March

Assalamualaykum Alhamdulillah

Insha Allah today i will conclude what had happen and share some stories.

The month began with debate competition. HK SBP Zon Utara Bahas dan Bola Keranjang which was held in SERATAS. We struggle with our training and stuff like finding information. I was busy managing myself because by that time i was still new being a prefect.
Each and everyone of the debaters were busy with studies and sports. We had some conflicts among us. We had to deal with some technical problem. For me the main problem, no one was there to train us and i thought that i am the only one who was so worried about debate.
We son 2 and lost 3. We did not managed to go national which was what i had expected in the first place because of their attitude and how we were lack of preparation. I admit it. But it was fun at least. I celebrated my birthday there. I made new friends. I met some ... friends and my .... past-crush or whatever.

Then the next week I must be prepared of our examination. I was a very stressful week. I had lost my spirits in study. I was so blank. I just did't know what to do. Some people showed me their supports. I appreciate it so much! Alhamdulillah even i knew i had made a lot of mistakes and was very lack of my own preparation but i still manage to answer all the papers with an open heart. Bless Allah.

Then we started to get so much stress about the school's open day which only held once in 5 years. But at ;ast we still manage to do everything in time.

Friendship

My friends had some conflicts that involved me. Let see. Me and P were the one being put in the middle of everything. P was someone kind heart. P was the best listener. B and S always fight. B said that S was a back stabber and because of S, P and I did not spent much time with B.

They argued and P and I become the people who must tried our best to be fair with both party. One day B and S met and they said they want things to be solve. After that day, suddenly S started to stay away from P and I for a whole week. While in that week, S ignored us like we did not even exist. She acted nice to other people like wanted to make us jealous. By that time i felt so unappreciated.

Suddenly the next week S started to act like nothing happen and talked back with us. Everyone acted like nothing had happen except P and I. Both of us made some ideas about solving this crisis once and for all. But B and S never show any sense of cooperation and gave a lot of excuses. At last, I told P that i can't handle it anymore. If they want to be like this, I don't want to involve in any of their business. And P agreed to be in my side.

Crush

The first person who wished my birthday on time and sang for me~ Let me called him as Zach because he love that name. We started as friend since last year. We never met but we text, twitter-ing and call a lot. Kinda. He seems lovely and nice. He is an honest person. He talk straight with me.

He is special for me. But he already remind me that he is a heartless person so do not put too much faith and hope. I am happy as he said that because is m not looking for any serious relationship. I just need a person that i know will always be there for me and lead me in the right way while Mr Right Guy still hidden somewhere on earth. I mean, i take Zach as a best friend.

Tough Brother

He is someone i called a bother is school~ Hahaha
We got close since the end of last year. Hurm, last month was his birthday so i just called and wished. I gave him a notebook as present.

Since this month, he is very supportive~

Teenagers Nowadays

It is heart breaking to see teenagers nowadays which are turning 360 degree into other people. Everything cause by trends and bad influence. They failed to remember that they are Moslems and forget about how to behave like a Moslem.

They are drowning in the black river.

Islam does not allow girls from touching with people who is not their Muhrim. They cannot kiss or hug or whatever but nowadays, they seems to don't care about it. They do everything as they want.

Me, myself also something neglected some rules and i do realize that i must change myself to be a better person.

I am just advising things that i am doing. Means, i walk my talk. I don't simple kiss or hug someone that i like.

I keep my virginity for my husband. The only man that is allow to take away my virginity. As being a Muslimah and unmarried, i am proud to still have my virginity. It is not something that we must be ashamed of. It sound weird but its true.

I don't hurt my arms by taking sharp things and write the names of people i love. I don't take pictures of myself crying for a man. I don't simply take a knife and hurt myself for fun.

I don't take pictures kissing or hugging with someone i can't touch. WIthout taking pictures also i don't do it.

I admit i do take pictures with guys but we don't do inappropriate things. We smile and take picture. We don't stand so close until my skin touch his skin. But sometime, i do take pictures side by side.

I don't dress up like korean or other western do. I dress up simple and keep what should be covered, cover. What i mean to say, if you are wearing hijjab, please dress up like other hijjab people dress up. People who wear hijjab is people who bring Islam's imagine.

Please, if you wear hijjab, watch out for thighs and short sleeves. Also for short hijjabs. Remember to stay looses. This is also a message to myself. Together we change our style.

If you know its wrong then, try to stop and back away from that thing slowly. Insha Allah, Allah will guide us.

Take care of your dignity and virginity. Take care of yourself no matter what gender you are.

Boys, don't play with girls feelings. Girls, don't put too much hopes in guys.

Sometime we must remember to be strong. Allah already prepare the right person for us since we were born. So be patient.

Everything starts with love. Put your love to Allah and Rasulullah then to other things. #notetoself

Insha Allah that's all i want to share. Hope to inspire. Wasalam