Life is ...

Assalamualaykum, Alhamdulillah

Now i am having a break for Chinese New Year event i am not celebrating CNY. My school take about 7 days of holidays. Next Wednesday, new form 4 intake will register and become the new member of my batch. To be honest, i don't feel excited or anything because i am just to busy thinking about myself and my problems. This month, i am starting to be selfish.

I am learning to be a senior with great responsibilities! Being a prefect is not easy. People look up at you. They observe each and every one of your step. They judge and talk about all of your actions. Good or bad. They either praise or mock. Its up to you (me) to decide.

I am someone who always do crazy stuff and sometime i do things that gain others attention. Sometime i appear on stage to give out speech. Sometime i appear as an athlete.

Seniors and teacher know me for some reason. Either as an athlete or debater or a minor student. The thing is, they know me.

After 3 years studying in the same school, I know about being independent. I know about handling all the minor messy stuffs. I had been through a lot before this. But, this year is a such a new revolution. A whole new world. A world where people already start to have new impression about you.

And you are introduce with brand new subjects. Physic, Add Math, Mod Math, Chemistry . With brand new format for each subject. For Allah's sake, you got new classmates.

Most of things are just so new and you really need a lot of pushing and spirit to catch up with everything. By the time you are struggling, you feel like 24 hours a day in 7days in 5 weeks for 12 months is actually, a short journey and the hours should be double up. Because you need more time to understand and complete all the extra exercises to improve. But, you are just too tired. Because in all of the moment, you are not actually studying the whole time but you also must join some extra co-curriculum activities too. Side activities like sports and attending clubs.

As you get some extra time, i am sure you prefer to sleep cause that is what i do. Sleep is the best thing i do. Because for awhile, i am not thinking and i have no stress.

Life is actually beautiful. We must take a really good look inside our life. In order to see the beautiful life, we must stop being sad and look at the bright side. Of course having problems and obstacles are stressful and etc but that are actually the reason our life have pattern. We learn from our mistakes. We live to learn.

Everything happen for reason. Allah wants to test us because He loves us. Because He want us to realize our mistakes. He wants us to learn the truth. He wants us to be a better person. He wants to correct our reaction and thinking skills. Once i heard, if Allah loves us, He will give us knowledges. He wants us to be in the right path.

Yeah, we feel down. We feel sad. Think, why Allah create all of that feelings? He wants us to realize what we had forgot. Maybe we forgot Him? Or His Prophet. Or the rules and regulations that we must obey.

Sometime, after being so comfortable receiving orders and knowing that we are not the one must answer all the teacher's questions, we tend to act relax and take things for granted. We never felt guilty nor worry. We so as we please.

But now, Allah puts me in a new place. Being the person who orders. You know what i mean now? Now i am the person who worries a lot because i have to answer and stuff like that.

Can you imagine how shock i am? How i try to go with the flow. To be someone not me. But someone who can show good examples and be a good leader.

I must sacrifice so much this year.

I must be stronger.

I must remind other about life as much as i must remind myself.

I must be a chick who never know the meaning of giving up. Insha Allah.

Life is magnificent but we must look around, in, out, up and down of life in order to actually realize about it.

As long as you have Allah with you, Insha Allah, life will be easier.

Wassalam.