Assalamualaykum Alhamdulillah

Well, i will be gone to school in a few more minutes. I had a lot in mind.

Currently i am listening to disturbing deep web stories. I knew about deep web this year. Well, i know that it contains dangerous stuffs. I just never thought it would be so horrified. Seriously! Have a peek on the stories in YouTube.

You will realize how dangerous technology can be. How cruel human can act and how much people ENJOY all the disgusting stuffs....

Killing for fun. Abusing kids. ETC ... honestly, why this kinda web have to exist in the first place...

Looking through times, i guess living in old days can be pretty safe. I know series killers and psychopaths exist but at least the cruel things are not showed to the world. Urgh... i hope i will never have to come across anything that is link to Deep Web.

Ok let's look at the other side on my story.

I just finished my trial examination. That nigh, i made a decision to do something stupid. That i regret about it till now. What was it about? Let's just say that i had confessed to a 14 years old junior. He is near to perfect. Sporty and cute. Since then, i was so shy to meet him. I mean, hello, i am in my senior years but i confessed to a boy. Like WHAT! He did not became my boy friend or what so ever, just, i told him to be like my brother. No biggie. Just between us. Pffft!

Next,
Yesterday i watched about Muslim in the West side of the world. What i can conclude. When they saw hijabis, they'll be like, "why do you where that? Do you born with that? Do you wear it at home? Don't you feel hot?" Citizens get pretty creative with their weird questions.

If you see a man hitting his wife, who is wearing a hijab and talking in Arabic language, what do you do? Well, AreWeFamouseNow had done an experiment about it. The conclusion was, no one cares. Except for one white guy who stood up for that lady. While if you see a man hitting his wife or any woman who is not wearing hijab and covers, most of the people will stood up for them. My question is...

What makes us different? We are ladies. Own appearance can be different but looking like everyone else can be deceiving. Islam came with differences, in the end of dunya, Islam will turn into different and rare again. That is what the Prophet please be peace upon him, said.

One more wrong perception to all sisters... Wearing Hijab is crucial and a must! You read the Quran, search for surah Nur. Study that surah. You will learn about many laws that Allah had present to us.

It is not about waiting for the right time and bla bla bla... People, death is a huge MYSTERY. You can't simple be so damn sure that in the next minute you are definitely, 100% will be alive. If you are still alive, Allah is giving you the opportunity to repent to Him.

I can blab about this for hours but it will not change you unless you change yourself. It is okay to start with a baby step.

Imam Syafie said, we will always face changes in our life. Nothing will be the same. Either we are moving forward or backwards. Going to the right road or not.

Change the topic. My personal life?

Urm...i am still not sure about any of it. Maybe next time.

My country?

Have you heard of Malaysia?

Look up through Google. Alhamdulillah today is our Independent Day! Happy 58 years old Malaysia. Further comments? Can be very sensitive... i am not expert in politic but i have a very wide point of view about nowadays' politic.

I just pray for the best and focus on my studies. Seriously... Politic issues can be very annoying... You don't have the power of speech in you. So....better stay silent and act deaf...

Last advice..

Dear readers, based on the Quran, if you ever feel sad, express everything to God (Allah). Then advise people to live a positive life. And always ALWAYS...husnozhon towards Allah. Good thoughts.

People who stay patient (sabr) is someone who is worth being congratulate by Allah.

Remember, dunya are only temporary. When you are willing to give something that you love very much to someone because they deserve a lot more, is a sign you are not loving dunya so much. :)

InshaaAllah together we make a change. Repent. Pray.

Ok thank you for reading till the end. Assalamualaykum.

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Assalamualaykum

Hey. How are you? It is good to know that you guys are feeling fine. Me? I am preparing my gear for an important examination. My trial exam is just around the corner. 10 August. Pray for me yaaa.

When you want to know the meaning of words, you look up in the dictionary, right? You google up. You LOOK for a definition. But, do you ever make your own definition based on what you feel or look or whatever, as long as it is not from any books or website.

How do you define happiness? Sadness? Friendship? Love?Compassion?

Everything is actually based on what you feel all along. Let me give you guys some of my definition.

Love, a feeling that make you care about someone or something no matter what they had done to you or what their history look like.

Friendship, a relationship with organisms no matter it is human or plant or animal, as long as it is a living thing that you can see talk touch and that organisms accepts you for all your flaws and never want you to change your true self.

Brave means, go ahead and never look back.

There are tons of definitions. For me, my own, YOUR OWN, definition matter the most. Why? It is because you are feeling it. The dictionary is just a bullshit to make everyone to be robot.

In this world, changing is normal. The weather change everyday. Sometime it is windy and sunny sometime it is sunny and dry. It is the nature. Human do change but there are things that are always there. Like, even though it is raining, the sun is still there. You see that now is day, but that does not mean the moon disappears. Your definitions, maybe you have different structure of sentences but the meaning is actually similar to other in many ways. Something that is same is ALWAYS there where it cannot be change. Nature proves it.

That 'something' is the IDENTITY. If you cannot accept that 'something' in someone, don't expect someone to give a damn about you.

Sometime, you just need someone to get your 'something' to make you care about them. At least they try to accept it. They may complaint but they never want you to change it.

How to know what is your 'something'? If you change it, you will be a whole new person. Example, i used to laugh everyday, suddenly one day i stop laughing, people will look at me as i had changed. I have weird attitudes that sometime annoyed people, when i stop being annoying, the person who cares, will asked me why.

People that care about you is the only person who realise your change. If that person you thought care about you but they want you to change your something, they are lying. I mean, they actually never care. All they care is themselves. They are the selfish ones.


The lesson of the day, be yourself. Don't let others tell you what you have to be. Changing is normal. You will change eventually. All you need is love towards yourself. Find your own identity. Be someone independent.

Ok, wish me luck. Forgive me if i said anything that offend you. Thank you for reading. Love you'll. xoxoxo