jerk!

im being a jerk to let go one of the precious friend. -sob,sob- im just being honest. im tired of crying because of you. i know that im not being a great friend and you deserve better. i already go through so many rejection. i know that felt hurt and i can over come it. but loosing someone you care so damn much is like killing yourself.

i can only pray that we become friend back but i know if that happen we will not be that close. -frustration-

but everything will come with price. maybe we will have great future one day. big thing come with big sacrifice, right? maybe i found mine.
i knew you were trouble #np

he said i judge his feelings. i don't deserve a friend like him. he need time to change.

im i being a damn egoist? i mean, he is my bestie. i cannot be in love with him. i don't want our relationship as friend end as ex. never! but you get it wrong. maybe everything is my fault. i judge you before i know the truth. but how can i know the truth if you never want to share. i just said what i know.

sorry..i have no rights to judge you. im being a damn jerk!