It has been a week since we had that steamy afternoon. Not even a text. I don't blame him for anything, besides, I'm grateful for what he had done. The first two days are filled with what if, then the next four days are just reality checks. Guys like him prefer someone, not like me.
I spent the last few days in sweatshirts and sweat pants to class and theater. I saw him in the theater during practice but he never looked back. Maybe because I smell bad and looked uglier than before. I don't see myself putting on an effort to impress anyone. I already had everything I ever wanted which is sex with a hot guy and good grades. The only time I dress properly is when I'm working my shift in the cafeteria.
I know this might sound impossible, I thought, we connected... I'm just being silly.
You know what, I'm gonna talk to him the next time I see him. Ah, he just arrived to set.
"Hey, Julien, I need to ask you something."
POV JULIEN
It is confusing for me. I never felt this way before. I also never met someone like her. She's beautiful, caring and very very VERY sweet.. I wanted to be with her. I've been thinking about her all the time. When I close my eyes, I see those ocean blue eyes lurking, I could even smell her vanilla perfume and hear her giggles. Fuck, I'm in love.
I wanted to text her, yet, I deleted it back. Now it has been a week since we last spoken. I freaked out whenever I saw her. I'm not sure how to interact with her again.. It is obvious that I stalked her when she's working? I would sit at the corner, I wanted to come out and say Hello but...
I'm not sure what's holding me back. Should I just ask her out?
"Hey, Julien, I need to ask you something."
(When did she come? Did i just zoned out...)
= Yeah, sure. =
"In private."
They both walk out from the set to the parking lot.
=What's up? =
"Did i do something wrong? Is it just me? Did what we did that day was an act of charity???"
= Wait, what? Wowowowo, pause. =
B can't hold her tears anymore.. Her tears start to stream as soon as she said, charity.
"Why you kept me in the dark for a week? Did you do that to other girls? What a shame that I'm among the one that asked for explanations. I thought, I thought we felt something. Maybe it's just me.. Silly Brienne who thought she could have a chance with the gorgeous Julien *in a sarcastic tone*.. You know what, no, you don't get a say after leaving a girl hanging for a week. I'm just here to tell you, YOU and your PERFECT self can SHOVE IT!"
Just like that, Brienne stormed away.
=B, wait! WAIT! =
B didn't even look back. She just walked away.. The worst part of it, I let her walked away. I didn't even move a muscle to chase after her. I'm just..I'm just a coward.
BACK TO BRIENNE
The next thing I know, I ended up in the girl's toilet, crying over a beautiful boy. I'm such a pathetic.
- 2 weeks before the show -
Most of the work is already complete. The only thing left for us to do is manage the stage from one scene to another.
It has been like more than a month since the last conversation with Julien. Personal conversation. I still needed to talk to him whenever it involves important decisions. Even so, I usually asked Fiona to interact with him. She loves him, so does about all those hundred girls.
The first thing I did after the outburst, I changed my number. Any request or notification strictly through email.
We barely know each other, I keep on telling myself that I spent a handful of days with him. I shouldn't be so broken after what happened because it must have had happened to tons of other girls out there.
Still, it took me days to get a grip on myself.
I'm not going to the show because i'll be off on a (finally) vacation.
I worked my ass off to get a scholarship here, which I did but it only pays the tuition fees. Every single hour I have on myself would be spent working or extra curriculum. As the only child, my parents could afford the living expenses just fine but I needed to be distracted. I don't make friends, i don't go out much and i barely get invited to parties. I choose a boring life. Just when it was about to be interesting, I got myself hurt. I trusted someone who has a blazing red flag alert but I go with it anyways.
I'm having my final examination soon, it will end in 2 weeks' time. I will bolt to New York as soon as I'm finished. I will get to spend another 2 weeks with my homegirl, Emma. She's in charge to plan the whole trip and make sure i'm having the best 2 weeks of my life! It's the time to forget and live!
Today will be the last day I'm on set. They can do the rest without me. I need to focus on my examination and final assignments. They are off in good hands. I'm still around but not as often as I used to.
Oh btw, you know when you feel heartbroken and decided to act impulsively like getting a tattoo or pierce your tongue or cut your hair short, what i actually have the guts to do was dye my hair electric crimson. So today i'll be walking into the theater with this brand new hair. Wait, i also did a nose piercing. I promise you, that's all. My parents were shocked at first. I had to explain myself the whole night, what made them okay with it is because i told them, "I never act spontaneously my whole life. I followed each and every rule you guys ever set, I never did drugs not even behind your back. Can I at least get a pass for tonight? My hair will grow black again and the piercing will heal once I took it off for good." It's hard to always keep your parents' expectations and keep on being the perfect girl. I am allowed to live a little more than just within the boundaries.
