now what?

after everything that happen to me that made me sad and kept me under the blanket for so long is actually waking me up. after a while with the sorrow, now i'm wide awake. i bet most of you guys are katy parry's fans, yeah, me too! wide awake by katy parry really inspire me to move on and go on with my adventure of searching my sunlight.

the problem that keeping me down
-breaking up

yeah that really took me a long time to get over it. you guys must be bored of reading on whatever that i had post about my break up. sorry about that but by posting those are making me better.
now i seldom talk to him. and he said and decided that now we are just friend. huh, funny? for me, that are so damn funny. how can your ex be your friend. that is super awkward. i don't deny it.but...i just say, ok.what kinda of friend are you if you never want to talk to me...

-my result that had fall

i think someone push my number down so hard that's why i get that kinda result. but i did realize that this time i had problem with seniors by that exam week and that really effect. but my dad said that it's a lame reason.
yeah, i agreed. maybe not because of that shit but because of myself being so careless. but that open my eyes to work more harder. and now i'm trying to work as hard and i'm trying to discipline myself with my schedule.

-sport and debate

now i already stop playing basketball until my result clime back. my dad only allow me to continue debate if i maintain my studies back.my leg is not giving full support for me to run. i mean a race.
i'm starting to suck in sport....what kinda athlete am i?

now, i found someone that bring a brightness in my life. i got someone to share my feelings. he is not my boyfriend or whatever like that but he is like my brother.he agreed to be my foster brother. i mean little brother. he is one year younger then i am.
we are not so close yet but he care about me. at least i now someone is supporting me from behind my back.and i have someone to care about. to make proud of beside my family and friends.

so, now is time for me to start my gear and get ready at the starting line because i know there are so many people are waiting for me at the finish line. all of them are hoping me to bring back a gold and huge trophy.so i can't disappoint them.