M: You free next Saturday?
S: It depends.
M: Can i have my second and last date together. I think i can't managed other time or i'll miss your dateline.
S: Ok, i'll compromise. Where and when?
M: Nice! I'll pick you up for breakfast at 9am. We would be in town. Just a casual date.
S: Should we wear any disguise?
M: Not you. I'll managed something.
S: I thought you hated disguises (he enjoys attention in public).
M: I do but i'll compromise for you and only for you :) See you saturday.
I get it. The boys have similar schedule. Alex asked me out on our last dinner date on Sunday tho. They will have the next race next week and my interview result will come out in the next week too. Fingers cross!!
THE SATURDAY
Max fetched me at 9am and he drove me somewhere im not familiar of. I guess we cross country because it took us about 1 hour to reach here. We reached at this breakfast cafe. Let me try to describe what i saw, the cafe is bright blue (called as tiffany cafe) and there's sprinkles decoration around. There's also like a corner of photo booth. I never knew this kind of breakfast cafe existed.
"So, what do you think?"
It looks, bright? How do you about this place?
"My sister came here once with her boyfriend. I saw her IG so i asked her about it."
That make sense. I hope the food here taste as good as the place looks.
The breakfast was okay. Pancakes could never be wrong anywhere except if you burn it. The coffee was really nice. Before we left, Max convinced me to take photo at the photo booth. It was surprising because he dont usually like those kinda thing.
"Let's take some photos for the sake of old times. :)" (I'm fine with it)
So where's the next destination?
"Here's your pamphlet. I made this last night. We will follow this tentative."
Since when you do things like this?? Im amaze *excited face
"I've been thinking. If im gonna win you back,i might as well show you that I could change to be better. I know you used to plan most of our dates which was fine. It's one thing i know you would love. You had been dragging me to plan dates since i could remember."
Let's begin! (I'm touched. He actually paid attention to my ranting.* trying not to smile tooo much)
First destination, the town museum. As we arrived quite early, we were the only one there. Max dont really enjoy any 'educational' date like museum, anything historical to be exact. Yet he shown such interest here. Maybe he want to impress me but i dont mind. I like curious cat Max.
Second place, chocolate factory. Here, we needed to line up for a bit because a kindergarten came for a field trip. Those kids are sooo adorable and even some of them knew Max! They requested some photo with him, he seems surprised to have little kids as fans, i mean, im not. Boys will always be boys. We saw how they made those chocolates here, at the end of the factory there's the chocolate cafe. At the chocolate bar, we could try make our own chocolate bars. I did it like 3 times before Max dragged me away. He said i took to long and some kids were pretty upset about it. LOL I would totally come back here!
Third place, we need a break from anything sweet. I think this place is special for me. "This place have an antique bookstore just down that road. I know you loveee reading so maybe you might find this place , idk maybe comforting. " This place is something else on earth! Outside the store, there's like a guest book. Even the book itself looks older than my grand grand parents. This book store as its own basement. As we entered the store, everything looks pretty modern. As we move deeper into this place, it's like we're walking to the past because the theme of the store slowly go back in time. Bookshelves made of wood like you see in the old movies. Even the decorations and interior designs looks like we're in different era. In the basement, there's like a section of world history in summary. Each era, they would recommend the famous books in those days which you could purchased at as ebooks. Even the helpers in each section of the bookstore wore outfit depending on which era they represent. It's amazing!! It took me hours in the store and i bought some books i could never find elsewhere!
We had lunch break! Time flies so fast, it's 2.30 pm already.
Max drove to a nearby park. This place is very public and i saw people having picnic. We bought some subways and Max had matt from the previous night (our previous dinner).
"Let's eat here."
In this public space? Are you okay with it?
"I see no problem. We had been in 'open public' since breakfast. Not everyone knows me dear :)"
We eat and talk. Nothing special tho. About his latest races, about my work, about our families...
"So, my mum send her regards to you."
Oh, okayy i'll text her later on. How was her health?
"She is fine now. She just need to avoid any stress. Hurm, i told her we broke up. She got pretty upset at first."
....* i cant say much. His mum loves me and really enjoys my company. Whenever summer break, i would came along to visits her.
"Hey, it's fine! I told her it was my fault and i would try to win you back. You know how much she loves you so, can you do me a favor and talk to her. I'm not using her health as an excuse but you know, she gets agitated easily lately."
I'll try my best :) I love her too even when we're not together.
"Do you wanna go home or we continue this trip?"
Let's continue!
"We'll go to the next 2 places then we go back."
I'm fine with that.
We walked to the gelato shop nearby the park. He always remember how much I love ice-cream after lunch. I glanced at his eyes while he was looking away. All those best memories came back flashing and i dropped a few tears without realizing it.
"Heyyyyy, what happened? Why are you crying? Did i do anything?"
Omg im sorry. Nothing. I guess the dust or pollen messing up with me.