There she is,
She walks into theater, all eyes on her. Who's that girl, she seems like a brand new person. No one has ever seen a girl on campus with red hair, nose piercing and thick eyeliners. Her outfit seems average, oversized sleeve cropped shirt paired with blue jeans.
She walked past everyone while rolling her sleeves up and tuck her shirt. She tied her hair back like she's about to go into action. Which actually, she did.
PEOPLE GET BACK TO WORK!
Brienne got lots of compliments that day.
"Nice hair B!"
"You looked cool!"
"Wow, is that a real nose piercing? Awesome!!"
Not only did everyone notices her changes it drew J to start a conversation.
That day she knew she needed to get every single detail done so she stayed after hours. By the time she was done, it was half-past 3 in the morning. It made her a bit anxious to go back because it is the golden hour for serial killers to abduct young girls.
=Hey!=
"ARGHHHHH! *she drew her pepper spray out and sprayed at that guy*"
= OWWWWW, its meee! Its julien! =
"Oh God, when are you going to learn your lesson? Stop sneaking around! It's 3am! Of course, I'm on full alert!!"
*she pours some water (from her water bottle) onto his eyes to try to clean the pepper spray.*
= I wanna talk to you. I can't sleep so I ran-
"In 3am?"
= I ran and i saw the lights are still on. I thought someone might have forgotten to switch it off. Then, i saw you... owwww..=
"There's nothing to talk about anymore. You had your chance and you blew it."
= I'm scared!=
"What?"
= Remember the first meeting when you raise your hand and spoke up. That was the first time I saw you and I had been watching you ever since. You are the coolest person I had ever met. You were not nervous around me whenever we had discussions. You even looked me in the eye during all those conversations. I.. I always wanted to know who you are. That morning, I had a rough night but you were more concern about my well being rather than taking advantage while im drunk. I had feelings for you for awhile now. When we had sex, I know it will be serious. I never had a serious relationship before. I was scared. I know im gonna screw it all up. I though it's better than it never begins at all. You will be left with the magical afternoon as out last memory together. =
"It's too late now. I was in pain, I felt like dying. After all of my suffering, I can't just forgive you in a heartbeat. I'm sorry but I have to go."
= Wait, let me send you home. It's late. That's the least I could do. =
We got into his car. It was the longest 20-minute ride ever. Both of us didn't say a word.
' You have reached your destination (waze)'
"Thanks for the ride."
Julien smiles, = no problem=
Just as Brienne was about to step out of his car, he pulled her arm and kissed her lips. The kiss melt into B's lips which made it hard for her to resist what happens next. In her head, she knew she will not be seeing J for awhile after this, "well, what the hell." She kissed him back.
They made their way into B's house. B's parents are outta town so they have the house to themselves.
As soon as they close the door, Julien picked her up by the butt and she straddled her legs around his waist. She wrapped her hands around his neck. He carried Brienne to her room. They began undressing each other.
He then trailed rough kisses down my neck to my chest. I reached my hands under his shirt tracing each and every ab that existed under there. I quickly pulled the tshirt over his head. Despite the smell of sweat on J's body lingers, he still smells great. I began trailing kisses down his neck to his chest. He stares me with his hazel eyes while unbuttoning my tshirt. He started caressed my breast, made me breath harder. I pull down his track bottom and yank his boxer off. He smirked, i know that naughty look. He starts to kiss my bossoms while pacing down. He pulled off my pants. He gets creative by using his mouth to pull off my panties with his teeth.
He begins kissing me again and then slowly puts 'it' inside of me. I began riding up and down. Our chests were sliding against each other's with sweat gliding down our skin. H head onto my buttocks and lifted me in a high-love movement to move at a faster pace. I moaned with every thrust. I finally climaxed, leaving a hot, sticky liquid between my thighs. My head fell down to his chest. He wrapped his hands around me. We just laid there in silence until both of us fell asleep.
Julian woke up alone. He saw a note on the bedside table,
"Breakfast on the kitchen table. Please lock the door before you leave."
He took a shower while remembering what had happened last night. He ate breakfast and he locked the door behind him before leaving.
As he was about to get into his car, a sedan pull over the driveway. A pair of couples in their 40s got out of their car looking confused.
"Who are you?" B's mom asked.
"What were you doing in our house?" B'd father asked.
= I'm B's boyfriend. She left the house earlier. She told me to lock the door before I leave. =
"BOYFRIEND????" both of them were in shock. Their lovely daughter never told them about a boyfriend in the picture.
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