1/2

 Finally im half way there.

Hey, anyone miss me? I've missed this. Writing my soul out. Where no one really pays that much attention to what I say or how I act. My own space.

I'm getting the hang of it. Working full time and sometimes on the weekend. 

I'm just here, ranting. LOL 

I have this storyline in my head but I just can't put it well in words so yeah, there you go!

LOVER BOY

I felt, love. I know it's a boy. Yet, I'm not sure which boy.

I hope you don't mind,

I don't wanna rhyme.

These feelings I miss,

Feeling nervous each time I need to talk to you,

Feeling happy each time you text me,

Feeling shy as you get closer,

Feeling excited as you ask me out,

Wreaking my head on what should I wear,

'is this too much? is this too little? 

wait, is it even a date?'

As you are working, i stare without blinking,

It's not even sexual, not physical but, 100% personality.

Swallowing the facts that I wanna burst but I can't,

'keep it cool'

'stop staring!'

Deep down, just wanna grab your arm and rest my head on it.

let's just stay this way in silence

Between us, it's not impossible but too much trouble.

I want it to be simple so, I'll just stay here,

This zone. Friend zone.

The tiny space between, the fine line, the path better uncross. 

For- LOVER BOY

Honestly, this is nothing special. I just have this hopeless romance map in my brain, needed a space to release it.

I guess, I've been rejected multiple times before, hopeless romance is such a go-to place in my mind. I mean, you can be in a happy and no problem relationship yet felt so hopeless with an imaginary person.