Note from author: We will be doing an episode on Max's side of story on the next episode! Im just putting out here early so that you wouldn't be confusing if suddenly the next episode intro looks a bit different :)
I saw Max sitting right next to he bed.
Are you feeling any better?
What happened last night? Did we.. er
No we didnt. Miles called me last night, he told me everything and he asked me if I could look out for you. He said, maybe you would be around red bull team's places just in case. So i when out looking for you. Im glad we, Alex and I found you not far from the hotel (the one Mile's staying).
SO he didnt went out looking for me?
I dont what to comment on that. We found you walking swiftly like you were drunk or something and ...... suddenly you collapse. I managed to catch you before your head hit the ground.
*speechless and still kinda confuse
Thanks Max and please tell Alex thanks for me. I think im going to head out to the place i should be staying.
Here. *hand a pass for red bull team If you dont feel like coming to the race is okay but i managed to get an extra pass if you ever want to come. Hey listen, before you go, i think you should at least talk to Miles.
Why?
Im no expert in relationship but i think people should at least get some sort of closure.
*i get up from the bed. Take all my things and head out.
I took a taxi to the hotel i should be staying. I know Miles will not be around because he needed to prepare for practice. I dont plan on going out today. I just grabbed anything in 7eleven nearby this hotel and locked myself in the room. I know im still angry but Max was right. I needed a closure and i might as well get some tonight. I text Miles saying, I will meet him at his room ( i dont want him to know my room) and we need to talk about it. I told him, i need at least an explanation before we end things with us.
I know it will break my grandma's heart if she knew about it. I hate to say it, maybe my dad was right too. WHY IS EVERYONE SEEMS TO KNOW ABOUT MY LIFE BETTER THAN I DO???
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At night....Meeting Miles
*Both of us just sat there looking at each other
'Let me stay first, why? Is it because i was too busy? It is because i was not pretty enough? Is it the sex? It is because of the distance?'
No, maybe some of it. Yes the distance sucks! Yes you were busier than I imagined. But that was not why i did what i did.... It was supposed to be just a fling... It was supposed to be nothing big...... I messed up because of my desire and ......... loneliness. You dont deserve me.
'I cant trust you anymore or any other guy. You see, things like this messed up a person like me badly... FYI, you are not the first one who cheated on me. I got cheated on 3 relationship including this one.. I never cheated before but at least you felt sorry for me. At least, you know i dont deserve you. Before this they said, i was too boring because I READ TOO MUCH. The last one said, i was not clingy, I ALWAYS NEED MY OWN SPACE. Now, IT WAS SUPPOSED TO BE A FLING! Im angry but i know screaming wouldnt change what happened yesterday. I know, nothing i do could prevent yesterday except if i told you i was coming... Is there anyone besides that woman?'
No, i promise you im not lying.
'I cant change you but i can say this, I can never be with you anymore. I might end up alone my whole life but it will be much much better. I wish you the best for your career and please, treat anyone else after me, better.' *i walked out and go straight to my room.
I dont have the strength to talk to him without tearing up. I dont want him to see me crying because it shows how weak i am. I needed to vent out somehow but not in his room. I just need to be alone.
beep*
[Max: Are you okay?]
[Max: Have you eaten?]
[Max: If you need someone, i can come.]
[Max: Can you at least let me know that you are somewhere safe. Or im coming to your room.]
[Im fine. Im in my room. Just focus on your qualifying tomorrow.]
[Max: I'll wait for you at the pit tomorrow after we finish qualifying.]
I know he is trying to be nice. I just cant have it right now....
I had been cheated before and each one of it hurts. What hurts me the most, both of them who cheated on me actually got into a better relationship after me and i heard the first one is married and the second one is engaged. It makes me feel like im the problem... You dont just messed up with someone's life and go on to live a better one. You should suffer too! Am i making people better but why i dont get someone better???
I need a drink.
