I believe in faith and destiny. Nothing happens in coincidence.
It all started when i was a kid. My dad was a f1 driver back in the days. We were not friendly with Ferrari teams to be frankly. He used to test drive for most of the teams except Ferrari and William. I would come to his races whenever my mum could bring me. I was very shy to play around because i dont really know English. I understand but im not a fluent speaker. Most of the kids there would hang out and play together while i would stare from a distance. One day, this girl, she was taller than me and spoke fluent English. I could tell her father must be some sort of engineer because her clothes has some grease on it. You see, driver's children always appear clean and usually will wear some sort of the team's cap. They have a special pass to watch the race. This girl, she looked like she just came out from a car work shop or something. She said, hey, you wanna play? I said yes.
We played with other kids. Those kids asked my name and talked proudly about their dad. I would love to do so but i didnt know how to say it. It was pretty easy for the others to realize that my english was not good. I mean, kids were mean back then. Instead, she backed me up. She spoke some other language that the others didnt understand which now i know its Italian and she said its amazing to speak words people dont understand so they would never know you cursed them! I thought she was cool. So the kids asked me cursing words in my language, dutch. That was how we met. Serene and me.
I didnt realize who she was until we started to talk about each other. Like i said, there is no such thing as coincidence.
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Monaco 2015
I started my career as a f1 driver for torro rosso Red Bull team. I was among the young driver there. In Monaco, I arrived at the circuit kinda early. We had our garage besides ferrari team this time. I heard they were testing the engine and discussing about something mostly in Italian. Suddenly, i heard a girl's voice speaking aggressively towards someone,
"Im not trespassing! My dad is the engineer for ferrari team."
'Miss, we need to see some pass.'
"scemo... (silly), let me call my dad."
Mio amore! Im so sorry. Let her in! She's with me.
"I told you."
She sound pretty mad about what happened.
I thought it was hilarious because they were being very loud in the morning.
Suddenly i heard someone called out a name that sound sooo familiar,
'SERENE COME HERE! I need your help with these things.'
Serene?
*FLASH BACK
Hey, wanna play? *Serene
Yes!* Max
Im serene, you?
Max!
Come, let's go!! *Serene
*holy shit is this the same Serene?!
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I know this would sound stupid but i kinda followed her to the coffee shop. I had finished my qualifying, as i was walked out from my caravan, i saw her walking passed towards the exit. I wasted to rush and greet her in person, suddenly my friends came and asked if we could go out and get something. I had to agree with them. I thought to myself, maybe next time Serene.
As we were walking around the city, one of use actually got excited as she saw starbucks because she said it was impossible to find one in Aussie. We went along, as we entered the place,
"YES!" Serene stood up and the almost everyone laughs. I got love struck! Not to sound cozy but this is a sign!
I saw her rushed out from the shop and left her notebook. A book filled with awesome drawings and a pen. It's a red bull merchandise pen! I looked up, she's wearing a reb bull cap! Although he dad work with ferrari, SHE'S A RED BULL FAN! I chased her and gave her book back. I saw her face, such red tomato. SO cute! She just ran away. I did left a note in her book. I hope she sees it.
I got back to the hotel im staying after a brief meeting with the team for the racing tomorrow. I saw Serene AGAIN! This time she was chasing the elevator. I heard her curses on the man who didnt wait for her.
'Can this day be so much worst...'
"I dont think so, the day is about to end."
She looked at me like she saw a ghost. I almost cracked a smile.
"Aren't you the girl i saw at the coffee shop?"
'Yeah... oh.. im soo sorry. Thanks for giving me my notebook' *her face getting more red than before
"Are you okay? Your face seems fluster."
'Im fine :)'
As she left, i thought to myself, yupe she definitely dont remembers me.
Since that year, every race in Monaco i would always try my luck to meet her at the starbucks. I would come out to the same starbucks just to see if she was going to be there. It sounded like a hopeless romance but i like it in that way.
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Fast forward to 2019.
I heard today is the day a new intern will be introduced to the team. She was the first student red bull sponsored for aerospace engineer. I came to see the girl. As i looked passed the crowd, my jaw dropped! Isn't that SERENE?! My heart skips a beat. This was another sign!!
Drivers dont really work with intern without any particular reasons especially if they are training to be the engineer. I need to find an excuse to make it happen. I decided to call for a meeting about the data that they collected during test drive. I suggest that it will be a good expose to the intern. I was surprised they agreed to my suggestions probably because we need to improve our car better than the last race. I was excited for the meeting!
Then i saw Serene crying behind the building, dammit. The reason i walked out there it was because i thought some employees that sneak out for a cigarette last week. I tried to calm her down but im not sure if it works as she literally took off as she saw me. As she looked up and SAW ME.
During the meeting, of course i looked at her constantly. This meeting was for her! She needs to know about handling this stuff and be in the same room with me as frequent as it could happen. Sound chilly but its true. LOL
I saw her that night at the coffee shop. She looked calm and cool. Yes, cool! She declined my offer to grab some drink and i think, i should leave her alone that night after what i did at the meeting. I dont want her to think like im some sort of pervert following her around.
