TedxTalk

They said it will take you 20 hours of practicing to actually learn something and 10000 hours (5 years of working hours) to actually master it. Imagine how many hours that actually we use to procrastinating. Keep on telling ourselves that you need a break, you deserve one.

then, do you know that our brain still develops new nerve cells in brain. Neurogenesis.

You do know if you work hard on something you could actually achieved it.

I learn some stuffs based in Ted talks. I guess its easier to watch and get inspire from time to time. I cant say it changes my life but indeed it changes my perspectives and thoughts. I guess being in early 20s is always a pressure as people keep on asking you what you want to do after you graduated. It's true, to become a pharmacist but right now, i don't even have faith if i can make it. Will i be good pharmacist? What if i suck and ruin everything.

All i know, i wanted to write a book. Im not sure what will it be about or when will i actually finish any story that i actually wrote somewhere. I wanted to work as a pharmacist in the industry, the factory. Dealing with machines or join the rnd. Its not about easy but its more to what i prefer to do and how i dont actually deal directly with humans (patients). Im scared if i overdose anyone or given the wrong meds.

We wouldn't know for sure now.

As i brought up that i prefer to work in factories, all my family or some of them would recommend me join the government. They said," Be real. It's more stable". I mean, i know but im not going to sacrifice my 30 years by doing things i dont want to do.

You see, we should be exposed to these things since little. The first 12 years should be about deciding what you have passion. The next 5 years is to see whether you can deal with the subjects that are require and the next 4-6 years are for actually proceeding it.

I was never exposed to pharmacist almost my whole life. It's not so common among people but we know what it is. It never occurs to me that one day i'll be proceeding this ambition. I was out of options but im grateful for the opportunity. I always know that even if its too late, i must at least achieve something that i had always wanted since i was a kid. I used to be full of dreams. Travelling the world. Writing. Learn poet or something. Learn to swim or the guitar. Meet Daniel Radcliffe or Emma watson. You know, those things that keeps you alive.

Am i the one that feels im getting grayer day by day. Being bitter over others' freedom. Feels devastated to myself that i didn't have the balls to actually drop everything and leave. Go do something i've always wanted and come back being famous and successful. I know im not hitting any rock bottom but somehow it does feels that way. It does feels suck when you just know that reaching for the stars is impossible. Grabbing the moon only could happen as you close your eyes.

You joined a race that even you are not sure where the pit stop and how you could actually finish it.

I may be some loser who is having a semi-mental breakdown but i do encourage you people to actually keep that ridiculous dreams alive. It looks impossible now but remember I AM POSSIBLE. Even if its just appears in you 'someday i will..' kinda thing.