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I when out and just googled any bar nearby. I drink, take shots and dance like i own the dance floor! No matter how shitty i dance, i need it. I deserve it. I dont deserve to be locked up and crying my eye balls out for a man who just cheated on me. I should go out and celebrate that IM FUCKING SINGLE AGAIN! I could made out with who ever i want. I could hook up with whoever i want! This is a bar, maybe ill meet a decent man here! I dont think so but WHAT DO I HAVE TO LOOSE.
I didnt think much about that night. It was more of letting my guard down and be as wild as i could even not as wild as anyone think of. I had a few beer, a few shots then i dance. I felt like i needed to vomit so i go to the ladies room. Puke as much as it goes. Then i repeat the first thing. This time someone actually bought me drink and drink with me. I guess i was pretty drunk so i dont remember his face. He dragged me out from the bar, i tried to push him but he holds me so tight! I cant escape! He started groping me, I KNOW I NEED TO ESCAPE BEFORE HE DO SOMETHING ELSE! I focus all my strength on my leg and find the right angle to kick his balls! I bite his whatever (not sure which part of his body, maybe his neck) and he let go of me and i IMMEDIATELY KICK HIS BALLS!
I ran as fast as i can! I just ran my heart out until i feel safe enough to look back. Im not really sure where i am so i called Max.
'Max, im sorry to disturb you but i need your help. Can you picked me up... im scared. Im not sure where i am so i'll share my location. Can i sleep with you, i mean anywhere in your room.... I just dont feel safe alone....'
'I'll be there. Just dont go anywhere.'
'Be fast okay. Im scared....'
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Max arrived in 20 minutes. I kept quiet for the whole journey. Max gave me his room and he went out to Alex's room to sleep. I felt so ashamed of myself...
The next morning, I left as soon as dawn. I texted Max saying im sorry and i will be there when he finish his qualifying race.
I arrived in my room and packed my things. I decided to take the earliest flight back home tomorrow. Maybe.
I spent the rest of the day walking around the city. I was not 100% sober but good enough to walk. Probably i just needed to get out there and see the world. Interact with humans who finds me fascinating because i looked white but i understand Japanese. You know what i mean. I watched too much anime. I understand most of the conversation but i cant talked back 100% Need some polishing.
I waited for Max in the red bull garage. The drivers usually will have some interview after racing so you cant meet them immediately.
[Max: im done. Meet me at my caravan.]
[Okay.]
In the caravan,
'Im sorry for last night. Ill apologies to Alex after this.'
It's fine. The reason i asked to meet you, I need you to know something. I like you. I cant stop thinking about you. When i knew you were with Miles, i was so pissed off because i was just a few second away from saying I want YOU! i NEEDED YOU.
'Wait, i heard you were with someone else in NY.'
No, its not true... I was with my sister and we met her friends there. I looked like i was alone with the girl in the photo it was because we were waiting for the others to get out from a shop. I guess, she have a crush on me so they let her alone with me. She actually confessed but i dont want to be with someone as young and my sister. Kinda weird... You can asked my sister, i can call her.
'No dont. Max, i like you too but not now. Can you wait for me? I'll be the one asking you out. I promise! I need more time to heal....'
I understand. I'll wait for you. *hug
'Can we go back to the hotel?'
Let's go.
'I watch you race tomorrow. I'll cheer for you and Alex. ;)'
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Something happened to Max's car so he got DNF for that race. That was a very bad news and what pissed him off, it was Miles who pushed him in the corner which caused his car to spin and damage. The good news was Alex finished forth. Max is certainly not in a good mood.
[Max: Meet me at my caravan.]
I rushed to his caravan. I saw him, holding back his tears a bit.
'Hey, its okay. Let's get our from here.'
This time I drive his car out from the racing place to somewhere calmer.
'Max, you want to eat or grab a drink or anything?'
We find a decent place to eat. I choose sushi, I know very typical to be eating sushi in Japan. It taste better if you eat here.
'You wanna talk about the race?'
There is nothing much to talk about. What happened had happened, we just need to improve the next race.
'It's not your fault. I saw how it happened and let's just....not talk about it.' ( i need to cheer him up!)
*Max just playing with his food. Not really eating.
