Breakeven

Assalamualaikum..

Today i had been in YouTube for hours! So i come across this song. I was a hit last time. I really like this song because it remain me of my senior. He is a Chinese and a great speaker in debate. I admire him as a brother!

He really like this song and he had crush with this girl. This girl sing this song. I mean, cover this song and my senior download it.

Well, she never know that my senior have feelings towards her. And when they met, things like, they just say hey with each other. My senior never make a move. And one more, she is a Malay. Kinda weird but its great if my senior convert to Islam right?

I remember this stuff because after a long time i just look with my own eyes who exactly take my crush's heart. At first im kinda disappoint about it but i learn to move on.

Between me and him is over. We are friend at first but things did not work out because of some misunderstand. I met him and he act normal and i forgot to explain to him what actually happen. If he never want to know means, he never will like someone like me.

The first time we text, he really....charming. I guess. He talks like we are old friend and he is really honest with me. I never met any guy who is so, so honest with me about everything!

Guys like to act cool and never low down their egos but my crush..he is so different. He is also so complete. He is intelligent, he never break the rules, he is a prefect, he is a debater, he is a cute and honest boy and he plays basketball. He likes to play some silly jokes. He always try to understand people. He is a good listener.

Its really hard to find someone like him! I really miss him as a friend. I don't know how to explain my feelings. For me, he is someone who can guide me. He is someone that i want to listen.

And i did knew that he have someone in mind. He did said that he wants to forget her but, i don't know. Its complicated this way.

I did pray to Allah about him. But, it turns out other way.

Insha Allah everything happen for reason. Allah knows what is right for His servant! He knows the best! I believe in Allah so i will try my best to accept everything.

That's all i want to voice out tonight. Insha Allah you guys will hear some more from me next time. Assalamualaikum..