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Assalamualaykum and hi

It has been awhile since anything from me. I was so occupy with my studies. Before i'll start my story, i just wanted to tell you guys that i just finished my matriculation. Hopefully if my result is good then i could proceed with my degree. InshaaAllah

OK, tall..

A guy who is tall is enough to catch my attention. I know that i am not the only girl who thinks tall guys is attractive. At least that guy must at least taller than i am. I am just average height, 157cm like that. Yeah i realize how short and cute i am.

Well, i am going to tell you guys about my crushes during my matriculation life. Not much but there are a few guys. I literally just know their name and class. Not much about them. Honesty, even their sir name i dunno. I literally just love to see them. Thats all. It never occur to me that im going to end up with any one of them. I mean, just a thought but never serious.

First sem,

At first i still have (had) a boyfriend until a few weeks after that. He crushed my heart so I was in break up mood. You know with all the crying and moody and etc. As i started to heal, i know that dating again in this period is a mistake so i just prefer to have at least an eye candy. Just someone who i thinks i want to look. A reason to at least still like a guy.

Then i saw this guy in my lecture hall. He looked like a decent guy. I think i looked at him so much and i think he actually realize that i always look at him. Then i followed him in instagram. Thats all i guess. I mean there are drama in it. Here is the juicy story of it.

Well, he actually found out that i like him from some girl. Then i dunno what she told him, but it creeps him about me. I actually wished him luck for our first final exam but he got weird by how on earth i got his number. We got this group chat, lecture hall group. I only wished him best of luck. Is that so weird? I never flirt. I never act weird at him.

Then i discover WHO actually told him. After awhile, i understand how complicated and how reasonable he act like that. Long story short, they are together now.

Second sem

As that happened, i look for new candy. I saw this tall guy with his friend who are very handsome and masculine. I followed them in insta too. I tried talking to them and they seems like a decent friend. A fine pal.

I mean no surprise they got girl friend in no time. I totally get it.

I met this sweet boy. He is kinda cubby but not fat. He looks cute and tbh he is attractive in his own way. He was a crush that i could actually have a conversation. Then of course folks, someone just must destroy what we have. I was so happy that we are actually being friend. We took pictures together, someone just must like, are you guys couple?!

I just chilled because i know the truth. He panic and act stranger.

SO i confront to him my feelings but i told him that i know that this feeling is unhealthy for me. Thus, i am going to move on. And guess what, i actually move on!

It was kinda hard because we were friends you know. I heard about his scandal and had to deal with it. Deal with some of his jerk classmates. Its a lot to take but its nothing in the end.

I just wanna say that, calling names could be funny and you might thought for awhile that the victim take it as a joke too. She or he might understand that everything is just for laugh. Well, let me just say it, IT'S NOT A FUCKING JOKE.

Just dont mess with the wrong people ok.

Kalau best friend, kawan baik namati, kawan sehati sejiwa, akan faham lah yang kau sebenarnya buat lawak. I dont even know you and we are just someone that know each other names and maybe a bit about us. That does not allow you to call me names in front if your friends.

ok dome with that.

The last guy, he is kinda special. I am not sure myself why.

He was in the other class and we barely meet. OK the story is like this.

I admire him for afar. He is very tall. Easy for me to spot. LOL

I asked my friend to actually say to him that i wanted to take a picture with him. Due to some circumstances, we refused. I gave up. We even tried to ran from each other if we had any chances to pass by. I literally used other long way to be away from him.

Then, i thought to myself, after that incident, its either now or never. So, i asked him myself. I said that i want to take picture with him because we are not gonna meet after this. But he is not comfortable then its fine. He just said, insyaallah.

In the evening, to be precise, after my physics paper 1, i waited for the right time. Well, i guess it was my lucky day because he actually appeared!

WE TOOK PICTURES TOGETHER! I WAS SO NERVOUS!

Thats my last crush in kmpk.

DONE WITH KMPK dengan barainya!

:)

If you are one of the citizen in kmpk, well now you know my side of story. No names are mention.

My conclusion,

First, dudes could be pain in the ass frequently.
Then, be bold to confront your feelings.
Lastly, please girls, no high hopes. You dont wanna break you damn fragile hearts ehh.