Here out about the story of my life. Yupe, i hope to inspire. Maybe give you guys second thought about being 'too urban'.
I live in city for as long as i can remember. I grow up with all kind of wealth. I don't know the feeling of being poor. I am a Moslem but i grow up with Westerner lifestyle. I know nothing about sholat, Quran and sunnah. I have no idea about literally EVERYTHING about my own religion.
I live with my mum,dad and a brother. He is about, 10 years older than me.
On weekends we go shopping. I always see beggars outside the mall but my mum nor dad never hand any dollar to them.
Every Friday, i always see the mosque is always pack with all the guys and everyday i always heard a call for prayers but i never know what religion it is. How sad i life was back there. I never see my family members pray. Once i asked my mum, why she is wearing the hijjab, she said it is for fashion.
My parents never mind if my brother bring any girl into his room. They never mind if i take any boys into my room. At first, they kinda mind but when i aged 16, they don't care about it. I got my first kiss during my 15th birthday. But i was so scared of sex. Honestly. It is just too nasty. But in the late 17, i did it. Yupe, i regret that very moment as i wake up the next day. Because that day i was too drunk.
It continue until i get study aboard.
As i registered, someone tap my shoulder. Her name is Balqis. She was so excited to see me. So i respond with a smile. She said that she is my roommate. She is the best roommate ever. We made rules together, but she only have one rule, do not bring any boys into our room. At first i thought she is being ridiculous about it but i agreed.
As you guys can guess well, she is the reason i realize about being a true Moslem.
Everyday i see her praying, recite the Holy Quran and she plays all the zikir and the du'a. I feel so calm and protected. One day, she asked my full name. I said, Mardina binti Jamal. She was shocked to know that my name had 'binti' in my name. Then she cried and hugged me. I was so confuse that time. She apologize so much about why she never notice about it before. It made me felt more confused. I said that it's no biggie.
Then she looked at me in the eye and said, are you a Moslem? I just shocked my head. Then she said, do you practice your religion, our religion? I told her that i don't understand what she mean.
She explain to me about being a Moslem. She practically told me EVERYTHING that i need to know. Subhanallah. It was a wake up call. I never know about any of it.
Alhamdulillah, Allah loves me so He send Balqis to take me by my hand to the right path of life.
At first, it was hard. I mean, so hard! I must stop taking alcohol, quit smoking, no more touching guys, and etc. But Balqis never give up, she keep on giving me spirits. I lost ALL OF MY FRIENDS because i stop partying and hanging out with them. I only have Balqis. I cried a lot. I thought God was being unfair because making my life miserable. I gave up and there is one time i thought of killing myself. true story but, Balqis stopped me before i could stab myself and i got her wounded. That was the time i realize how she is not giving up on me. And that was the time, i don't want to give up on myself.
Balqis set me with new friend. People who are willing to guide me even i am dirty before this. They never judge me. They are patient about me. They teach me many new things. I feel to bless. By that time, i can feel the sweetness of Iman.
I start to wear Hijjab. Balqis said, i can start to make changes one by one as long as i keep it on.
We sholat together, she teach me how to read Quran, she always tell me about all the Sunnah that she know and tell me stories about Rasulullah and the Prophet before.
As i when back home, i family was so shocked about my changes. Long story short, i started to bring my family into the right path too. Alhamdulillah even it is not easy but at least i managed to make them join me. There was a point where my family wanted to throw me out of the family because they say, i am being hypocrite and stuff. You know what i mean. Let me give an d example, i used to join my dad drink, now, i refuse that tell them that is a big sin. They felt humiliated. I always remind them that it is not too late to change.
Yeah, it is not too late to change people.
It is hard to be nice, different. But Allah already said, different people is the lucky one. Why we need to fell ashamed about being a Moslem? It is the purest religion.. It cover every aspect of our life. It is the most complete and oldest religion. Adam and Eve were Moslems. But by that time it was not called as Islam yet. Maybe there was another name for that.
Why we need to doubt when there is so much proof that Islam is a true religion. We are not offending any other religion, but it is up to one's to choose. Islam is not a force religion. Maybe there are many things that we need to obey but if that is for our own benefit so, i don't see that as a harm.
Oh sorry, continue to my stories. It took years to convince them about Islam.
There is always a moment that they wanna give up and they wanna quit being a Moslem, That time, i felt do hopeless. That night, i dreamed a guy approach me and told me not to give up and smile before i woke up. Alhamdulillah i did not give up. I recite suroh taubah and i never realize that my reading actually touched my family's heart. that was the beginning of them in the right path. I was so happy that i thanked Allah for giving them a chance.
Now, here i am with my family. My brother got married with Balqis, i never thought that could happen at first but they said it was love at first sight. I am happy for them even it is weird to have Balqis as your sister in law. Hurm, but at least i know that my brother is under a good care.
I am still searching for myself.
Balqis and I graduated in the same here but different coarse. Here we are. Alhamdulillah, in the right path.
They say, no pain, no gain, right? To taste the sweetness our Iman you have to taste the sour of life.
This world is a prison for Sholeh people but heaven for non Moslems.
I had faced the live as a blind heart people, i know how hard it is to change. I felt it. But, Alhamdulillah i managed to change. I am still improving myself. Just like others.
I am telling my story to inspire. I hope i do inspire any soul that is reading.
Assalamualaykum, forgive me if anyone felt offended with this story. May Allah bless you guys. With that i end today's article.
Remember, there is still a light of hope in each and every of your soul. Who search for it, will see how beautiful life is. You just need to find it. Nothing come by itself.
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