Unmiss You

You know when suddenly you just want to feel a bit broken. Suddenly all you want is tune into sad songs and the favourite ones you put on lope. The sadness is good enough because it relates a lot about how you felt.

rn im listening to unmiss you by clara mae.

"I wish that i could unmiss you. Reverse the time so i could unmeet you.It would have made it so much easier, easier."

then later on

"I wish you could undo, all of the things that made me fall for you."

I had my first heart broke. I had my first break up. I had my first massive break up ( this time it made me depress ). I had been rejected tons of time (various ways). Yet here i am in another relationship.

My very first love started from a friendship and hypocrite behaviors. I liked that guy i lot, i cater all his feelings and ignored mine. Once i putted it out there, it was too late.

My first break up was not bad. I broke it off and i didnt regret it. I had my regrets later after a few months because i realized it was hard to find someone who cares for me like he did. It was too late.

Had another break up but he was dumb so no regrets.

My massive break up became dark because i was struggling with my study (i had multiple fail quizzes) and i actually wanted to stay with him till the end. I imagined a future with him. Between me and him, things turned so fast. Almost like, i love you today but not anymore tomorrow. I cant talked shit about him because he was a nice guy. Whenever i saw his photos anywhere, i missed the memories. I knew i deserve better because he never fought for me.

Multiple rejections. Well, i had people bad talked about me to the person i had crush. I was not pretty enough and he was a total jerk. I had a few people who actually ran away when they saw me. I mean they avoided me. It was weird because i barely talked with any of them. I had people who hurm, you know when those people knew about your feelings so when they saw me, they called out the 'crush' name out loud in front of other people. Had that.

Why i still looked out for a person?

Because i cant lie my feelings.

It felt good to have someone around. I feels precious if we are valued by the right person.

To find or get the right person is like gambling. You might get lucky for the first time, sometime you need to loose some to gain some. It depends.

In my case, i usually the one who finds the other person. Most girls could be the one to be found. Anyway, it is still similar.

You have ALL THE RIGHTS TO CHOOSE.

DOnt settle for someone who drags you down.

Be with someone that uphold you.

Treat each other fairly. Compromise if you need to. Understand about communication.

There is no SOP on relationship. It depends on who you are with.

We might have some regrets in the past so dont make the same mistakes in the present.

If you make mistakes, apologies.

If you argue, one of you needs to shut up. My option, get up and go out.

Improve your common sense.

Be nice to everyone that deserves it. :)