I decided to wait for Sebastian at the corner of the hall where no one is seating there. I enjoy being alone, it helps with the anxiety. I develop mild anxiety due to the bullying. I stop taking the meds as I don't have any attacks for more than 3 months now. I usually have Lily to ease up my anxiousness. Now, Lily is busy with her new boyfriend and I had no other friends so I prefer sitting at the corner while scrolling down Instagram.
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"Where you are? We're leaving for the afterparty at my house. Meet me near the exit."
"Okay, be there in 5." More parties? I don't even drink. Is this the first challenge as Sebastian's girlfriend? I groan as I stood up.
I could see Sebastian is waiting for me. His smile beams as soon as he saw me.
"Hey handsome, I thought you had left me."
"Never. Let's go!" He pulls my left wrist forward as he walks to the limousine that's waiting at the main entrance.
"Where do you live?" I'm curious about it since he never told me anything about his house.
"You'll get there in 20 minutes."
"I have something I need to tell you," I raise my voice a little. Sebastian puts away his phone and turns his attention to me.
"I want to be with you but *a pause* I don't want people at school to know it. I hope you respect my request." I pour my heart out. I avoid looking into his eyes that could draw a distressing sight.
Instead, he let out a huge sigh of relief. His hand cupped my cheek and leaned down close. I couldn't look away. His face is so close I could feel his breath. I shut my eyes as tight as possible, denying to face him. Gently he rests his forehead against mine.
"I had only known you for less than a month in person but you're so addictive. You're like ecstasy to my heart. I would do, ANYTHING for you as long as you stay." The genuine earnestness in his voice makes me smile. I could feel his face moving close. His warm lips touch my upper lip. Just a smooch. The warmth of his touch made me succumb, demanding more than just a smooch.
I wove my fingers into his hair and he hummed in approval. He wraps his fingers at the back of my neck as he tilts his head. Surprisingly our movement compliments each other.
I break apart from his kiss to gasp for air. Both of us are panting. He smiles, underneath the smile I could see a little pain because he knows he needs to control himself.
"We're here," Steve announced as we enter the main gate to a huge mansion.
My eyes were transfixed to the beautiful reflection of the moon in the midnight sky the moment I step out of the car. Loud music play at the back which reminded me of the party that I'm about to go to.
I grab Sebastian to the side, I pull his shoulder hard enough, he leans on his right side. I whisper vaguely, "Can I not go to the party? I'll wait in your room instead. err.. I mean ... the guest room.." My head spinning as I'm not sure if he gets my intention.
"I can stay with you, *his fingers hooked my chin* if that's what you want." My face overheated with his gesture.
"No..no..Oliver needs you tonight." I stutter as I nervously looked away.
"He wouldn't miss me. He would be busy partying, besides it's his birthday, not mine. We can have our own little party by ourselves." Grinning nefariously he simultaneously grasps my waist upwards. I let out a small scream before I shield my mouth with both of my palms. My heart skips a beat. (Is it happening tonight? Am I ready?)
"No!" I pushed his herculean chest. My hands are shaking against his sturdy physique.
"I understand. Let me show you my room." Sebastian faces the front. I notice he sounded distressed. I started biting my nails. I only do it when I'm nervous.
Sebastian's room
His room is huge and spacey. There's a bass at the corner of the room. The room looks clean and tidy for a man's space.
"I had some things that Layla left, it's in that box. You can use anything you need. I'll be at the pool house for the party. If you need anything, you can push this button right next to the dresser, one of the maids will assist. I will sleep in the guest room tonight so you wouldn't be interrupted." Just like that he closes the door behind him. Leaving me alone, again.
I could fathom the frustration he's feeling. I push him away. We may share the same age but his lifestyle and expectations lay beyond mine. I'm still a maiden. I would like to 'do it' with Sebastian however I just knew him. I don't even know his middle name, his favorite colour or if he has any allergies.
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POV Sebastian
Am I not enough for her? Does she not want me? Sebastian conceals the devastation deep inside his heart. He decided to drown himself with alcohol the whole night to take his mind off Beth. He totally forgets the fact Beth is still a virgin out of everything else he did remember in detail about her. He may pay attention to how she runs her hand through her hair as she's feeling shy, the blazing crimson ears each time he kisses her, the way she walks gracely but still stumbles. He chuckles by himself.
The pain lingers back at the back of his head.
He storms out to the pool house. He deserves a break from the tension. At least. that's what he thought the best. Abandon Beth in his room like a hostage, even offers Beth the things Layla left instead of staying and try to understand.
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I wipe off the makeup, undone the dress, folds it neatly. I reach for the bathrobe which hangs close to the dresser. She's amazed by the view from the balcony. She unlocks the door and finds herself looking up at the sky.
The atmosphere during a moonlit night is reigned by calmness and quietness if we walk through the countryside, which is away from humdrum, noise and clamour of cities. Moreover, the cool air and the cool beams of the moon, kissing each and every object of nature, present a charming sight.
She's easily caught in her own thought whenever she is stunned by the nature unnoticed by a figure watching her from downstairs.
I get back inside, freshen up before slipping into the comforter to sleep. I wear Sebastian's t-shirt and his boxer as pajamas.
BANG! BANG! BANG!
I was awake by the loud bang on the door.
"Who is it?" Slowly I twist the knob and take a peek outside.
It is Sebastian, drunk Sebastian.
I let him in. He tumbles onto me causes me to be imbalanced, thank God I manage to push him outwards gaining some stability. I drag Sebastian to his bed. He is indeed wasted.
"Hey you!" he mumbles angrily. "Why don't you want me..." Now he starts sobbing and whining. "Other girls would be dying to be with me..but you...I want you....." more tears run down his cheeks, he covers his eyes with his forearm.
I'm not sure what I should do.
"Should I call the maid?"
I choose to tug in Sebastian as soon as he passed out. He did.
I unbutton his vest, took off his shoes and socks, and layout the comforter on top of him. I lay next to him. I stare at his good-looking face, the face that robs girls' hearts. I saw the smiling lines, his freckles, those uneven brows, also the seductive round-shaped lips. I'm not sure how many girls did he kissed before me, it really paid off, he's such an exquisite kisser.
Suddenly his forehead furrowed into an agonized frown.
"He must be tired.." I brush my fingers through his hair, hoping it could ease the nightmare. The wrinkles of distress stretches, he's calm now.
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