'Hey, eat your food or i'll make you eat some.'
I dont feel like... *i just push some sushi into his mouth. He dont really have much choice but to swallow it.
*i laughs ' Yupe, thats what i will do if you show me that attitude.'
I dont wanna eat anymore.. *He stands up and started to walk away
'Hey wait up. Let me pay the food, at least.'
I paid for the food. Im still hungry tho. It is not fun to see him like this. I know this is not the first time he had crashed but this is the first time im seeing it. I need to do something to cool him down.
Max is already waiting inside the car. I knocked his window, he opened the door, i pulled him out.
I dont wanna ..... * i pulled him closer to me and give him a nice kiss and he kiss me back!
As we separate from smooching,
'Can we eat now?'
*Max just shake his head agreeing.
So, i should always stay sad if i want that to happen. *Max
'If you dare, next time i'll just call Alex to pick you up cause im not going to entertain grumpy Verstappen.'
*we laugh and head out elsewhere
I needed to be bold and i guess that is a bold move!
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It is the last race of the season, Max got his podium this time as runner up. He did well this season. Our relationship was also going very well. We knew that we are a thing but nothing official. I mean, i would watch him race from the garage and not in the place where usually 'girlfriend' watch. We keep our relationship very low profile and very private. Only certain people know about us. The news calling me the 'mystery girl' because you dont really see us in public as ourselves. Max is very good at disguising himself whenever we need to go out in public. Im happy! So happy that i the thought of Max gives me good mood.
My manager came to me as we are cleaning up the garage. I would help around as much as i could because i enjoyed working with these people. If you take interest in their work, they will always help you do well in yours.
'Serene, can i talk with you for a minute?'
'Yeah, sure.'
'This is your new contract. Welcome to the team :)'
'Thank you! Thank You!!!'
'Return to me this contract as we got back.'
'I WILL!'
I jumped and the one that saw it congratulate me. I see good things starting to get in line.
I called Max ASAP!
'Hey, hey wait, you are talking to fast!'
I GOT THE JOB. I JUST GOT MY NEW CONTRACT! LETS GO OUT AND CELEBRATE!!
'Heyyyyy, nice! Yeah, let's go out!'
Wear something VERY VERY NICE OKAY?! IT'S A PROPER DATE!
'Heyyyyy, look at you asking me out. Lemme think first...'
Im just gonna ask Alex see if he is available tonight.
'Im just kidding!! I'll pick you at 8.'
NO, I WILL pick you at 8.
'Kinda arrogant for a first date.'
BYE!
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I asked some help for Max's personal assistant about this date. I had planned it for awhile and the contract was actually an excuse to make it happen tonight. If it didnt happened i would still create and excuse to make it happened. It nearly cost me some trouble because i asked his assistant to clear his schedule tonight and suddenly he won second place so he was invited to the party and a dinner with one of the big boss. Yet, Max himself refuse and said he had a very special dinner with a very close friend directly to the boss. So yeah, that happened.
I asked his PA about where i should go and how to avoid all the press and shits like that. She helped me with it. She gave some tips about getting out from any trouble. I hope nothing bad go down tonight.
So i picked him up on his hotel. I hired a driver and a private car. The car came with the driver. It is a very private restaurant. It only serves for certain people and only accept like 20 guest per night. They have exclusive menus and everything here is exclusive. I managed to get this place is because i asked Miles for a favor. Its the least thing he could do. He pulled some strings and voila! I got in! All i need is to arranged to transport and plan the rest which i did.
'Wow! How do you managed to get this kind of place!'
"I have help from some friends. This is Abu dhabi, nothing is impossible."
While we are having dinner,
"Do you think, we could work?"
'This is working better than i thought. You dont have to be so humble about it. I never felt so hard for a girl before. I do miss those flustered face. *Max laughs'
"Shut up.. *i smile* I hope you like this date."
'I love it! I love you too.'
*I almost chock my food. (coughing) I saw Max's face is soooooooo red. All he could do is looked the other way.
"I love you too too!" *we smile and hold hands :)
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