I wish i stayed because i really want to get to know her in person...
Silverstone
I took a look at the list of employee's phone number and their names. That was how i got her text. Then i faked text someone who's name below her name to make it seems like i had the wrong number. Am i making any sense here? I dont think so. I could have any girl I want but here i am, chasing a person who are not chasing me! I looked desperate and some part of me admitted that i am pretty desperate to get her to notice me! I just want her to know that i am still just another guy on the street. Without f1 and red bull, i am just an ordinary guy...
She was a bit surprised i texted her. She told me she is going out to the nearest town and look around. I was a bit nervous so *laughs i followed her from a distance. I saw her sitting alone and smiling around. Im not sure why but, she did. I walked and gave her a heart attack. LOL
What we had there meant a lot to me. I cant stop thinking about her.
Dont get me wrong here. I was not drunk actually. I skipped the party but i needed to look cool. I wanted her to see me cool but it turned out to be such a disaster.. I really wanted her to stay. Its not sex. Its not anything in that way. I wished i had told her, please stay. Lets talk till dawn. Lets get to know each other. Lets just be in the moment. I just.....*sigh I just wanted her to stay...
- The week i left her alone -
I was thinking about Serene a lot. It almost messed up my race. She was not invited to the next race so i didnt have any excuse to talk to her. I wanted to make up any excuse to do so but, i didnt want to risk it.
As a f1 driver, each race is a risk for life. I took those risks and I barely think twice about it. But with Serene, the risk is much higher. In races, you won some, you loose some but there will always the next race, the next season but with a girl who i like a lot, you dont simply came across that everyday. I dont see my life like that. I dont see a girl that i have feelings for like any other girls. That is why anything involve Serene is always a higher stake for me. *sigh
I had been trying to text her but i left it in draft or delete it. I never send any.
- The Hungarion GP -
I got second place but it was kinda heart breaking because Lewis got me just by bit. The press was saying that Mercedes had better strategic. I just knew i could have win it but, i ended up second. It was true I was not in a good mood. Serene was with the team. I think i saw her trying to consult me but i walked away. It was a mistake but i was not in my proper head. I could have flipped on her. That will be far more worst. Urgh...
I tried to hang out with her but she was out with a friend. I tried to talk about Silverstone but it didnt go out well. I never thought it was Miles Leclec her 'childhood' friend. Seriously she remembered that guy but not me?! I tried to ask for second chance but she pushed me hard. Then later that night i saw she kissed Miles, it blew me away. My anger got the best of me. I literally burst it on her.
She broke my heart and i broke hers. At least she got someone to turn on.
I asked Alex to go out for a drink.
My drunk ass told Alex everything about Serene... I told him about how i knew Serene and my feelings for her.
I still remembered him laughing because i actually cried while talking to him. I dont usually do that. It just happened.
We heard the other drivers were at the same bar. We talked about Miles because I was curious what so 'special' about him. You see, even his teammate told us he was quite a casanova. They were surprised as i told them he just settle himself a girl... I could have save Serene from the trap but i was BUSY BEING SUCH A COWARD!
Maybe it is true, coincidences happened and we need to stop thinking too much about it. Especially taking each one of it as a SIGN
I regret it but i deserve a chance to be with her. It was unfair how she sees Miles's effort but not mine! I tried! I knew it was not enough but it was an effort...
- Summer break -
I went to NYC with my sister. She wanted me to join her going out with some of her friends. I already said NO like tons of time but she insisted and she brought up about how i was always away from home and never spend time with her. SO i tagged along as she insisted. I never knew she actually set me up with one of her friend. omg... That particular photo the paparazzi got and spread those false rumors.. *sigh
A week later i got a text from Alex saying Serene knew about the photo and she was pissed off. I couldnt believe it. She had Miles on that time. Why would she be pissed? As i got back, she avoided me at any cost. I tried to act like i dont care too. We had our own life.
- Suzuka -
I heard Serene took a few days off. I didnt imagine she actually came to see Miles on the track.
As i finished up on the circuit, i got back to the hotel. Suddenly
[Miles: Did you see Serene?]
[Max: Why would I? She is not here on this race.]
[Miles: I messed up.. *miles told me what happened* Can you please look around for her too, just in case if she came to the RB team. She came alone.]
[Max: I'll try to look around.]
I texted Alex to help me out too because both of us knew its dangerous for Serene to roam around the city alone. She could be anywhere in this hour..
We rushed out and looked around the area Miles was staying. It was a few blocks from ours. Miles was out too looking. We just got lucky we saw Serene in her black lather jacket, the one i saw in Monaco in 2015.. She was walking like she was drunk. We screamed her name but she didnt hear us. I ran to her and immediately caught her from falling. She was sobbing and all her mascara melted by her tears. She was dreadful. I told Miles we found her and she will be sleeping in my room while i sleep in Alex's.
The next morning, I woke up early and see how shes doing. I sat there about 2 hours staring at her. She looked amazing despite those black patches on her face. I know its the mascara and eyeliner. She woke up and she looked down first, she exhaled loud! I think she was relief that nothing bad happened at her. Then she looked left and saw me.
"Are you okay?"
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