Am i being pathetic? Let's just focus on the present. The next destination, we're supposed to go to the art gallery but they cancelled it. I saw they have a sculpture class for amateur, we were lucky they had two last spot. It was fun to be here. I saw a totally different side of Max. He was very determine during the class. I only saw that face if he talks about his work or with the engineer about his car. I never knew he have passion for art. He tried to sculpture fish, it didnt looked much like fish but, i just smile looking as his art.
We spend too long on the class, i decided we cancel the last place we should be going. It's almost sundown so before heading back, Max said let's watch sunset on the park we went earlier. It was beautiful. While waiting for the sunset, the sky turns pink and purpleish. It was so beautiful way to end the day.
"Do you want to eat anything before heading back?"
Im too exhausted to think about eating. Can we just head home?
"Yeah, let's go."
I slept all the way home.
"Hey, you're home."
Thankss Max. It was fun and beautiful all at once :)) I had a good time with you today. It felt like old days.
Max leaned on for a kiss, i kiss him but it was a brief kiss. I got out from the car, waved Max as he drove away.
I can't help myself from tearing up while walking to the door all the way to bed. This pain could end if I just get back with Max. We can act like nothing happened and live as how we used to be. We could plan our future better. Maybe get marry in a few years, after i finished my grad school and have kids like any normal family. Do i really want to be with HIM? A future could be plan with whoever i want.
I cant really sleep that night because the next day i'll be having a dinner with Alex. The last date with him.
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*ringtone
Hello? *sleepy voice
'Its alex here.'
It's morning on Sunday for God's sake. I thought we're having dinner...
'We do. It's actually 12pm now. Hurm, should i come back later?'
Come back later? Are you on my doorstep?
'Sort off..... Hurm, can you come out a minute?'
I'm looking like a monster right now, i dont think so.
'Just come out. You look fine in any condition.'
Give me a minute. *grab bath rob
[Opens the door]
'Tadaaaa!'
HUh?
'I got you a dress for tonight's dinner. I asked my mum and sister to choose for me. Also a shoes or whatever you might call it.'
I MUST wear this?
'Not really. Well, I asked you out quite last minute so i thought you might not have the time to go out to find any dress or what to wear. It's a pretty special place so i kind need you .. hurm, honestly, i dont care what you want to wear tonight. My mum convinced me to do this. I'm sorry if i offended you in any way..'
So you're a mummy son huh? Lol Some part of it is true, i didn't have time to go out especially to buy dress or any fancy outfit. I wore what i have. Im not sure what I wanna wear tonight. This gesture is new to me, kinda weird but its actually thoughtful. Thanks Alex *receive the boxes* You wanna come in?
'I would love too but I have lunch with my family in town. See you tonight ^////^' (he blush which made ME blush too)
Ok, see you :))
I said it. This is new to me. I unbox it real quick. Hurm, is my eyes deceiving me? THIS IS VERA WANG'S DRESS!! aRe YOu kIDdIng MEEEE????? The shoes, ITS A FLAT!!! How is this possible? Did i ever mentioned to him I hated heels? Of course im going to wear every pieces of this. I always wanted a Vera Wang, i thought I would have it on my wedding day someday, i mean tonight is a date not even like the date of my life. IDK this guy is NEXT LEVEL! How can you get a vera wang in such short notice, YOU DONT! He planned this so smooth, i could barely see anything! Wait, wait, do I fit this??
*strip naked ASAP and try the dress on
It fits, thanked God!! A bit loose but that's fine. How, i mean how? You dont simply guess body measurements so accurate to buy a custom made dress. VRW don't sell like in any mall you can walked in. I mean, i could barely breath right nowwwww!!
Kinda like this dress but less revealing and in purple-pinkish. So i wear a cute flower headband with it and cute necklace that goes right in the middle. This dress made me so nervous thinking about tonight. I'm kinda scared too. I mean, this dress cost a fortune! I just knew it as soon as i saw some crystals around the upper part of the dress. This dress, this brand is not cheap AT ALL, with crystals, MAN IT MUST HAVE COST LIKE A PAIR OF KIDNEY OR SOMETHING.
Deep down, I felt like a princess...
8PM
Alex picked me up. Can you imagine a cliche scene in typical movies where as the girl walks down the stairs the guy had waited while staring surprise of how astonishing the girl looks.
'Omg, you look beautiful tonight.'
Thanks, it's the dress actually.
'You could wear anything still looks amazing :)'
Alex drove us to the restaurant. I think i saw this place sometime when i go to town to get my groceries. I didn't know it's a grand restaurant.
You been here before this?
'Once or twice i guess.'
[We got in, the waiter walked us to our table. We're sharing table with another 4 people. Hurm, a bit weird but maybe that's how they do things here. Maybe this dress is a little too much for this place. Suddenly everyone stand up. Im confuse..]
.......
OMG it's a wedding! I saw the bride and groom walked in and everyone cheering.
Who's wedding is this?
