Im inspired to kinda write a simple love story. Very cliche and very light reading.
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I love being alone. I enjoy myself in quite. I don't think myself as lonely because i have friends but we all respect our own spaces.
I had been keeping myself in the shadow and minding my own business for almost all year in schools. I did well in school because i actually enjoy studying. I know this sounds bizzare but its true! Maybe that's what make schools easy and manageable.
My mom and dad are scientist so that's also probably why we enjoy learning. We fine comfort in words and curiosity what bonds us. We search for anything we aren't families together. We share what we know with each other. Obviously everything sounds boring to other people yet we think it as that's what made us special.
I never felt romance. Personally I don't see the joy in being with a person of opposite gender (I'm 100% sure im straight). I think i know how i should feel it but i just never felt it. I don't adore boys to the point i dream about him. I think some boys are cute and attractive in their own ways but I don't see myself stuck with one of them. Among my nerd friends, one of them is (was) in relationship. All i see was suffering. How she's stuck with his schedule and how he's always around her giving her orders like what you can eat and what you cant. Complaint about her clothes. The worst part of it, didn't let us hang out outside school because we see each other at school. A boyfriend or a warden? You tell me.
Soon, I'll be officially 20 without any romance experience. Ive been studying history and now i need to write about the ancient greek goddess, Aphrodite known as the Goddess of Love, beauty. I have no idea on how to do it but im pretty sure i must relate myself to this assignment.
- Another side of the story -
Louis : I see you, almost every day. The way you play your hair especially when you're puzzle, it made my heart flatters.
Also Louis: I can't just simply say those words to someone who doesn't even know i exist at the first place. I can't simply gave her my confession like we know each other. I just...
Have you ever looked at someone and immediately felt in love. It never occurs to me that I could the one feeling it. For someone who had received attention from a lot of girls, the one that caught my attention is actually someone who doesn't gives any attention to me. Someone who enjoys blow of wind rather than a good looking guy who eventually love to see her hair blows with the wind. This will sound so sickening but I had been watching her for almost a month now. Ive been here for almost a year but I - never saw her before.
Every now and then I saw her in cafe, reading. Or sometimes at library, also reading. She always sits at the exact same place. Shes always alone but she's not alone, alone. She enjoys it. She seems calm most of the time. I just-
Should I go and say something???
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I was sitting on a bench nearby library, I was deciding whether I should walk or take the bas home. A tap on the shoulder, I turn around, it was that guy. The who's always on my background. In the cafe and library.
L: I can't help but notice that you're always in the area. It is weird to ask if you're up for coffee sometime?
Beth: Yes. Will you excuse me, I have somewhere else to be.
L: wait wait wait, hurm, how hurm, can i at least have your phone number or email or something, i mean..
B: I saw you around here a lot so we'll see each other if faith brought us back eventho i don' t really believe in those. Let's grab a drink IF we see again.
----3 weeks later -----
Finally! Its a YES.
I changed the place i used to hang out. It took him 3 weeks to find me. He saw me in library, second floor while I was doing some research on Aphrodite.
As soon as he saw he, he took a chair and sat the opposite side. Of course he smirked.
L: You owned me a soy latte.
B: Sure. (Maybe i need second opinion about this assignment)
-Cafe-
We settle in, order our drinks and sat somewhere near the window. There was an awkward 5 minutes of silence. Just solely starring at each other. Both of us looked away at the same time, blushing.
L: Im louise, been here for about 3 years now.
B: Beth, short for Elizabeth. This is my second year. Let me put it out there, if you're looking for someone fun and party, you come to the wrong person. I honestly barely know bout fun and all i love is reading, sometime writing.
L: hahaha! Is that a warning? As long as you don't bite, im fine. (smiles)
B; I only bite if necessary.
L: I saw you were reading about thr goddess of love. Are into greeks methodologies?
B: More onto assignment. I had submitted the first part but the professor said my writing is lack of soul. I don't hurm, she did said about symbolism of love so i need to include about my own understanding of love. Its an emotion. You can't scale it. Its too....
L: Broad.
B: Yeah and ... maybe, MAYBE im not even sure about feeling of love towards a lover. Tell me about your experience.
L: im not even sure is this the best topic for a first date but sure. For the sake of your assignment. The love that hurts the most is my first love. A hopeless romance. We were best friend since kids. We grew apart as soon as i confessed in high school. She said she felt the same way but me as a brother not a lover. She was in love with someone else. She told me, she loves me and only notice the difference when shes with that guy. Im pretty i was done after that. I had been in a few relationships but nothing as far as i love you. It either she found me not interesting or not serious enough or we just didn't vibe anymore. Share me a pieace of your story.
B: I had a boyfriend on my first year here. He was my classmate. He was the first person who persuade me and respect my space. He was technically my first lover so he was my first date, kiss, sex but not my first i love you. Almost. We had been together for a year and half and i almost move in to his apartment. One day, i came home early to surprise him after our summer break. He was on the phone while he was entering the house. I overheard him saying that he stayed with me because i helped him with his assignments and exams. Hes gonna ditch me when we finish grad school. So that night, i gave me an amazing sex experience with some new things i learned and left him the next day over a text. He stills tried to get back with me but i know he's just doing it to save his ass. A few of my friends told me he was cheating on me but i never believed them, not even once. I was such a fool.
L: I guess you are more than just books.
B: I learn from books.
L: Everyone experience such tragic first love.
B: Almost love.
L: Just because you didn't say it doesn't change the fact you did love him. Love is more than just 3 words spoken to the other person. -pause- You need a new experience to gather your soul to write a better article. How about me? Take me as a ... hurm ... experimental partner.
B: I must say, it's not a bad idea afterall. Just a warning, you may catch feelings for me.
L: Im gonna be very freak with you because i know you can handle this. I already find you, interesting and attractive. I might catch feelings but how about you, what if i manage to make you fall for me?
B: You must be a good entertainer. We will see how it goes. Feelings are subjective. Sometimes we think its love but that person was just being kind. Like the someone who holds the door for you, hes just being nice. Hes not in love with you.
L: Give me, hurm, 5 dates to show you what falling in love is.
B: Make it 4 because I don't have much time for it.
L: 4 it is.
B: I need to go now. I have something else to do. Ill see you around.
L: wait, i need your number.
B: give me your phone. *saved my number* Aphrodite. Thats me in your contact. Bye
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Note from writer: Im gonna break it into a few parts coz it will be a very long 1 post. Ive been working on this post about a week now. Usually write before i sleep 😂 so stay tuned 😸
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