10 years ago,
My dad works with a construction company so we never stayed at one place for a long time. I could barely make any friends. We usually move to different states in probably 2 years time or so until I'm old enough to join a boarding school. My parents said, at least I could start and end my high school years in the same school and I didn't need to move around with my family. (fyi, im the only child until one day my parents decided to adopt my baby brother when i was 16. By that time, dad managed to get a job where doesn't need to move around anymore. So, my baby bro (Jonas) has a better childhood than I did.)
My parents did set me up for boarding school since I got into first grade. In order for you to be in an elite boarding school with a good sponsor, you need good grades. I've been aiming for good grades and good behavior since, forever I guess. Along the way, I never had any real friends, just temporary ones. Probably that's why I was never great at socialising with people.
When you got into an elite school, you might think, "Yeah, maybe things DO get better." Nope. Why? I was like the only one who got there with 'other people's money'. I was considered as the poor kid surrounded by rich ass kids. The only friend I had, maybe my roommate but, I quote, 'Don't tell anyone that we talk'. I never went to any special occasion, no one asked me out. No one asked me to prom or any of that sort. Once, a boy tried to talk to me but it turned out to be a bet. I'm glad I put my wall up for sooo many layers.
I choose to befriend the staff at the campus such as the cafeteria lady, the security team (literally the whole team) and the librarians. Even teachers, distance themselves from me. Maybe, Miss Jane, my literature tutor did make some connection with me. She compliments my essays and most of my works. I guess, besides being the best in track (I ran very fast in the track which got me into college's team), I did maintain top of my class for each semester. At least I scored another scholarship to continue study here.
I don't really have a proper connection with people but I did try experimenting with some strangers. You are free to judge me;
- I had my first kiss with some college guy I met during one of the trips to various universities. He was the tour guide. Well, he seems to have a thing for quiet girls. I guess, maybe he is a pedophile because he loves to seek minors. Yikes!
- I lost my virginity at the party after school graduation. He was in the track team and he had been trying to talk to me before I graduated. Yupe, he is a junior. Just a year younger. Relax, both of us were minors. At least we had some decent conversations on the bus. He was nice, gentle, and inexperienced like me. He was also good-looking so I had no regrets. I wanted to get it done before college. I know I'm the weird one but that doesn't mean I need to be the virgin one too.
- had some hookups here and there when I went clubbing or drinking alone. It was just bathroom sex or back alley sex. I never woke up in any stranger's house. Usually, I don't choose college boys to bang. I guess I have a thing for older dudes. As long as they don't have some ring on them, i'm fine. So far, I never had any troubles with girlfriends or wives searching for me.
Now, when i looked back on everything, i realize that i never been in any relationship.
Never had a real friendship. I connect with people only if i have to.
Maybe, just maybe, Arthur is not that bad if he becomes my first friend or boyfriend.
I remembered Arthur mentioned he lives in DeltaOmega fret house. I'm not sure which room or which floor. What i did to find him, I crashed his house and go to each door in each floor until i found him. Obviously, he seems surprised when he heard I knocked on his door.
"Hey Amelia, how do you find me?"
'I followed you here.'
"*nervous laugh*"
'I'm joking. I remembered you told me you live here so I came and knocked on all doors until I found you.'
"That's kinda romantic. Is this some...special gesture?"
'If you put it that way, i guess.. Can we talk?'
"Yeah."
'Outside...*stares at his friends*'
"Oh, sure. Let's go."
Outside
'I've been thinking about what you said. I think you are a suitable candidate to be my first boyfriend. What do you say?'
"Woah, wait. Aren't you jumping into something big? We never date or kiss, to begin with. Are you sure that is what you want?"
'*Pull Arthur by his collar and kissed him. A smooch.* Now we had kissed.'
"*he was still in shock and all of sudden his face turned red* I .. er. ... I ... I am not complaining I just.."
'Even you know I'm not like other girls. I don't......usually .... date. I don't know how it works at the first place. If you feel uncomfortable, I'll get going.' *Started to walk away*
"Wait! Let's. .... try this. What can go wrong, right?"
'*smiles* It's not like we're marrying each other. Let's try this!'
"How do we start?"
'You're the expert. You tell me. Before that, you can't force me in doing things I don't feel comfortable.'
"I guess, let's get to know each other better first. Our yes and no, your favourite things and dreams."
'Are you sure that's how you start?'
"First date. Let's go on a real date."
'You know what, YES. It's a date!'
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