Journey

I am taking a break from the story. It's already complete half for the next ep called the new guy. Today i am here to talk about the life that is hanging in me. Before that.. Assalamualaikum to all Moslem and good evening from Malaysia.

Today i had watched the film called the Escape plan. It open my eyes that nothing is impossible. I mean, escaping from prison, wow! But i also makes me think, can people, i mean the real people escape prison like that? I know that there is a series called the prison brake but still, can it be apply? Are they exposing the ways to people outside there? Or is it a way for the people to warn the government about being more careful. Anything can be, right?

What makes me think too much? It was my senior who had a fight or something with her best friend. She makes me think and remember about the journey of life. About friendship that had been abandon. I had some. I wanna share with you guys.

How and what will you feel when you are being friendly, they people accept you but actually they accept you because of sympathies. You can see that they are not sincere but they are acting like one. I had that friendship once. I fell for him and its over. It took about 3 months to get over him. And we are back as friend but i don't feel the same. And i always act like i am the old me which actually, just an act. I am just doing like what he do. Is it too cruel? He is back to the old he.

I had a crush on a boy. After some months, after the earlier case, just in time, he appear back. Giving me sparks of hopes. We contact and he seems so nice. The nicest guy. One day my friend send him a text which sound weird, its just a joke but i think he take it seriously. He start to be weird and we don't talk much like usual. Now, no more contact.

I hate it when i have to say goodbye or act like i don't care when i truly care. I pray to Allah for patients and powers to move on. I know for a fact that every hey will have goodbye and every goodbye will have a new hey. Its the cycle of the world.

Then my best friend at school was actually jealous looking at me with my dorm mates. She never talked about it. One day she blamed us for what she had done. Left us with wonders and stress thinking about how to rejoin the friendship while she is having fun! The next day, it was easy for her to talk to my friends but she never want to say sorry to me while wait for me to say sorry to her. It took days for me to find the right moment and mood for it. But we are not as close as we used too.

Right now, i may have tons of friends and i can called each and everyone of them as my best friend. They are such a great listener but for me it is never enough. I want someone to call as Sahabat. I am not sure who to call as my sahabat. A true friend. Someone who listen, talks to me back and always there by my side. She can read me so well. Its hard to find someone who can read me. I am the one always read others. That's one of Allah's gift to me.

Someone just question me about believing in Allah. I said that he is free to believe in what ever he want. He answer me with faith. Well, keep your faith and one day you will realize that you regret on your faith.

Girls like to hide cause we care. We care too much until we forget about ourselves. We let others happy while we suffer the pain. That is the gift from Allah. Because that is what we called as woman, our mother. The one have so many patient and gives us so much inspiration. You guys, the Adams, should appreciate us more!

I think that all i can share today. Have a good sleep and Assalamualaikum.