Dear Nico

Assalamualaikum!

So u asked me to think then talk. so i did it! it took a whole day to think about it.so i end up writing everything on papers. its kinda long but that is what that pop into my mind and what i think is suitable for me to say.so this is what i wrote:

i already think about what you said and what is going on. i try to remember everything and yet, i don't get it. i don't understand about what is going on because it happen so sudden. did i do anything wrong? are you mad at me? am i worsting the situation?

i flash back from the first time i met you. i think about everything that you ever said to me. i try to think hard about our conversation yesterday. what i remember, this is the second time you act strictly to me. yesterday you were so happy and laugh a lot.then i get angry but for me its not serious. you apologize but i tease you. then you want to back off. i just reply what i had kept for a long time. realize is a song. i don't know if you get it.

when you said that you want me to have a better life, i was so shock! are you saying that you are making my life miserable? if you thought that, you are wrong! think back, i never said that you are a burden to me. if you are a burden, i wouldn't be nice to you. nobody asked me to be your friend, me, myself is eager to know you.

it took half day for me to think what to say. i decided to apologize if i hurt you. we are just friend (kawan). i already mess everything before. i try my best to do things right.maybe i'm not good enough. remember you said, aku x layak jadi bestie kau. actually, aku(me) yang x layak jadi bestie kau. i'm the one always cause so much problem. when i'm with you, i'm not really myself. me? i am a crazy person that always causes so much trouble.

at school,i always makes jokes and always keep my friends happy and they always make me happy.for me, friends always have fun and makes us happy. we share many things together because we need each other.

i am happy being your buddy. i always try to make you happy but sometime i am not sporting enough. i am a shy girl. i act crazy but deep inside, i am kinda sensitive. for me knowing you is great because you are interesting and i never met someone like you. but i don't know what you think of me.

i have this bad habit. i like to judge people and make conclusion about them. once i judge you which piss you off. i'm sorry but most people always as i judge. i am different but that makes me feel awesome and cool.

sorry for not being a great friend. i never show you who i really am. i always act crazy and cause lots of trouble. i am not someone you want to be friend with. you don't need me anymore. you got tons of other friends that always care about you.

you had been a great friend. thanks for everything and for being there for me. good luck in your life. i bet you gut a bright future. this is the last song for you.

Realize-Colbie Caillat

this time, for me you are someone that i used to know and the one that got away. (last joke from me)