The first thing I thought about that night, should we keep it low or keep it hype? I am kinda nervous to see Aidan tomorrow. I barely slept that night. I was surprised on how fast I agreed to try this, relationship? Maybe I should just go with the flow. Try something I never thought I would do. Life is too short to ALWAYS make the right decision.
The next day.
Aidan texted me in the morning,
"Morning :) Let me pick you up today. See you at 8."
I usually go to school with D so I called D and told her I had a ride today.
'D, I'll tell you the rest at school, I promise!'
"I guess something did happen last night. It's okay. See you at school."
Then I texted Aidan, 'Yeah sure, see you at 8'.
I jumped out of my bed and took a real quick shower. I tried to wing my eyeliner but it was a disaster. I decided to brush off everything from my face and just wear sunblock, some face powder, IM DONE! I wore a simple jean jacket and black pants. I skipped breakfast because I'm not ready for my parents to see Aidan. So now, I'm waiting for Aidan sharp at 8 outside. Of course my parents were surprised on how I behaved.
Aidan arrived. I immediately got into his car, 'DRIVE DRIVE!'
The duration to reach school would be 15 to 20 minutes top. I imagined Aidan would start talking anything until we reach school but he only gave me a smile along the way. He hums to the music and laughs at the DJ's jokes for some reason, it was not that funny.
'Hey. Can we talk about last night?'
"Yeah, sure."
'How do I start? I'm not sure how are we doing this.'
"Just be yourself. We are casually hanging out, I guess. Are you suggesting something in particular?"
'Not really. Hurm ... '
"Just speak your mind because I could see that you are disturbed. You are holding back yourself from saying something."
'Can you stop reading me like you could hear my thought.' (He shrunk his shoulders)
After 5 minutes of pause,
'I know we are exclusive so behave like one.' I walk out of the car because he doesn't deserve to see how red my face right now.
Ting! *text from Aidan*
See you at lunch ;)
As soon as i stepped out of the car, I saw D who just arrived at the parking lot. I ran to her.
'Hey D! Morning! I need to talk to you ASAP.'
"At least let me park my car, God!"
--- as soon as D parked--
'Last night Aidan kissed me. '
"Oh, wow! Someone got laid!"
'We just make out, nothing more but he said shits about being exclusive. I mean, I got nervous today. I..'
"So he told my morning ride with you today?"
'Sort of? Does it matter? Let me finish. I don't know what 'exclusive' should mean? Should I start text him or should I care about him like, i don't know.. I'
"Girl, slow down. You need to chill. Okay, it means he is looking forward to knowing more about you. It is up to you to let him in or leave him hanging.
Hey, why are talking like you never been in a relationship before? You know how it goes from friends to more than just friends."
'I'll give it a try. I am soooo rusty with this 'human interaction'. '
"I'm glad you're a monkey then."
'Heyyyy'
Maybe I'm thinking too much about this. Maybe I should just stop looking at the map and drive wherever I feel like going.
I see Aidan at lunch. D joins us. I was worried if D might make fun of me hanging out with Aidan but she seems cool. She told Aidan about how fussy I could be sometime but I never leave her without apologizing that day.
I realize some eyes looking at us (Aidan and I) when we study together at the library that day. We had to do some research with our debate assignment for the next meeting. I would be debating (for practice). We didn't even laugh or being intimate in public. Maybe some just aren't used to the idea of senior(the girl) hanging out with a junior (the boy).
I saw Nancy and as soon as she saw me, she walked towards me.
"Hey, I didn't know you hang out a lot with Aidan."
'I needed his help with our assignment. I did tell you about the debate club, right?'
"Right... You guys look more than just doing assignments. Am I the only one that felt that way?"
'Apparently, the whole library seems to think that way. Those eyes were following each of our steps. We are not even loud.'
"Hey Aidan, you look .... glowing. Did you did something?"
(A)"Hey Nan, I'm kinda busy. Could you talk to Alex next time? We need to finish this now."
"Okay *rolled her eyes* I'll leave this love birds alone."
Nancy walked away.
'What was that about?'
"She's distracting you. You need to focus! Look, here's another mistake."
Now, this is the Aidan that I know. The annoying Aidan.
He gave me another ride home. This time, he talks.
"I've been thinking about what you said and I have to agree. We didn't have a definition of being 'exclusive'. I figured, we should try a few dates then we decide if we're actually fond of each other."
'Why do you sound like our 'exclusivity' could be debatable.'
"Everything is debatable even the colour of your pants could be debatable."
'What's wrong with orange pants?'
"It doesn't go right with those (pointing at my tshirt)."
'That is your personal opinion which is not relevant to the argument. We only refer to facts.'
"Opinions could be a solid point especially if it is pointing to an obvious mistake."
'Oh wow, well how about the fact a 16 years old boy who managed to grow only 5'3.'
"Ouch! That is not a flaw. It's just how it is."
'Now you sound bias.'
--10 minutes of silence--
"I'm hungry, can we get some hotdogs?"
'Me too. I know a place.'
We stop for some hotdogs which located not far from the school. We basically ordered from window. While waiting for our order,
"I'm sorry if I said things I shouldn't."
'It did sound awful but you do have a point.'
"I want to be someone who you can freely without any judgement. I think you should know that I ... never been in relationship with anyone before and .... i know this will sound sooo lame but actually you were my first kiss. If you exclude the drunk kissing."
'I had never been in a proper relationship before. I had been on dates but mostly ended so quick I barely knew how it felt to be with someone. D always nags about how single I am so I made up some story about this long distance relationship I had been with this online guy. I needed some space from her nagging. Pfft *we laugh * I think we need to take things slow until both of us are comfortable enough for, whatever's next.'
"You look so attractive when you sound like a genius. Did anyone ever said that?"
'You're the first but I already knew about it.' *we laugh at how silly i sound*
I felt like a huge burden just came off my shoulder. I don't want Aidan to have high hopes for me. I agreed to try but it doesn't mean things will end up well. Right now I wished it will be well but who knows how it would be in the next weeks or even months.
He sent me home. Before I leave he gave me the puppy eye look, so I patted his head as if he's a dog.
"Heyyyy.."
'I thought you wanted a pat because your eyes are asking for it.'
He just leaned and gave me a smooch. Oh.
"Okay byeeeeeeeee."
He just left. That boy...such a cute boy.
Can't wait to see him tomorrow :)
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