I was not allowed to join the next race and Max literally shut me out. We didn't talked since Silverstone. I just thought to myself, maybe I was wrong. He didnt even like me.
*beep a text
Hey, Serene? Its me Miles leclec!!
Let's go a bit down the road. So... i said my dad worked for the top team, it was the ferrari team. While i was a kid, I hanged out with Miles because he was the only kid around my age. His father, Magness Leclec was the ferrari driver. We had known each other for years but we didnt have chance to catch up since i took my degree. I heard he continued his dad's legacy and got into racing. I heard he drives for ferrari now like his dad used to be.
It is a surprise he text me because even on the last race i went, he didnt even bother to say hello.
Yeah, this is Serene. How are you? Why so sudden?*reply text
I heard you joined red bull supporting team so you must be joining the next race? Let's hand out and catch up!
Yupe i got the chance to go to the next race in Hungary. Hurm, i dont think so. I mean as a driver, you cant be disturb during that weekend.
Its cool, its just coffee or tea. See me after practice, ill text you when im free.
I guess so. We'll see.
This weekend is the last race before a 2 weeks break. I got a chance to go back home. Finally!
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The racing weekend.
Max and I still not talking but i guess i dont want to think much about it. I know my place tho.
Miles and I got together at a coffee shop and decided to grab some dinner. Maybe pizza. We catch up about our live and he told me things about his racing career which developed so fast. I know he have the talent since he was a boy. I mean, look at his dad. He had been growing up at the track so it is not a surprise to see him BEING on track. Miles and Max actually debut f1 racing the same year if im not mistaken. They were the youngest on track.
I see you are doing well. Why dont your girlfriend come this race?
I dont have any. I tried but it's hard.
I get it. I havent been in any serious relationship even in uni. Most boys are jerk and just want sex. Unbelievable. *beep
text [Max: Where are you? I heard you when out.]
[ I am with childhood friend. Dont worry about me. We are just hanging out]
[Max: Okay, please dont go back alone.]
[i'll be fine :)]
Who was that?
Just a college asking my whereabouts.
It must be a he.
Shut up. So, where are you staying?
A hotel besides hotel B. You?
Oh, hotel B.
Ill walk you back.
LOL im big enough to take care of myself. You boys sure love to act like a protecter or something.
Say what you want. I'll still walk you.
*while walking back
So, why? Why you reach me out out of the blue?
I miss you. Im sorry if we didnt talked much. You know, ive been busy and you've been busy. I actually saw you in Silerstone but, *long pause
But?
I saw you with Max. I thought you guys are together so, i dont think its the best time i came out calling your name.
Pffft! You should! I wish you did that. *laughs together
*in front of hotel B
Thanks for dinner :) Good luck tomorrow! Break a leg for me!
Sure, thanks. *smiles back Hey, can we grab another dinner after the race *miles looking down
Yeah, let's do that. My plane back will be the next day so i dont mind hanging out a bit.
Okay! I'll text you :)
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In my room Max text me
[Max:You back?]
[I am. You have anything urgent?]
[Max: Nope. Maybe can we talk]
[Sure, meet me at the lobby.]
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The lobby...
What are we talking about?
Im sorry. Im so sorry for being in the dark and keeping silence.
What are you sorry for? I dont get it.
You know what i mean...
You were drunk and .... i....i dont think it matters now.
Can you give me a chance to prove myself?
I'll think about it okay... Just dont think too much about this. Focus on your race. Let's just get back to our room.
*we were in silence even in the elevator
Im sorry... That's what Max said before i got out from the elevator.
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Fast forward to the night of the race.
Max got second and he was not really in good mood. I was kinda scared to talk to him. I saw he was happy to be in the podium but like, i knew he could have won it. That night i decided to go out with Miles because we dont see each other everyday and not as frequent as i could see Max. It will just be a friendly dinner.
[Miles: I will pick u you at your hotel at 8. Wear something nice okay. Its a date. ]
A DATE?
[A date? Are you joking?]
[Miles: Im not and please, can you just be okay with this.]
[Just dont be crazy.]
[see you at 8]
[Max: So do you have your answer?]
HUrm, am i caught in the middle of 2 guys? Max had his chance but he blew it.
[Im sorry Max but not tonight. I dont think any night will be any good too. I liked you but, i cant be with you.]
[Max: What do you mean?]
[Im just saying, you had your chance but you blew me up for 2 weeks thinking and shitting about myself.]
[I know it does MEAN something to you. I did said im sorry. How can i make it up to you?]
[Im not sure. Not tonight.]
[My flight home is in noon tomorrow, i hope we could meet before that.]
[Okay, ill text you.]
Im not sure what i should feel. Im not even sure what to say to Max if i meet hom tomorrow. I liked him before but, im not sure about a lot of things now.
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The date
Wow, this is a fancy place.
Yeah, it is meant to be that way. So, what do you think about my race?
We can talk about that all night if you want.
No, i mean, how do you think i performed?
You did great. Its just a step to the podium. Im not sure what you can improve tho, i dont drive those cars.
*laughs
We talked about our families and his plans so far. He moved to Monaco and I would probably need to move to Buckinghamshire. My mum is Brit but she lives in Bath for sometime with my dad. We used to live in Maranello Italy, near the ferrari based. He is italian. Tomorrow im going to see my grandma at Italy as my mum said they are staying for summer there.
We walked around before heading back to the hotel.
It's always pretty at night. *gazing around the city
What do you think of me? Just be totally honest with me.
I think you are cute of each effort you made. I admire your braveness to ask me out before actually asked me. Hurm, i think you are sweet in general.
Oh, no masculine? *laughs
Dont push it. *laughs I think we should head back. Its getting pretty late.
Dont you want to stay the night with me? *holding my hand, looking at me in the eye
I dont think so. I mean, this happens really fast. We shouldnt be rushing things.. *he pulls me and kiss me gently
Ump, i, er, i didnt see that coming.
You think too much about a lot of thing. I know its part of your job but u might think about letting loose sometime.. im not rushing you but i dont want you to miss any moment in your life. Sometime, you just need to just go for it. So, Serene Sergio, will you be my girlfriend?
I...Im not sure. You came to me so sudden and i feel like everything is so fast. Im not ready for that...
It's okay... Lets go back.
*in the car and Miles just parked in front of hotel B.
Here we are! Thank you for this night.
(I just lean on and kiss him) What the hell right? Im just gonna go for it! I'll be your girlfriend and lets try this shit. But im not staying with you for the night.
Im cool with that. *flustered face* Let's try this shit!
I head back to my room thinking, am i going to regret any of this? I guess it wouldnt hurt to try. Suddenly,
[Max: I saw you with Miles. You dont have to give me hope then go out fucking with another guy. Im fine if you just said earlier that you dont like me. Just forget it tomorrow.]
[I told you that. Yet YOU BEGGED FOR ANOTHER CHANCE. I cant really deal with this right now. We just officially in relationship, Miles and me and amma be honest, I didnt planned for it AT ALL. I liked you Max but, you dont show effort like Miles so i think its not fair i blew him away just because i used to like you. ] *block Max's number
I have no words. I cried that night. I dont know what hurts me the most. Is it because he cursed at me like im a whore or the fact, its impossible to be with him or i actually love him and i just lost him tonight. I cant think straight. Im glad i have at least a week to rest my head...
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