Have you ever wondered like, why i didn't end up with him (ex)?
I have a lot of crushes during the old days. I admit, I am easily attracted to average guys and guys who were out of my league. Sometimes I just like to look at them. The thought of them is enough. I guess that's why I don't have any regrets when it comes to men.
The thing is, even though we all already get on with our life, we still follow each other on insta. I could see how they are doing now. It just kinda clicks! I kinda get it why we couldn't be together.
We're in a different phase of life.
Some of them just got a stable job, some of them live far away, some of them is still enjoying the single life and the list goes on. I don't think I am willing to wait longer to settle down while i'm in this stage of life. I want to put down my roots. It's either marriage or cool aunty.
Then, in my other POV, i stopped chasing them.
There were only 3 men who I put a lot of effort. I was sooo used to rejections, i didn't bother to improve myself to suit their criteria. Besides, I didn't prove to them that i'm worth it. I know i sounded desperate. I did mention 'chasing'.
The good thing about those rejections, YOLO
If a guy rejected me, i moved on so easily to the next guy. The vicious cycle continues until I met H. You see, it easier to move on when you know he didn't feel the same way instead of you waiting for him to 'make the first step'. If you're a person who guys lining up to date, you totally cannot relate with me.
I know that guys don't look at me twice. I accepted that fact. I find love the other way around. I approach men first.
Thats all for now!
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