After two months in silent

Assalamualaykum, Alhamdulillah

Thank you to Allah because giving me another chance to update my blog. It had been awhile since the latest post because i was in school for the past 2 months. I had my examinations and studies and bla bla bla.

I had some issues going on but most of them i could handle smoothly but some of the were kinda complicated. Still, praise to Allah, i am still alive and moving on.

Well, i just completed the how i met your mother's series. I just watched the last episode. And i couldn't deny that i cried. The feelings mixed! Happy, sad and excited! Everything happen in the same time!

I can feel the love. The important of friendship. The sadness and so much! I don't know if i am being too emotional or whatever the thing is, i kinda feel something. I feel like, a wake up call. Realizing how fast time flies and we have to take actions.

Along the way, we will face so much challenges and we suffer. We feel like giving up but some how, we still manage to stand up no matter how far we fall. We just, have to stand up no matter what happen.

I had this problem. Well, it is about someone that i know and someone that i care so much! After my best friends, he is someone i take seriously. For me, i am trying my best to rethink about our relationship. It is actually simple but i tend to make it complicated. I just, i just want things to be right.

It had been awhile for me to rethink about everything in spite what had happen and what i had watched. I know that i have to make a good decision.

I am still stuck with my own decision because it is not easy to decide. There is too much if's and how's.

From what i had watched, i feel like not giving up and we see what will happen in the future. If Allah planned for us being stick together as close as we are now, then, maybe, that is what is happening. But, some part of me think that, maybe being close is a challenge from Allah.

Maybe, Allah wants us to split by ourselves. Seek for the truth and what is right. It is hard to push him away.

If being with him is forbidden, i pray to Allah to separate us in a good way and let both of us to His bless.

I don't take him more than a brother. Because he is the one giving me advises and showing me how to be strong in life. It is like, a guardian. But, if being with him is wrong, then, we should move to the right way.

They say, a simple care can make us fall in love, yeah, that is what i am scared of. I am scared if being close to him, actually making me and Allah apart.

It gets harder as i know things about him that other people don't. Or, i know things that he kinda hide from me but, now i know. Things that....actually makes me uncomfortable in the first place. For me, that is one of the complicated part. It is suppose to be simple. I suppose to say positive and live like i never knew anything. Act normal. But, it is hard to push something gigantic aside.

It had been about a month this thing is hanging....

Along this two months, i learn so much. Friendship. Hardworking. Spirits. To conclude everything, i learn how important for us to keep ahead and never turn a round. I learn to appreciate more. I learn to be more caring. And be positive.

Life gets hard but actually what is hard now is actually nothing compare what is hard in the future.

I hope to inspire and i hope to have any feedback. I am so confuse and I am hoping for your prayers and supports.

May Allah bless you guys. Wassalamu.