because I didn't want to see Oliver held her hands or any gesture, it could have been me but I already choose otherwise. I bumped into Sebastian.
Beth: Oh, so sorry.
Seb: That's fine. Wait, Beth, right?
Beth: Yeah. We share some classes together. Why am I saying this? I gotta go.
Seb: Hey, hold up. You auditioned and bailed, that's how I recognise you.
Beth: It was just for fun. Can I go now?
Seb: I erm, can I tell you something?
Beth: Can it wait? I really have someplace to be.
Seb: Actually, I bump into you on purpose. I had been ... well ... watching you since you audition.
Beth: Stalker alert. *started to walk away
Seb: *follows Beth* Wait! I ... I wanted to ask you out!
Beth: What makes you think I'll say yes?
Seb: I want to get to know you better. I've always known you're interesting.. I have a crush on you since.. *his face started to turn red* Mr Knox introduced you in our first period that day. I have wanted to talk to you ever since but, I can't seem to find you after class. (it's true because I ate lunch in the ladies room as no one welcomes me to any table in the cafe) When you started wearing 'this'-
Beth: Do you have a problem with how I look now??
Seb: No, no, no.. I find it, appealing. Unique! I saw you standing up for yourself in front of those girls. I just never have an excuse to talk to you. But now, I have! I find you very charming in your own way. Let me buy you dinner. That's all I'm asking.
Beth: I'll only go out if you come invite me with a limousine.
Seb: DONE! Friday night! I'll pick you up at 8! You can't take this back!! See you soon!!
He just rush away and left me in complete regret.. I was just joking.. Sometimes I forget how rich these kids are..
I just agreed to be on a date with one of the pretty boys right after I turned down a chance with his brother..
So, that's how I got a date with Sebastian Moy instead of Oliver Moy.
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