Ehem ehem

Assalamualaykum and Alhamdulillah

Praise Allah because of everything that he had grand us.

It has been quite sometime since any post and i know my blog is sooooooo childish and it does not symbolize like i am a 17 years old teen. Yeah people, i am 17 and proud of it.

It is not easy to be able to reach 17. I am lucky to grow in a country free from war.

You know, i had been through a lot of stuff lately.



Firstly, HK Bahas 42. Debate stuff. Well, it end well as we won grouping but we lose during octo. But still, its a good way to end my debate career. I dont think i will continue it in the next phrase of my life.

Then, 'perkampungan ilmu'. Hurm, it is like a study week where you will have class for 2 hours for each subject. One day we will learn 4 subjects.

Before all of that stuff happened, i had some friend conflicts as usual and all those stupid gossips that i had to deal in order to clean up some misunderstand about our prefect society. Whatever.

For what i can conclude from all the mess and what-so-ever that i had been through, i had a lot to comment which not all of them i remember.

*the weird thing about blogging is that you tend to have a lot of ideas as you are away from the keyboard than at the keyboard, typing*

Ehem ehem

I think, in order to live peacefully without any stress is, decrease your best friend.... It is just my opinion and i am not forcing anyone. But if your besties are in one group, like a gang of girls of boys, thats fine because you will spend time together right. But different best buddy that can't minggle, thats what i mean my many besties. it is because when you tend to have many besties, you have to deal with each of them. I mean, you have to spend time with them bla bla bla.... Some of them may understand some may not and conflict can easily happens.

Me? My so called besties now are just friend. I used to have 4 best buddies, A B C D. A is someone i used to hang as we are in the same dorm. B and C are my classmates. D is in other class but a prefect like me and A B C.

When i was in form 2 till 3, B and C are very close because we hanged out a lot. I am also very close to A in form 3 and 4. I went to her house once, and her family knew me. But as time flies, A, B and C were not as close as we used to be as we enter different classes. D and I became close because i sympathize her as most people hate her. B,D and me become close that cause C to get jealous.... Then the conflict started. D and C left, but me and B still okay. After sometime, B left and D get back.
This year, all of us entered the same dorm. At first, all of us were okay until one day, D made a conflict.
Then, i have been so close to E since form 4 but we don't hang out a lot but i do spend time with her sometime. In the same time, E is close to C.
Now, A,B and C are in a gang that dislike me and D. C got jealous of my friendship with E and E's relationship with her boyfriend.





So, conclude it all.... I prefer to walk alone and only spend time with D or E.

Now, i ignore what people think about me. Haters. Whatever, i push it aside.

Next story, aks....urgh....

Can i guy be rational with their life?! I have no intention to mess up with his personal life or whatever it is just that when it involve me..... Then it is a big mistake...

I don't care if anyone wants to be a player or whatever...

Having 'affair' with junior is nothing big but if you are an important person.... That is something big! People look up to you as a leader and a nice person... You should behave and try your best to improve yourself. It is not for the sake of yourself or people's perception but for the sake of your religion! Orang nampak kau macam alim dan baik, tak layan sangat perempuan tapi kau act oppositely. How is that helping? Yeah, everyone is not prefect, we have to correct ourself first before saying ,much bla bla bla...

You need to usderstand this, our Prophet Muhammad once said, listen to anyone's advice even if it is from a prostitute. Understand that first... You simple say, eleh, kau pun sama je.

Allah inspire someone to have courageous to advice you because Allah wants you to change.

Leaving in a society that not everyone is in the same path is not easy. You want to change. I want to change to be better but it is not easy as i cannot find someone with the same mission...
Not everyone understand my changes .... Sometime i don't even have any supporter.

Life can be hard if you never want to find happiness. Happiness will never come easily. Trust me! No matter waht, you have to stay strong and fight till the end.

Defend yourself if it can solve the conflict. Be silent because silent is the weapon to be patient. Smile, is the key of happiness. Be positive as an inspiration to be motivated.

Allah have best plans for you. If you try to find Him, He will never let you go.