'I'm friend with the groom. We met during my days in f2. You're my plus one :)'
The usual wedding tentative. The speeches, toast then dinner. Then cutting cake ceremony and now slow dance before party dance. The usual.
[Make conversation with Alex as soon as the other table-mates had walked away dancing and meeting other people.]
Alex, how do you know my size?
'Honestly, i dont. I had my sister tried it for you. She looks a bit like you, i mean, the size. You're slightly taller. We actually took a risk about it. If you don't fit in at least my sister would get the dress. I mean..'
It's fine. I totally get it but Alex, I insist to pay for this dress. Its....too much! Its.. Vera Wang! Please...
'*laughs* No, just dont. It's not as expensive as you had in mind.'
Vera Wang is never 'less' expensive. I know i work with machines but, i know about these kinda dress.
'*laughs louder*'
What's so funny??
'I never see you soo serious like this.'
I mean, er ...
'My sister has some friends working for Vera Wang. They are still amateur but they do have great designs. She managed to request for this dress for you. She owned me some favors, so this one of it I asked for. Yeah, it's not easy and this dress took awhile to complete but they don't cost you as much as VRW's dresses for market. Your dress is more like a project. Just, chill okayy?'
I'll try. You are totally something you know.
'Do you like it?'
No... I LOVE IT! Omg, i had always wanted a VRW's dress since I had my prom. I never told anyone about it tho.
'You did told me once. You was drunk that time. *pfft* You were nagging about how Max didn't send your dress for dry cleaning and wash it with other clothes. Your dress end up damage and full with other stain. It was your favorite dress. You asked me out to accompany you drink that night as a protest to Max. You told me you wanted VRW but you could never afford one, yet.'
I did what? omg...wait, isn't that like last year?
'I guess so. I remember that night you were so wasted, you almost kissed me, that was what i thought but actually you passed out right to my face. Hahahaha! I was so nervous.'
Im so embarrass right now..
'Don't be! They way you embrace yourself envies me. You dont care what people think about you. Your personality that got me hooked on... I know it's not right to have a crush on your best friend's girlfriend but i cant help myself. You are worth the wait, the heart break, even if you choose Max, i have no regrets. Let's just enjoy the rest of the night :) I know you need to get up early tomorrow so we can go back now if you want.'
We got out early. 'You eat spicy food?' I said, i do.
'I know a place that sells the best taco in town and still open in this hour.'
Let's go then! (I'm still hungry because its a wedding, we dont eat full course. I mean we did but all those dancing and speeches always makes you hungrier. Maybe just me.)
So Alex, tell me something you don't usually tell people about yourself.
'I'm asian.'
I knew that. You took Thailand super license. Kinda obvious. People already know some part of you are Asian *laughs
'Well, maybe about my past relationship. Hurm, it was beautiful to be honest. We dated for quite sometime. By that time, i thought we're hoing to end up marrying each other and have kids. Then, i hit a rough patch where i was always angry. I was not winning much races. I lost sponsors and I can't effort racing. She stayed by my side but I was stupid trying to prove to her she that .... she hurm... Well, I kinda became wild for a duration that I accidentally kissed a girl which a friend took picture and shown to her. She left for good. I tried to apologies but I knew i made it hard for her. I let her go. I changed since that. I try to improve my racing and here I am. If I didn't messed up, she might still be here with me.'
That's deep. I didnt mean to bring up any scars..
'It's okay. It was so long ago tho. I tried dating, i had other exes but no one was as special as she was.'
I get it. First love is the hardest.
'True. How about you?'
Hurm, i'm simple. I always wanted to be a novelist or a writer, i even took literature for my minor ^^. I told my dad about it but he thought i was joking. So, yeah, I just laughed with him.
'Have you ever write anything?'
I did actually. When i was in junior high, i wrote like short stories using a secret signature name. I dont really have much friends so only the publisher, the president of our newspaper club knew about me. He even asked me out once, he was the first guy i dated. It was just a date tho. It was super awkward.
'Hahahaha maybe you should do it part time or something.'
I dont have the time. Besides, my writing passion had disappear since i started working. I can't focus on writing because i'm too occupied in this industry.
'Yet now you're waiting for your scholarship to fly. Post grad is a big deal! It must be awesome to do what you always wanted to do.'
You love racing and f1 is a dream come true. It's almost every racers' dream to be here. I appreciate speed but I love the idea of making the speed possible. Designing one of the car or a part of it, it's like the driver is driving a part of you too. Each car, each part of it represent a person, a team. We dont need the credit but we do want to see success. Im so sorry, i talked too muchh
'It's beautiful :) I'll appreciate more when i drive. It's getting late. I should send you home.'
Yeah, let's go.
Reach home.
You wanna come in?
'Huh, me? You'll be working tomorrow. I shouldn't bother you...'
I lean and kissed him while grabbing his collar. I insist...
He stayed the night. I had wonderful night. I hate that I need to wake up early for work. I woke up and I stared at Alex sleeping soundly next to me. He looks peace and soft. I feel safe.
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