The last letter

Nico and I were friends since i can remember. We go through most of things together. Kindergarten, primary and high school. We share something that no one will understand, letters. Why people never understand? It started since he had to move away because he got accepted into Cambridge University. We always give letters to each other even phones already exist and computer with internet also exist.

I said about the special things about letters to him. It will makes us excited as we get it. It will make us keep every single letter we get. We will appreciate the beauty of writing. Hahaha Both of us were like the freak in school. We even sent letters to each other during primary and high school. I think, that makes us closer.

As time passed, I changed. But, Nico never change.

I got accepted into one of the university in New York. Distance keep us apart. After awhile, i met someone new. Without realizing it, i felt for that person. I stopped replying any letters from Nico.

But Nico never gave up and keep on send me new letters telling about England and stuff like that. I stopped bother and i stopped read all the letters. I only read the letters went i had fight with that 'new' person and i only write the reply but never sent it.

As time passed, i was engaged and my mum said that Nico already graduated and Nico really looking forward about meeting me after all these years.

By that time, i just thought about how lame Nico is being because after all the years i never reply the letters but Nico never give up. How sad Nico's live. Maybe i am Nico's only friend.

One day, as I was having lunch with my fiance, I met Nico. Nico was so happy to see me but i wasn't. I pushed Nico aside and acted like i didn't knew Nico. Nico never changed the dressing style. I was so ashamed to have someone like Nico near me.

That was the last time i saw Nico .... Before my wedding, i got a letter from Nico. But i never read it.

Until today .... as i was packing my old stuff because i was going to move out from my house to travel with my husband. I found his letter. The last letter. I opened it. He sent me with a magnet written, 'BFF' and a keychain. Also with a mirror.

Dear Nicole,

Our names will never keep us apart from this friendship. Do you remember the old days? I never forget it. Its the only moment we had as the freak genius in school. I am sorry about the other day. Maybe i should change my dressing code before meeting you. I don't know that you had change your style. You look superb and so stunning that time. Your fiance also handsome which suits both of you guys.

I am sorry it took a long time to actually send a letter to you. Actually i had something to tell you. I had cancer. Just a minor cancer in lungs. Both of my lungs were effected. You don't have to worry about me because i never want to make you sad. I am fine because the medicine is working. Maybe i will get better after one or two surgeries.

I gave you the magnet, as a symbol of your relationship. The keychain, i want you to have a piece of me everywhere you go. At least I can always be with you.. The mirror, because i want you to appreciate the beauty you have. When ever you see anyone as gig as i am still, just look at the mirror before you mock or anything. I want you to remember who you are.

I will have the surgeries in next week. If they fail, i can die... I heard your wedding is just around the corner. I always want you to be happy. Congratulation.

Remember how we used to plan our wedding during kindergarten? Hurm, sweet memories. If i die, never let our memories fade into my grave too. I never want to see you cry at my grave. Always come with a smile and tell me about your day. I love you and always will.

Your true friend,
Nico

Yeah i cry. I dial home and, my mum said he just passed away yesterday. The last surgeries work out but it attack him back after some years. Mum said he never get marry or even have any girlfriend. He had a great job as a creative novel writer. He always came home asking about my updates.

I cry .... i felt stupid!

All the old memories come into my head. I remember how we use to laugh, our jokes, our secrets and our friendship vows.

I used to wear big glasses with grandma clothes. But my roommates make over me in university.

I seldom came home nor called home.

*after some weeks*

I go back home and visits his grave. I bring along every letters that i never sent. With his favorite flowers, sunflowers.
I sit beside the stone name and started to talk..

I am such an idiot to leave you alone. I never realize and I am just to blind to see how big your love is. As i knew about it, i can see how i don't deserve to be your friend. I am sorry for being such a terrible friend. I don't know what to say. I love you too but its too late for me to even say it. BTW, i am pregnant my second child and its a boy... (started to cry) I am happy with my family but now only i realize how dark it was without you. I hope you forgive me from the heaven above..

I prayed to God then went back home.

I found his novels. Most of the stories was about friendship and love. And every novel he wrote, i am one of the person he dedicated to.

Since that, i always teach my children about how precious a friend can be. I gave my second child's name as Nico. And i still kept his gifts.

I am living a happy life but there is a dark side in me. Its a memorial place of Nico.